Hello my darlings! Welcome to the fourth part of my story
and hopefull you've haven't left by now! ^_^ To my sisters
Meriellen5 and Midnight2050, thanks for all you've given
to me. Also to Venus thanks for telling bout your family
and all your cool stories! To everyone whose written to
me, Arigato!
I don't own Sailormoon! What do you think I am, RICH?!
PG-13
Also I don't claim to owning the movie this is based
slightly on.
Love is like a friendship caught on fire.
In the beginning a flame, very pretty,
Often hot and fierce,
But still only light and flickering.
As love grows older,
Our hearts mature
And our love becomes as coals,
Deep-burning and unquenchable
-Bruce Lee
You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments
that stand out, the moments when you have really lived, are the
moments when you have done things in the spirit of love.
-Henry Drummond
Only love let's us see normal things in an extraordinary way.
-Alejandro de Solminihac
What I can give you now
is nothing you can touch with your hands.
I give you my love.
Never forget that.
My love always.
-"A Wrinkle in Time" by Madeleine L'Engle
The Joy (Chapter Four)
By: JLaLa (jlynpinay@aol.com)
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Mamoru parked his car quickly into the curb and practically jumped out
of it. Running up the hundred steps to the Shrine he was met at the
door by Yuuichirou with a serious expression on his face.
"Where is she?", He asked breathlessly. "I need to talk to her please"
Yuuichirou looked at the longing expression in Mamoru's eyes and shook
his head.
"She's in here BUT she doesn't wanna to talk to you", Yuuichirou
responded quietly. "You have to leave before Rei-"
"YUUICHIROU! WHO'S THERE?", Rei yelled from another room.
"It's...my SISTER!", He shouted back.
"YOU DON'T HAVE A SISTER!", She responded and he winced. Obviously it
wasn't going well.
"I KNOW! THAT'S WEIRD, ISN'T IT?", Yuuichirou said and turned to Mamoru.
"I can't let you in buddy or Rei will have me sleeping with YOU. You're
cute and everything but..."
"But I just need to speak to her!", Mamoru argued. "Just for a moment!"
"Gomen Mamoru!", Yuuichirou said. SLAM! And the door was in his face.
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Mamoru sat with Motoki in the closed Arcade, in his hands a bottle of
beer, he wasn't a drinking kind of guy but the days without Usagi left
him drawn and there's no better way to withdraw from life but with a
nice brewski.
So why was he so miserable?
He had the lost the only thing that mattered in his life. Just because
he was selfish. At the moment he didn't feel very deserving of any
good luck anyways. Motoki looked at his friend with worry and put a
caring hand on his shoulder.
"Mamoru, you miss her, don't you?", Motoki asked gently. Mamoru looked
at his with glistening eyes.
"Every fiber and bone in my body missed her, my mind, my soul, my heart
because she is all of that to me", He told her. "And without her I'm
nothing but this thing with skin, I need her but she won't talk to me"
He bowed his head in forlorn. "Motoki, I've made the biggest mistake
of my life"
"I'm sorry to tell you this but this is mostly your fault", He
answered and Mamoru's head shot up in surprise. He was expecting
a little sympathy here! "When you found she was having this baby
you just withdrew yourself from her and I can imagine how she
felt. YOU left her alone, Usagi wanted to be happy about this
baby but you just made her unhappy about it and then it stopped
being about you. YOU made her choose. If you want her back than
you have to think about it, you want her but do you want that
child, your child?"
Then there was quiet. A very LONG quiet.
"You wanna answer Mamoru?!", Motoki asked finally.
"I will admit like you said that when I first heard I wasn't thrilled
and as the months past I STILL wasn't thrill but I saw that tape. And
I saw that child, MY child and Motoki it was the greatest feeling. All
this time I kept on running because I don't know how to be a father, I
can hardly remember mine but it doesn't matter anymore. I'm in love
with that child just like I'm in love with Usako" Motoki nodded and
looked at his friend's eyes seeing the light in them but the sadness
too. After clearing the lump in his throat he grinned at his friend.
"We're just gonna have to find a way to get her back, right?"
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"You're SO lucky Rei is not here Mamoru", Makoto commented as they
walked through the department store. "She'd skin you alive" Ah yes
just what he wanted to hear now. A death threat.
"Yeah she found out you talk to Yuuichirou and well let's just that
we don't think he'll be having anymore kids", Minako said and laughed.
"I don't know if I'm really into this whole baby shopping
thing", Haruka commented and wrinkled her nose at all the
frilly baby clothes.
"We're here to help Mamoru, he's got to prove to Usagi that he wants
this kid, so we help shop and then tell Usagi about it thus killing
twob birds with one stone, she'll know that he wants the baby and that
he likes shopping now", Ami said and looked at a blanket. "Bad quality"
She tossed it off.
It had been happening the whole afternoon, Ami hated everything she
saw, Minako LOVED everything she saw, Makoto picked things that were
either messed up, stained or just plain UGLY. Haruka had somewhat
became uneasy when she saw a woman breastfeeding her baby and poor
Mirichu was trying hard to calm her nerves. Motoki looked curiously
at everything, at times even wandering off in the baby section of
the store.
At the moment he didn't know whether to yank what was left of his
hair or sit in corner and have a nervous breakdown.
"HEY! EVERYONE! GET OVER HERE!", Motoki yelled and everyone crowded
near him. Between his fingers he held a strange projectile. It was
a bottle connected to a sort of suction. "What is it?"
"Beats me", Mamoru said as they stared at it.
"I don't know but it looks kind of cool", Haruka said and took it
examining the product. "Cheap too"
"I don't know how to tell you this but umm...", Ami said and lowered
her voice. "But uh...that's a breast pump"
"IT'S A WHAT?! OH MY GOD!", Haruka said and gave it to Motoki. "Why
didn't you TELL ME!"
"You know what? I'm just gonna be this...uh..away...somewhere", Motoki
said and tossed aside. "I've gotta learn to not touch things that don't
have tags on it"
"It didn't have a tag? What if that's USED?", Minako asked and their
faces turned bright red. "Smooth move guys"
"I think I'm gonna be sick", Haruka said and ran off. Mirichu quickly
followed her lover to the nearest bathroom or trash can...or corner.
Setsuna and Hotaru joined them, in their hands shopping bags.
"Why is everyone laughing?", Setsuna asked in confusion as everyone
cracked up at Motoki's red face and the sound of Haruka wretching
somewhere in the store.
"Uh...they just found out...what a breast pump is!", Makoto said
through her laughs. Setsuna joined in leaving only Hotaru in confusion.
"Okay...by the way...what is a breast pump?", She asked innocently.
Everyone became quiet for awhile....
"You know what? I see this really nice...hat I like", Minako said
slowly. "I think I'll go look at it" She ran off
"...And I think I'll go buy it for you!", Motoki said joining her.
"Yeah....wait for me!", Makoto said, soon everyone had an excuse
for not answering poor Hotaru's innocent question.
"YOU CAN'T ALL AVOID ME WHENEVER I ASK YOU GUYS SOMETHING!", She
yelled. "HEY! WAIT UP!"
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Rei watched Usagi fold the baby clothes that she had and then sit
softly on the bad clutching a pillow to her rounded stomach. It had
been a month since she split up with Mamoru and Rei found that she
had changed in such a small time. She was quiet and her face was SO
sad. Usagi rarely smiled and at night as she laid in Yuuichirou's arms
she heard her friend's sobs. Rei walked into the room and sat next
to her.
"You miss him", She said after a moment of silence. "Don't you?"
"No, I'm just moody", Usagi answered quietly. Then she burst into
tears. Rei hugged her friend and Usagi buried her face in Rei's
shoulder. "I miss him so much!"
"Then talk to him PLEASE", Rei said to her friend pleadingly. "He's
been by this house at least twice at day! Don't tell me you don't see
him pass by while you're outside hanging the laundry with Miya"
"I can't, he doesn't want this child, I can't accept that", Usagi said
in a hard tone. "Everything I do is for this baby" Her eyes filled with
tears. "Even if the decision doesn't make me happy"
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He hadn't even realized that he was crying, Mamoru laid in bed, in his
hands a book about child-raising. He missed her so much and the side
that usually laid on-the right side seemed cold, so empty. Just once
he needed to feel that warmth again.
On the other side of town, Usagi laid on the right side of the bed
reading the same book and crying the same tears...
Mamoru was desperate and one way or another he was gonna prove he
loved her AND the baby.
He was gonna make the ultimate sacrifice.
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"Hi, I...um...need to trade in my car...for a... family vehicle", Mamoru
said in forlorn voice. The salesmen looked at him curiously. A young
man trading in cherry sports car for a family car?!
"OOOOkay, is there anything you have in mind?", He asked and Mamoru
looked around until he came a car in the back. A Rav4 he believed,
a nice looking jeep-like car.
"I guess that one will be okay", He said sadly and after a moment of
hesitation Mamoru handed over his keys. Goodbye sports car.
"Follow me", The man said feeling sorry for the kid.
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The young man walked warily into the park in a trenchcoat and hat. He
wore dark sunglasses and took another glance around before sitting
next to a young man.
"I have the information", He said in a business-like tone. Mamoru
gave the man an exasperating look.
"For goodness sakes Yuuichirou! Does Raye have you on such a short
leash?!", Mamoru asked. "I'm just asking for some info about Usako
and a favor..."
"Are you NUTS?!", Yuuichirou said drawing attention from a bunch of
kids and senior citizens who were feeding pigeons. "I'm taking a risk
just talking to you"
"You're SO whipped", Mamoru said laughingly.
"I wasn't the one who ran after Usagi in the toy store!", Yuuichirou
said.
"Well I wasn't the one whimpering when Rei bawled you out", Mamoru
responded. "Help me, prove your not whipped"
"Fine, fine", Yuuichirou said dejectedly. "Tell me what I need to do"
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Mamoru still wondered how he got himself into this. He just had to
keep in mind that it was for Usako. But at the moment Miya was filling
his shoes, which probably cost more than the Titanic with SAND. This
clever plan was to make his dearest one know that he LOVED children.
"Uncle Mo!", Miya called out and batted her long eyelashes at him.
The kid was SO cute, she had inherited Rei's eyes and Yuuichirou's
smile but how could she be such a nightmare? Then the image of a
teenage Rei hitting Yuuichirou came to mind. Then he remembered.
"I want ice cream!"
"When your daddy comes we'll all go together", Mamoru said and she
nodded running off with a plastic bat to wreak havoc on the play-
ground. At least she didn't look like an idiot. He on the other
hand DID. Yuuichirou had convinced him to wear some sort of
cartoon character T-shirt saying it would show Usagi how much
he knew about kiddy things. What were these things called again?
Teletubbies? Or was it Barney? Nope that was that purple dinosaur.
As he contemplated the origin of cartoons, he didn't notice
Yuuichirou running up the hill to the playground.
"MAMORU!", He yelled and Mamoru turned around. Miya joined him.
"Where's Usako-OUCH!" Miya had just whacked him in the leg with
the bat. Yuuichirou looked at him, a solemn look on his face.
"Mamoru, she's in the hospital"
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Ha! Another cliffhanger! Ja!
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