once i knew this friend...
he used to filled my junior
high school days...
with much love and care.
he was a big brother to me.
he was there to show me the
way
of growing up...
of learning...
of being mature...
of being a happy girl.
before him, i had no idea about
love...
about the idea of two people
being together
he laughed at me but then
told me
about all the joys and sorrows...
and i thank him always
for the chance
of being his little sister.
we lost contact afterwards.
he went on with his own circle
of friends,
and i went with mine.
but once in a while he wrote
to me
told me in his own adult ways
for me to behave...
to watch where i went...
no one told me before...
but he did teach me about
the pain of growing up
of how to be strong.
now i lost him.
forever...
a big brother...
a mentor...
a good friend...
and i have not even told him...
how much he means to me
how thankful i am for his
guidance.
no matter what others said
about him.
about the way he passed away.
i want to always remember
him
as a dear friend...
who had the whole world in
front of him.
as a brother...
who showed me the meaning
of surviving.
as a mentor...
who taught me about growing
up.
farewell my friend...
i'll miss having you around.
with you gone, i lost part
of...
my childhood with you.
i'll remember what you always
told me...
that life goes on...
no matter what
so i will always have my dignity
i will move forward
i will believe in myself
i will reach up for my dream
and
i will make you proud.
thank you for everything.
In memory of Johan (d. July 1999)
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