Slit by Words (non-yyh)
by Henageshi
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This is all the anger let out on me throughout the years of my life. This doens't have to be in the YYH fanfiction. I was just bored.
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You and I..
We were very close
The closeness between us was as close as the thin layers of rice paper.
Why do you make this hurt so badly?
Do you not know how harsh your words have meant to me?
All I ever did was care for you and in return you shot me down.
You say I am the one who was wrong.
All I did was be your friend..
These actions of yours I do not appreciate...
May you ask why?
Your words say that I have been the one wrong whenever you were the one who hurt me.
I've had good cries through these rough times.
Even though some of the people I talk to say that you were immature, I still stook up for you even after what you have said to me.
My body is telling me get revenge, my mind is saying make peace.
Which do I go to?
My mind and body are two separate things yet they are colliding together like a head on collusion.
My head is throbbing with all this confusion.
Who's fault is this? Yours? Mine?
Whatever doesn't matter.
You have been my number one friend all through my life.
We've had fights, we have.
Most of them we were close to stop being friends until I learned the value of a friend in deed.
The fault matters no more.
The main reason why I act this way is...
I *feel* left out...
I did not wish to tell you that.
Why you say?
You may of thought I was being "paranoid" like how I USED to be.
Our minds were shared with each other.
Now that they are not, I do not feel that I have enough attention, and I may be wrong about this reaction.
Nevertheless, I apologize in the end.
My body says "Make HER apologize!" But I am saying "this is the MATURE thing to do."
So there. That's that. It's over, done with.
No more else.
My mind is still bugging me...
but I am learned to deal with all of this confusion.
Why?
Because you ARE...my best friend in the world...
~Henageshi