Dear Doc,

If you're reading this, then I am dead. I'm sorry for the pain you're feeling right now. I know despite the way things ended between us that you did love me, and I always loved you, Doc. I'm asking you for the sake of the love we shared to listen to my last request for you. I only pray that you will find the courage to grant me that request. Doc, I know you did the best you could with a tough situation. After a lot of sleepless nights and days filled with thinking of you, I've finally realized that you and John couldn't help the feelings you had for each other. In some ways, I guess they were born out of your love for me. After all, you thought John was me when you fell in love with him. It was a cruel joke of Stefano's. We were all his victims, Doc. So I just want you to know that I don't hold you or John responsible for your affair. Both of you are quality people, people whom I value and love. John is a decent man. When I came back, he stepped aside and let us be together. That took a lot of strength. I don't know if I would have been able to walk away in the same circumstances, but I understand that you both must have been drawn back to each other. I have a feeling you are still drawn to him. If you are, you should be with him. That is my last request for you, Doc- Be with John, live out your love for him. I give you and John my blessing, and I hope with all my heart that you two will find happiness in the love I know you share for each other. You deserve it, Doc. Doc, I can't imagine going on without you, and I'm glad I don't have to anymore. It's better this way, and I will truly be able to rest in peace, if you take my words to heart. I've gained a lot of wisdom these past few years. The one thing that was hardest for me to see, to admit, was that you and John belong together. Maybe you always did, and if you can't be with me, I want you to be with him. I love you and want you to be happy, Doc. Please, go to John. Tell him you love him. I know he feels the same way about you. Do this for me, for the memory of the happiness we once shared. My love for you will live on past my death. Remember me fondly.

Love,
Roman

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