Hi, everybody!!!!
Hn...well...Here is my first fic...
I was listening to Kurama's music, Nightmare and I wrote this...(like WhiteCat-san wrote stories based in Tasogare Ni Sewomukete and Wild Wind...^_^...I think I liked that stories too much...)
Thanks to Lalachan who encouraged me to put it here...^_^
Hope you enjoy!

DISCLAIMER: Neither of these characters are mine...Yu Yu Hakusho and its character's are copyright of Yoshihiro Togashi-sama and Jump Comics blablabla...

Ah! It's YAOI!!!! Be warned....

Limitless and continuous, the black sky ...
...cracks and splits badly, a modest sound
I stop walking my journey, causing (my) feet...
...to sway.

I look at the endless sky, so dark and cold. There are no stars, just the darkness of a cloudy night. I can feel an ice wind which makes me shiver. I try to cover my body with my jacket once more. I should walk faster to home, to not get the rain, but for some reason, I can't run. I just walk slowly, looking at the empty streets towards me with empty eyes.

I miss him. I miss his presence behind me.

I hear a thunder, which makes the sky cracks and splits badly, but for me it's a modest sound...and once more remember me of him. The thunder's energy is like his energy when he used the kokuryuha. I can't help but stop to walk and turn back, hoping to see his black form coming in slowly footsteps towards me.

A warm person, with this borrowed language
I long for the day, in this borrowed form
Bringing nearer all the bad dreams
NIGHTMARE!

But I see nothing, and I say in a whisper:

"Hiei...", but I almost can't listen to my voice, my warm voice. It doesn't exist anymore...I can't listen to my own heart.

I'd like to see the sun, but the day would bring again all my borrowed life, as Shuuichi Minamino.

So I can only remember the last time I saw him, when he went to Makai in order to work for that stupid woman, Mukuro, two years ago. He never came back . Was he in love with her? Or was it a nightmare and I would wake up with his compact form resting at my side?

A marvelous voice ... a cold hand
From out of night, CALL ME many times, CALL ME

I remember his marvelous voice, like the thunder itself but like a sweet caress at the same time...his cold hand at my body...why he haven't he came back? Why?

Is it because he never liked the Ningenkai? He had said to me he would wait until I come back to Makai...but...but I thought he would come to visit me at least...still...he didn't.

Closing my eyes, I can listen his voice calling me, many times...but I can't go to him. I have my mother here.

My body. What leeway do I have! Memories! Now , all at once this darkness is illuminated

I can't run away from my human life. It's too important to me to do this. I can't leave my mother, my brother and the people who love me: Yuusuke, Kuwabara, Keiko, Shizuru...they need me here. They need my friendship.

But Hiei...he needs me too. I need him...What can I do? I can't be in two places at once. I can be two persons in one body, but I still can't have two bodies...

Why can't Hiei understand it?

A greatly distressed person hesitates to obey
This body is chaos, wounds about the healed
This heart is chaos, it catches fire quickly

I can't understand my own feelings. I'm too distressed to do it. My friends seems to not note what is happening to me. My soul is dying day after day, but my wounds are hidden too deep in my heart. My smile is the same as always and they can't see my truth pain, and the fire my heart needs to cure itself. Sometimes I may be explosive with them, and they would ask me if I had a bad day, but neither of them would ask: "Are you missing Hiei?"

No, it's a lie. There is a person who asked me this, and I cried in her arms for almost a night. Yukina-chan had asked me that phrase with her big red eyes watching me while I fought with my tears, the eyes that were so similar to Hiei's.

Limitless and continuous, the black sky ...
...cracks and splits badly, a modest sound
Seduction, reflected in my eyes
Extremely

I hear another thunder, and I note it's starting to rain.

The ray that came after the thunder shined so bright in my face that I almost closed my green eyes. I feel the water in my hair and shoulders. It is much colder than before.

I AM so cold...I couldn't keep my most precious jewel at my side, with all my beautiful and seductive form.

He was so different from the others that had crossed my life as youko...

A wounded future, driven out and packed away
Shattered the morning, step in to it
In this chest exists indecision
LOVE

I don't have future. I don't know what to do. A half of my heart says to me to open a portal to Makai and go after my love, but my other half says to go home. My mother should be worried. I knew it was too late...It was almost day now...The morning was coming and I should walk to it.

But in my chest exists indecision and love....

I kneel down without strength... I don't want to get up anymore...

Your voice is kind
From out of these dreams CALL ME, any time, CALL ME

While I try to stop my tears, I hear someone calling my name, my true name.

"Kurama..."

It's the kind voice I always tried to forget.

I'm not going to turn this time. I got up quickly and stop crying. I hear my name again and again...each time more worried and hurt. But now I know I hate that voice. The voice which make me want to die. I'm not going to stop again! I don't want to suffer anymore!

In a heavy rain. Making do in a cold wind. Light requests to not stop those sturdy memories from finding out ...

The rain is stronger then never, it's a storm and I run, run from that voice, he is not there!

The cold wind comes to my face, as if trying to make me stop, but the light of the morning requests to not stop again.

Those memories will find their way one day or another. I'll forget him forever!

But when I look to my front, I see a pair of big red eyes watching me with pain.

"Have you forgot me, Kurama?", he says, and I almost fall in his arms when I stop running.

I stare at him with widened green eyes.

"How can you ask me such a thing?", I ask, stunned, wanting to turn to the other side and run again. I couldn't look to that eyes and remember the pain he had make me suffer.

He smiles, a sad and hurt smile, and I almost take a step forward to hold him.

"Yes, you thought I had forgotten you...", he whispers , turning his face to the sky.

And them I note he is badly hurt. When I open my mouth to say something, he falls to my feet.

A greatly distressed person hesitates to obey
They who come all the way becomes very impressive
They who come all this way becomes very powerful

I'm looking the rain which is stopping now, from my bedroom's window. I had taken care of Hiei's injuries, which were very serious. I can't imagine how could he come from Makai to here in that state...It was unbelievable.

Yuusuke and Kuwabara should be arriving soon. I had called them as soon as I put Hiei to sleep in my bed. Mom had gone to shopping and should arrive at evening, so I had a day to take care of my lover.

I turn my face from the window to my bed.

Hiei was as beauty as I had remembered. His hair was all wet and so sexy...but still...I didn't knew why he had came back and with who he had fought before...his katana was covered with blood and for his exhausted state I could guess he had used the kokuryuha...

"Kurama...", he whispers in his sleep and I'm at his side, worried.

"I'm here, Hiei. I'm here..", I take his hand between mine and kiss it gently.

He opens his eyes slowly and stares at me, as if seen a dream.

"Are you really here?", he asks in a small voice.

"Hai. I always were."

He turns his face and I can see a single back tear-gem fall from his eye to the sheet.

"I haven't forgot you, Kurama. Mukuro...she...captured me..."

My eyes widened. Captured? I never thought about it.

"She...doesn't want me to come here to see you...so... during all these years I...couldn't get out from Makai...", he looked at me again, with a little smile in his lips. A death smile. "I miss you a lot, kitsune...so I...killed her and came here."

Killed...the word echoed in my head. He had KILLED Mukuro?!!! That would explain his injuries...But he had killed her for me...

My heart ached in my chest. How could I doubt of Hiei's love? I haven't thought about this possibility...and I didn't go there to help him...to see if HE was all right....He had fought with an S-class demon, knowing he possibly could not win the battle and I...I was crying and crying...thinking in his betrayal....I was a selfish baka!

"So...", he asks, because I hadn't speak a word. "I see...I shouldn't come back...there is no place for me anymore, ne, Kurama?"

He gets up quickly with a strength I didn't know he still had.

"I'm going.", he announced, taking his cloak.

"No!" I yelled, running to him and holding his chest. "I miss you a lot, Hiei. Don't go away again, please...I just...I should have knew something was wrong to you don't come back...Hiei...I love you!"

I stop talking, but I don't let him go off my arms.

To my surprise, he reclines his head against my chest and closes his eyes.

"Ai shiteru, kitsune."

I'm atonished for a while. I could count in my hands how many times he had said that to me. I smile, and turn his face to me, kissing his lips slowly, tasting his mouth with tenderness.

We had become very powerful. And our feelings had become very impressive.