"Madeleine"
Part 1

The last student dawdling after the first bell quickly slipped into his homeroom
just as the front door of Sunnydale High opened, allowing one of the stranger
looking creatures into the building. Not a demon though. A pair of feet, clad in
pink suede wedge trainers; backless. Moving up, you'd see the shiny fabric of
black lycra pants. The super-stretchy kind that flare at the ankles. A white,
belly-bearing crocheted tank top. The looked was topped with a short pixie
cut...dyed bright pink. Her belly button was peirced and so was her nose. But
she asn't at all unusual looking where she came from. In fact, she used to blend
in with the crowds.
The Spice-Girl shoes led the girl down the hall. She looked earnestly for some
sort of guide. A sign, maybe. She knew this was the place. This was where she
would find him. But where WAS here? She finally saw a pair of double doors
with round windows. Above them the sign read LIBRARY. She pushed open the
door and walked in.
"Hi. Can I...help you?"Buffy started. The words slowed as she looked up.
"I think so. I'm Madeleine. I'm looking for, umm," she glanced down at the
paper she was holding, though she knew what the name was. She'd memorized
it quite awhile ago. "For Mr. Rupert Giles?"
"Umm, sure," Buffy gave her a strange look as she headed back to the office. A
few minutes later, Giles came out with Buffy following close behind.
"Hello. I'm Mr. Giles."
"Hello..."she paused a second as she quickly scanned him. "...Father."
A few minutes later the bell rang. Willow and Xander walked out of homeroom,
discussing the finer points in life.
"I'm just saying, he was stupid not to take full advantage of the situation."
"Xander, he fell in love with her for who she was, not waht she could do."
"Oh, come on, Will! How could you say that? Yeah she was nice a pretty and
all. He fell in love with her before he knew. He should have thought of it as an
added bonus. A little honeymoon treat, if you will."
"What would you have done in the situation?"
"Taken every short-cut I could find. You can't honestly say that if you were
married to a witch, you would forbid him his powers?"
"Remember Amy and Catherine Madison? Real witches aren't like Samantha. Bewitched is just T.V." Willow made her final argument as they entered the
library.
"But classic...hello." Xander stopped short at the sitght of the girl.
"Xander, Willow, this is Madeleine. It seems Giles has another secret he's been
keeping from us." Buffy introduced the original slayerettes to Giles' daughter.
"And what's this deep, dark secret, you sly dog, you?" Xander asked punching
Giles lightly on the arm. His grin faded as the librarian gave him a LOOK. He
sat down quickly.
The doors opened then and Cordelia joined them. "Hi. wait, what am I doing
here? Omigod, I'm becoming one of you people. What am I gonna do?" she sat
down despairingly in a chair and buried her face in her hands. Xander patted her
shoulder.
"Gee, I feel for you, honey. Really, my hearts breakin'" he said sarcastically as
Buffy supressed a laugh, unsucsessfully. Willow smiled and rolled her eyes.
Giles just looked at the beweildered Madeleine.
Cordy suddenly looked up. "Who are you? And why are you wearing that? Is it,
like, costume day or something?"
"Cordelia, this is Maddeleine. It's a long story but she's Giles' daughter."
"Whoa, hold it. Daughter? You left that out earlier." Xander exclaimed.
"Maybe I should explain," Madeleine spoke for th first time sinse she'd greeted
Giles.
"Good, cause I'm lost." Cordelia exclaimed.
"Maybe it would be, umm, well, best if she, explained, alone."
"Come on, guys. class, remember," Buffy pushed the group out the door. "I'm
the one ushering everyone to class so Giles can talk with his pink haired
daughter? Talk about Hellmouth hiccups." she mutterend on her way out.
"Well, umm, maybe I should start with, umm..."
"let's start with the whole father issue. Or, acually, umm, the mother issue?
Perhaps you could, umm, tell me who she might be."
"Umm, Hannah. Do you remember her?"
"Hannah? Hannah Keating? She's you mother?"
Madeleine nodded. She bit her lip and looked up at him.
"I'm sorry, but I'm sure I woud remember having, um, a , uhh, baby with her."
Giles was blushing slightly.
"Well, you broke up a few weeks before she found out."
"Why, umm, why didn't she tell me?"
"I don't know. She was worried about you. About what you were going through. That's why she left London. She was scared."
"Of what?" "Of you. Of what was happening to you."
Giles stood and began pacing. He took off his glasses and began polishing
them. He replaced them and looked toward the ceiling.
"How is she? Is she in Sunnydale, too?"
"No, I'm, I'm sorry. Mum died about a year and a half ago. Cancer."
"Oh, I'm, umm, very, umm, sorry. I didn't know. I'm...Cancer?"
"Well, Lukemia. It's ok though. She was really hurting near the end. At least,
at least the pain's gone. But still, I'd rather have her here. Things have been,
well, not exactly great sinse, you know."
"Where have you been living? Who, who's been taking care of you?"
"My dad. My step-father, acually. I didn't know until she died. I always thought, I thought he was..."
"Well, what are you doing here?"
"He, uhh, kind of, uhh, made me leave. I got sort of kicked out of my boarding
school."
"Well, that's to be expected. Your mother did die."
"Three times."
"Ohh." Giles sat back down and looked at this stranger who said she was his
daughter. He started to reach out and take her hand but she interupted him.
"Who is she?"
"Pardon?"
"It's Buffy, isn't it. That's why she was here. You had a connection."
"I'm sorry, I don't understand..."
"She's the slayer, isn't she?"
"How do you know about that?"
"My mother told me."
"I thought you said your mother died before she told you about me?"
Madeleine silently cursed herself. She thought quickly and responded. "She
wrote me a letter before she died. That's how I found out about you."
"And she told you of my, my...situation?"
"Yes. Did you not want her to tell?"
"Oh, oh no. That's fine, but, Hannah? I'm sorry. Will you please excuse me?"
"Of course. Maybe we can, meet? Later this afternoon?"
"Oh, oh yes. That would be lovely."
"Umm, may I use the phone. To call my friend that I'm staying with?"
"Oh, of course. Just through there." He hurried from the library and down the
hall to find Buffy.
"Hello, Spike?" the words faintly floated through the library as Madeleine
committed the first betrayal of the only father she would ever know.

Part 2
London, 1996
Madeleine walked into a white room. Laying still in the bed was a middle aged
woman hooked up to tubes. Madeleine walked over to the bed and took her mother's pale, cold hand. The woman's eyes fluttered open and a slight smile
graced her face.
"Mum? It's Maddy. I'm not skipping. Really. They gave me a leave. I'm, I'm
going to stay with you until you're better."
"You're mother doesn't need you here. She's fine and I'm sure she'd feel much
better if you were in school. Run on now. You've got your studies," a man
sitting in a chair on the other side of the bed told her. He stood and walked over
to her.
"Stay out of it, Liam. She's my mum and I'm not leaving her."
"She'll be just fine. I'm with her."
"That's what scared me."
He raised his hand to strike her when a faint moan came from the bed.
"Liam, no. Let her stay." The woman whispered. Her eyes closed in pain as
Liam escorted Madeleine to the hall.
"You just make her worse. Now, I don't want to see your ugly, worthless face
round her room any longer. If you so much as try to call her, I'll personally kill
you." Liam whispered feircly in to her face, only centimeters away.
"Don't talk to me. I don't want to hear your voice." she replied.
"When she dies, You're gone. I mean it. I don't care where you go, just leave."
"You can't kick me out. I don't exactly love you but you are my father."
"Is that what you still think? Hmmph."He re-entered the room, leaving Madeleine in the hall, staring after him as the news settled over her like a
heavy, wet, wool blanket, suffocating her, but at the same time lifting a heavy
wait from her chest. Liam wasn't her father. A small smile started. She turned
and the smile widened
***
Sunnydale
"when my mum died, Liam, my step-father, sent me to boarding schools and stuff. I tried my hardest to get expelled. It's really not that hard."
"You're telling me." Buffy replied, sarcastically. She and Madeleine were
outside the library, talking, about...stuff. Lots of stuff while Giles tried to
figure everything out.
"I didn't get on with her that well when she tried to be the mother. She would
try to discipline me and I would rebel further. It worked better when we were
friends. When we shopped or saw movies. Liam was the parent. Too much the
parent, acually. He did nothing but discipline. I didn't even know he wasn't my
real father till he told me."
"What did you do when he kicked you out?"
"He didn't. After the last expulsion, he really just wouldn't let me in. I went to
London and tried to survive on my own. That didn't work out, though."
"Yeah, I've been there. It's hard. You don't know where you're going or who
you are."
"You know there's something missing but you can't figure out what."
***
South London, 1998
A band was playing extremely loud music, somewhere between Oasis and the Misfits. The stage was a high platforn in a dark bar filled with freakish looking
teen-agers and adults. At a table in the back, Madeleine poured a glass a strong,
thick beer. Her eyes were red around the rims and she was dressed in a black
skin tight midriff shirt with a long white coat. Ther music pulsed through her
and she sprinl=kled some white powder on the crook between her thumb and forefinger. She was about to put it to her nose when a voice somehow managed
to find it's way through the din to her ears.
"You know, that stuff'll kill you."
"Yeah, well, maybe that's what I'm after."
"The least you could do is share."Suddely the voice had a face. And hair.
White-blond hair. The voice was wearing a long black leather duster and a red
shirt.
"I'm Spike." the voice said.

Part 3
"Really, it's ok. I don't mind. In fact, I'd prefer it."
"No. I insist you stay with me. I'm your father and I feel it would be best."
"I would, really, but I'm afraid it would be rather awkward. You know, never having met."
"Well, I would feel better knowing you were safe. There are some strange things in this town, I suppose you know that."
Buffy stepped into the conversation that had been going on between Maddeleine and Giles.
"Ok, Simple solution. Maddeleine stays with me."
"Oh, no thanks, Buffy. I'm afraid that would be kind of awkward, as well. Besides, I doubt your parents would want be just busting in and crashing on your sofa for the week. I don't want to impose."
"Hey, no big. Mom's out of town. She went on some spa retreat with a friend from book club while the gallery is being fixed up. I'd acually love the company."
"Are you sure?"
"Positive, no ifs, ands, or buts. Now, I'm late for class so I'll see you guys later."
"you're planning on attending?"Giles asked, looking stunned.
"Nah, but tardies count for loitering too, you know."
"I should have guessed."
Madeleine smiled as he rubbed his glasses. Most of the day had passed relatively well for them. Madeleine had told Buffy a little about Liam and her mother and Buffy had talked about what it was like over the summer in L.A. She hadn't beeen able to talk to anyone about that, really. Not even Willow. It helped having someone who understood. Someone who'd been through the same stuff and seen the same things.
"Umm, I guess I'll go over to the hotel and pick up my things, take them to Buffy's later." she told him as she stood to go.
"You're leaving?"
"Well, I just thought..."
"I was hoping, well, ahh, hoping you might want to, wwhh, umm, well talk? Maybe about your mother and, well, you know, we have, we have a bit of catching up to do."
She looked at her father and smiled. He was so nice, if a bit geeky. The icky feeling of guilt began to creep around her, tying her stomach in a knot and sending a cold sweat trickling down her spine. She wondered why she had agreed to this. And she wondered why someone would want to hurt Giles.
"Alright." They sat down and began to talk. About things. Hannah, and Liam. About life.
***
About four hours later, they were still discusiing things. Only one subject had been avoided. The subject of vampires.
"You can't imagine how wonderful it is to be around someone who drinks tea." Giles remarked as he poured another cup for himself and Madeleine.
"Do Buffy and the ohters not like tea?"
"They drink it but They don't enjoy it."
"What about...someone else?"
"Hmm? Who?"
"Well, umm, do you have, a, umm, a girlfriend?" a slight blush krept up her face. Though they had just met, he was her father and the thought of him dating was rather embarrasing. She noticed the pained look on his face.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Is that a bad topic to bring up?"
"Oh, oh no. It's fine. It's just that..."
"Did you ever love anyone after my mum?"
"Yes. Jenny." he whispered. "Oh, I'm sorry, I've, I 've got to go. I'm, I'm sorry." he got up and rushed out of the library. It had been a year and the pain was still deeper than anything else he could imagine. The hurt and the longing sometimes seemed like only memories. Just when he would become happy again, they would come flooding back, drowning his soul. The need to have her back seemed almost physical. The feelings found their way to his stomach and mixed with the tea and the school leftovers he'd had for dinner. As if trying to prove that he could no longer hold the loss inside, it all came up. He just made it to a bathroom.
Giles sank down against the wall of the men's room and craded his forhead in his sweating hands. Would he never be free of this? He seemed destined to be haunted by her memory forever. Though this scaredhim, an even greater fear was that he would wake up one day and forget. Forget the face in the picture by his bed; the same face that had, one year earlier, occupied a peice of creamy-colored paper, etched on it with charcoal by the hand of evil. And ths was the fear that kept him going. It fed him and, at the same time, on him. The voice in the back of his mind, Jenny's voice, telling him to keep living, because if he were to die, she would be truly gone. Forever.
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