"I don't always have a clear idea of what I want. I have to struggle to find out because it might be important."



Juliana Hatfield is not just a musician. She's a sensitive, hesitant, strong, nervous, intelligent, insecure woman. She's a woman of contradictions and emotions. She doesn't know. Maybe.

"Sometimes it seems like the wrong people are analyzing me. The people who really are getting it aren't talking about it."

"I don't think I'm supposed to be anyone but myself."

"I don't try consciously to present anything special, certainly not in the media. I'm not that calculating or I just can't be bothered wasting my energy trying to give people a certain image. I'm just human. I change, I evolve all the time and I guess that's bad for journalists."

"They have this cartoonish never-changing image of you. It's easier to grasp onto a cartoonish image than to grasp onto a human being with contradictions and confusion."

"How can anyone else possibly understand everything about me when I don't understand myself?"

People don't understand how someone who sells millions of records and sells out concerts could be unhappy. But they just don't realize that this adolation can't sustain a life."

"Every valuable artist is a bit of a loser I think."

"It's hard to write about a lot of things without being sappy, and maybe that's why more people don't write about them, but I just don't know how to write in any other way."

"I don't want the largest number of people as possible to listen to my music. I don't want everybody to like it. I want people who understand it to like it."

"I'm not sure how I can write these songs, but the stuff that seems to be about bad relationships are not things I've actually lived through, they're metaphors for what goes on. You can write stories out of feelings that are just feelings."

"I can't be 100% responsible for what comes out of my brain. I can't take all the blame or all the praise."

"Music is necessary to my physical and mental health. I think if I didn't have it I would just explode or something."

"I find that I don't enjoy things that I should be enjoying. I really don't know how to have fun.

"I have to figure out how to live normally."

"I feel like I'm too comfortable being alone. I feel like I should hang out with people more of the time. I feel really guilty about that."

"I've never had a relationship, a serious one. I've been in love but it doesn't mean I've been in a healthy wonderful relationship. Love doesn't always mean happiness."

"Just because I'm lonely and want to communicate doesn't necessarily mean that I like people."

"Knowing what the problem is doesn't solve the problem."

"Some suffering is just bad, but people make themselves suffer. In everything - drug addiction, bad relationships, everything. Why do they do that? There is some need. People don't want to be happy all the time."

"I just hope that I don't get so unhappy that I kill myself. That's my concern."