deciphered & transcribed by Thomas L./Everthing Mazzy
DISAPPEAR
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just because
you call my name
I cannot hear
it's not the same
close my eyes
and knock me back
all the things that I had to have
and now you just
fallen
I can't believe what I had to say
all the things you never say
I'll never be what you want me to be
now I can't disappear
close your eyes and look at me
I can't believe what I cannot see
everything is like you say
change your mind and you'll have to forgive
and I can't disappear
now I can't
now I can't
FLOWERS IN DECEMBER
*****
before I let you down again
I just want to see you in your eyes
I wouldn't have taken everything out on you
I only thought you could understand
they say every man goes blind in his heart
they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and I got nothing more to say about it
nothing more than you or me
send me a flower, of your december
save me a dream of your candy wine
I got just one thing I can't give you
just one more thing of mine
they say every man goes blind in his heart
and they say everybody steals somebody's heart away
and I've been wondering why you let me down
and I've been taking it all for granted
RHYMES OF AN HOUR
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cannot hear what you're saying
could I tell you so
and I can't forget my troubles
and I'm going home
lie and sleep
under deep
you know
while the cold winter wavin'
while you stand there cold
all these things we were certain
now we just don't know
lie and sleep
under deep
I think you know
for the rhymes of an hour
now I'm goin' home
and I can't believe I'm nothin'
cause I'm coming down
lie and sleep
under deep
you know
CRY CRY
****
cry, cry for you
just like you knew
I wouldn't do
cry, cry for you
just like a song in the last line
should I leave it all away
not like thte kindness that you gave
that's why it never seems the same
behind your eyes
I stayed behind when no one asked me
and took you home after the fight
I drove my car into city lights
drove down the road that I am on
cry, cry for you
that's what you think I want to be
cry, cry for you
an empty heart that sees me through
cry, cry for you
just like you knew I wouldn't do
cry cry for you
just like a song in the last light
cry, cry for you
just like you knew I wouldn't do
TAKE EVERYTHING
****
I can't believe you're thinking
save everyone inside you
take everything
fake everything
save everything
--about me
all of you,
all rightjust,just because,
I want to know
do you still
come around with clear eyes peeled
you never got there
even though you say you will)
all I know is that you've fallen from my eyes
that's the truth
why tell me about everything
why tell me about anything
you're just waiting for her to come apart
you're just waiting for her
take everything
fake everything
save everything
STILL COLD
****
you really had a million hearts to break
never left you in the moonlight
how come there's always someone else driving your car
taking you different places in the sunlight
still cold like the stars
that's just the way you are
still cold like the stars
used to say your heart felt like a stone
now everything you ever wanted is your own
still cold like the stars
that's just the way you are
still cold like the stars
All YOUR SISTERS
*****
and I knew, I was close to you
and I knew
catch me flying in the sun
catch me drinking of your wine
I'm gonna put something in you
make the devil feel surprised
all your sisters wanna fly
around my golden sky
around my golden sky
just because you feel hollow inside
--it's real
just because you feel hollow inside
--it's real
I'm gonna put something in you
make the devil feel surprised
make the devil feel surprised
and I knew I was close to you
and I knew
catch me flying in the sun
catch me drinking, of your wine
I'VE BEEN LET DOWN
****
I've been let down ROSEBLOOD everyday you can see HAPPY fields of light UMBILICAL she should have seen the thing in mother's belly LOOK ON DOWN FROM THE BRIDGE look on down from the bridge and you know--
and I'm still coming round
I've been pulled down
and I'm still coming round for you
coming round for you
take away everything that feels fine
catch a shape in the circles of my mind
make me feel like I belong to you
make me feel it even if it ain't true
catch a train on a silver afternoon
a thousand miles and I'm gettin' there too soon
take me there when I should be going home
tell me why I'm still feeling all alone
I've been let down
and I'm still coming round
and I'm still coming round for you
coming round for you
*****
changes in her hair and smile
I can wait a million days
while her smile goes away
sometimes I feel dizzy
by the slices in her hand
secrets in her lipstick mouth shining on
never again shining on
never again
capture a smile and then that's all
you won't know her so it's ok
funny how things change
funny how things change
****
they hold me inside
count, my stars they are lucky
in the sky
there's a time
when you go off the line
and all my things
look like someone else's memories
cold outside,
burns a great big hole in my heart
I'll just wait, til you're happy
and your smile makes it right
it makes it right
sleep inside, the ocean has smiles
it shimmers and, and it glows
for some people
I know it shines
I know it shines
stay inside
don't the colors make you blind
they hold me inside
count my stars
let them shine
I know they shine
****
grew up alongside her sister's
...she reached out for nourishment
and falls from her mother's umbilical cord
with her sister in the womb
one day she opens her mouth wide and swallows
her surroundings
the red, and orange and the sounds all around her
now she was
in her corner
now she was in her corner
her eyes closed with some kind of completehappiness
some kind of complete happiness
now she can walk in the sunlight
with a quiet sense of relief inside
now she walks in the sunlight
an extra feeling inside her soul
makes her cry.....
in her mama's belly...
opens her sisters
one day she opens her mouth wide and swallows
her surroundings
the red, and orange and the sounds all around her
in the sunlight...
makes it go away
now she was in her corner in the sunlight
now she was in her corner
she hasher eyes closed with some kind of complete happiness
some kind of complete happiness
and now she walks in the sunlight
with the extra feeling, inside her
now she walks in the sunlight with the extra feeling, inside her
inside her
*****
there's still fountains down there
look on down from the bridge
it's still raining up here
everybody seems so far away from me
everybody just wants to be free
look away from the sky
it's no different when you're leaving home
I can't be the same thing to you now
I'm just gone, just gone
how could I say goodbye
how could I say goodbye
goodbye
maybe I'll just place my hands over you
and close my eyes real tight
there's a light in your eyes
yeah, you know
look on down from the bridge
I'm still waiting for you