"No Illusions Left"

All of the drama
All of the guilt
The past few years,
How it’s all changed everything
How very far away I’ve been
How very far away...

For guilt that runs so deep as to
Be in my very soul
I’ll never lose it, I do not want to
It’s just another lesson, just another
Point of contention I shall carry
To the grave...

For all the wrongs I’ve done to you
Do right by yourself
That is my wish, that is my prayer
I leave it up to you, and God, and
All of the angels to
See us through...

I do not trust blindly
Nor easily, nor immediately
But you’ve had all my trust from day one
I do not love openly
My heart is closed, the key is gone
But I have let you in all along, to no regret

I have all the faith in the world in you
That is rare
I have faith in me and in God and in fate
If you have faith in me, and
That is rarer still
There is something to be said for destiny...

I am still the one who wakes up crying
I fail and I move on
Not in spirit, but in temporary,
Random homes I think will heal the wounds
Or get me closer, I always try to believe
And I’ve learned to be numb...

For this old torch I carry for
A time and place I loved
I will break free, I am trying
I am praying now for forgiveness
And for any consequences to be put to me alone
Lay all the blame on me...

I am not a child now
I have no illusions left, though I still dream
My dreams still full of fighting
But of determination, but of ambition
And no longer alone,
And no longer lonely

I know I’ll carry my demons back home
I am strong there
I know until then, they’ll plague my dreams here
Ask me would I be better off never having left
The answer is no...I would not trade it, or you, or then
For anything, for peace or love or money

I am not at peace now, with me or with you
But I will be
I am not at peace now, with life or with time
I never will be
But I’ll be happy...

All the drama
All the guilt
The past few years
How it’s all changed everything...
Changed everything, and nothing at all
And I’m still very, very far away...

-copyright 2003 White Gardenia Music
Words and music by Bree Dunsmore
All rights reserved.

These lyrics are copyright! Please do not post them anywhere else on the web, or use/reproduce them in any way, shape or form.

You are visitor # since Friday January 24 2003!

Return to lyrics
Return to White Gardenia Music's Main Page
E-mail me