Wings to Fly
By Felicity
Disclaimer: I don't own any characters in this poem, or even the situations. That all belongs to Joss Whedon, the WB, Fox, etc. etc. etc.
Author's Note: This is Angel's PoV after "Amends" the Christmas episode.
I want her
So much.
If the world split in half
With her on one side and me on the other,
I would fly to her
Without wings.
I would take that step,
Fall into light,
Let it cover me.
Across the gulf
I can see her face
Clear as if she was beside me
Begging me,
Crying,
Screaming,
Telling me to fight.
For her it is so easy,
She is always so strong.
Yet I don’t take that step,
I stay on my side.
Watching her,
Wanting her.
I could have wings,
I could have a bridge
Across that gulf.
Nothing stops me but myself,
The hurt, lost, helpless look in her eyes,
The knowledge that if I become a monster again
I could never come back.
So easy.
So very, very hard.
And I stand on the edge and watch her,
Wishing for wings,
Knowing that I can’t have them.
Oh for wings that I could fly to her.
Oh for the strength not to use them.
So easy.
So very, very hard.