Far Away:
Far away and lost without you
Fate is cruel and brings me this
We are not deserving of this
You are there and I am nowhere near
The feeling I thought would go
away
Has grown and is far past to late
And all I think about now is that
You are there and I am nowhere near
CONSOLATION I WON'T TAKE IT
WELL
NOTHIN' ELSE AND NO ONE QUALIFIES
CONSOLATION I WON'T TAKE IT
WELL
CAUSE YOU ARE THERE AND I AM NOWHERE NEAR
Here it is it's waiting for us
I sit alone and watch it go
I want it back so bad right now
Just one more time and then I let it go
Take me back I want to go
I want to see your face again
I want to die inside again
Just one more time and then I let it go
And so it ends on promises
A bitter taste is in my mouth
And all I think about now is that
Someone near is finding what I want
But I'm still here and you are nowhere near
Clear Color:
Which one do you want to be like
and do you want to be liked by one of them
What's wrong with the way you are
now
and is it hard to be the way you are
I KNOW I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS
BEFORE
AND SO WILL YOU GO THROUGH THIS
YOU'LL HAVE YOUR DAY
FIND OUT WHAT YOU HAVE ON YOUR
MIND
AND HAVE A SPINE TO STAND UP
AND CHOOSE YOUR WAY
Not fair never will be for you
not supposed to be that easy for us
Try hard try to keep it in line
and by the time you get it won't matter then
SO LONG
HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD LIFE
DON'T TAKE ADVISE FROM ME OR FROM ANYONE
SO LONG YOU'RE GONNA FALL ON YOUR FACE
JUST LIKE I DID AND JUST LIKE EVERYONE
Bug Dance:
I like my lego's and my lincoln
logs
my action figures and my comic books
I build a fort and then go and read them
in the summer time
Today I think I'll make a cool
character
she'll wear a big coat with electric fur
she'll have the power she'll make you cower
when I roll the dice
DON'T SEEM LIKE LONG AGO I
HUNG OUT WITH G.I. JOE
AND WON MY LITTLE WARS IN MY BACK YARD
NOW ALL THAT NAME MEANS TO ME IS A SOBER CUP OF REALITY
THAT WAKES ME UP AND DRAGS ME THROUGH ANOTHER DAY
Scratchin' a name in a heart in a
tree
then telling my friends that she's with me
I got your letter this is forever
or until fourth grade
I ask my mom if I can go out and
play
she says my room's a mess and I gotta stay
Young man you're grounded I'm so astounded
what you put me through
God I love this feeling six years
of meaning
and the thoughts they come and go
Can't have this way of living nothin' to believe in
not anymore
Three Words:
Everything was fine 'til three little words
I know I'm gonna pay for this hurt
Fell for the lust of three little words
thought I could stomach the burn
It brought me this far those three little words
finding out this bed is too hard
It's harder than this it's harder to find
finding out this bed wasn't mine
HOLD STILL WHILE I SEVER THIS CORD
AND SAY NOTHING MORE ABOUT CHANGING YOUR MIND
IT'S TIME, LET ME DO THIS FOR ME
AS HARD AS IT IS IT'S HARDER TO LEAVE
I'm sorry for this it's my fault again
shouldn't take that long to set in
I guess it's to late we'll never be friends
not after this shady end
It's time to take back those three little words
It's much more than I deserve
It's better this way now that I'm drained
no more fight left in me
It came to this and now I know
It came to this you'll get my note
you need me to leave
Stable:
Stable cause he had a good job
Quiet, wasn't fond of small talk
was the kind of guy who'd eat his lunch alone
on the weekends he would always be at home
Doing god knows what if god had only know
Mail order and he ordered one to go
BRINGING DEATH AND DESTRUCTION TO AN OFFICE
DOWNTOWN
KILLING 23 PEOPLE AT A HALF PAST NOON
SAID HE WAS SORRY AS IF IT WOULD HELP
AND THE SPOTLIGHT'S IN HIS FACE
GONNA NOTICE HIM NOW
Stabe cause she had a good job
labeled all american mom
Bright and early Monday morning on her way
Gotta work got to get some money saved
Sipping coffee, sorting boxes, and her fate
Package opened reading "have a nice day"
BRINGING DEATH AND DESTRUCTION TO AN OFFICE
DOWNTOWN
KILLING 23 PEOPLE AT A HALF PAST NOON
AND NOW THERE'S A ROCK WITH HER NAME ON A PLAQUE
IN THE MIDDLE OF A PARK
GONNA NOTICE HER NOW
There is this old familiar sound
Don't know exactly what it is but it's a part of me
And now it's getting very loud
I hear, I hear, the voices in my head
Eighteen:
I had that same dream again, I dreamed I was an
old man dyin'
and tryin' to repent - and facing consequences for all the shit -
I've put up with. But now I've run out of steam - a broken
backed nostalgiac - no chance left to redeem - I'm longing
for my heyday give me a change, to live again
IF ONLY I WERE EIGHTEEN AGAIN I WOULD SPEND
ALL MY TIME TRYIN' TO REMEMBER WHEN....
WAS I THAT MUCH HAPPIER THEN?
IF ONLY I WERE EIGHTEEN AGAIN....
And now I'm older it seems, well, at least
while I
sleep, deep within my anxiety dreams. I comb
my hair on over, put my teeth in and give a grin.
I recollect and reflect, loves lost at
too much cost' my conscience full of
regret - and if I wake up I hope this
better be a better day
The real truth of youth is -
innocence is a blessed and a
cursed simulcast. The simple
fact is that I'm sick of every
song that dwells on the past. But
still I go on writing - how long can my
discontentment last?
When I wake from my dream, reality kicks in and
I grinned
just wonderin' what it means - the whole world screams "grow
up"
and I know I can, but I don't know when!
All About Paula:
Thought she was nice
'cause she was kind to animals
thought she was fair
cause she's a vegetarian
And now I think twice
she seems a little vacant upstairs
I know that's not nice
but neither am I
I DON'T CARE WHAT SHE THINKS OF ME
I THINK OF HER AND I'M GLAD IT'S NOT PART OF ME
WITH A CULTURED AND BRUISED MENTALITY
SHE BROUGHT IT ON HERSELF AND WE ALL PAY THE PENALTY
SHE TOOK ON THE WORLD
AND LOST EVERYTHING ON THE WAY
POOR GIRL THEY'LL SAY
She's at it again
She says I got selective reasoning
it leaves me on end
and complicates the patience in me
And now I know why
she likes the fashion of attention
She'll fuck with your mind
talkin' shit but so can I
Pink parasol, she wants a pink parasol
They'll say it's not her fault
Just a victim of circumstance and
we'll pick her up when she falls
fuck that I can't stand it
Strut:
You are the temporary void in my life
you know what you don't want
I know what you don't like
We're together so conviently
you take what you don't have
I take what you don't need
THIS IS A RACE TO THE END
IT STARTED ON A HILL AND ENDS ON A MOUNTAIN
AND WHEN THIS GAME WINDS DOWN
I OFTEN WONDER WHETHER WE'LL BE MORE THAN FRIENDS
Neck and neck I think I'm slightly ahead
You're keepin' score and I'll use it against you
Keepin' time with all the words that were said
skip a step and I'll be slightly behind you
The is a likely story
this a secret affair
this is a part of what we need to stay in this game
I guess the question is how much can you take
I've got the time and the motivation
Soon enough there'll be a lot more at stake
who's gonna be the first to fall to pieces
Has Been:
I can tell that you're not amused
with the things that we used to do
I remember that you used to be
in the middle right next to me
Think you thought it was time to leave
must of thought you'd seen everything
now your baggage is bitterness
guess nothing was as sweet as this and....
I'VE SEEN YOUR PAST IN FRONT OF ME
I'VE HEARD THE WORDS THAT YOU'VE SAID
YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE AROUND
WHO SEEMS SO SERIOUS AND
I guess I really didn't realize
friends of mine could be this way
It's not your fault you had to change
I just wanted it to stay the same and...
SO NOW I'M SITTING HERE IN DOUBT - OF
MYSELF
YOU'RE NOT THE CAUSE OF IT DON'T FLATTER YOURSELF
I'm really sorry that you seem to feel this way
and
I'm really sorry that you seem to feel this way
Sometimes I find it rather hard to forget
some things you said weren't really that bad
But it's a promise you made to me
said the words and didn't mean a thing
Believe:
I don't believe in your crazy theories
I hate your dreams cause they make me weary
I don't subscribe to the bullshit that you'd
have me wear as a badge of honor
You think I'm dumb and you can't understand it
why I'm numb to the things you planned out
you don't believe me when I am gasping
you think its funny and you push me back under
Leave me standing here with next to nothing
just enough to bring me trouble
Now I'm here and I don't know what to do
thanks to you and your twisted logic
TAKE IT SOMEWHERE ELSE
THAT'S QUITE ENOUGH
I'VE HAD MY FILL
I'VE HAD ENOUGH
Since when did you start caring
what's with your change of heart
since when did I mean more to you
than all those who came before
I can't believe that you'd have me face it
didn't mean to bring you down
and now that you're here with me
I think I'll hang around
Ode To M:
I know this girl Monica
she's from Santa Monica
or somewhere from down there
She moved up here recently
and is very friendly
I feel special when she's near
YOU POOR MONICA, I FEEL BAD WHEN YOU'RE SAD
AND YOU THINK THAT NOTHING'S WORKING OUT
MY DEAR MONICA, I'M REALLY GLAD, WHEN YOU SEEM
TO BE HAPPY AND A SMILES ON YOUR FACE
You think you've seen a smile
You haven't seen this girl's
there's nothing like it in the world
She seems to be down a lot
It brings me down a lot
but quickly passes with a smile
If you ever get the chance
You should spend some time with her
You could learn more about yourself
About this girl Monica
You gotta be careful
You'll find it hard to keep your heart
Weirdo:
This is weird it kind of scares me
This is strange I'm not aware of things
It's something new It's not supposed to be
I should have known these things follow me
I'm confused cause it's gotten out of hand
what to do I think I need to know
I'm amused cause on the other hand
I'm comin' down I think I'm sick of you
YOU TOLD ME WHAT COULD BE WHAT YOU MEAN TO
ME
IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T FEEL THE SAME AS YOU
Just because this is kind of happening
going fast way past novelty
Doesn't mean I can't handle it
here I am and here's my loyalty
I could be wrong intentions gone away
and now you're gone and so is a part of me
It's really hard and now I realize
Nothing's wrong and now it's up to you