A LITTLE DISCLAIMER: Most of the characters appearing in this fic are the property of Yoshihiro 
                     Togashi, Studio Pierrot, Fuji TV, and Shonen Jump Weekly. 

I took a slip of the wine in my hand. Nice. I give myself a bitter laugh. Aren't I already give up? Why would I have this lonely feeling now?

I could just as well find another bedmate...... No, Hiei is not a bedmate, nor a lover. He's.... special. Very special. Lots of people wanna be my bedmate, just because I hold the power that could control this world. But when I asked Hiei to be my lover; not bedmate, he...... he refuse it! He said that he already has someone!!

I know who. That Youko. Youko Kurama. How dare him!! He has everything! He got the beauty, friends, family, and even Hiei! Why? Why the Goddess of Luck is always on his side but not mine!? Why!?

I start to care my country more, and finding things to kepp Hiei near me. I wish he could as well forget that Youko. But he.... he let my heart broke into dust again..... I recall my memory that horrible day....

'Hiei, I want you to stay at area B1 for about 2 years.' I said.

'Why?' he asked. 'Kirin's there.'

'Because I thik you can handle area B1 better than him. Besides, he's too lazy for that area. I think I'll move him to area D3.' I replied. But actually area B1 is the closest area to the main area. If I put him there, he won't have time to meet that Youko. That's my idea.

'No.' he said firmly. 'I don't and I won't go to area B1.'

'What!?' I yelled. 'Why!? You better give me a good reason for it!'

'Because,' he explained, 'I need a free-time job. I have things need to take care of in Ningenkai. B1 is too complicated and bored.'

My face went pale. (He want that Youko!) A sound told in my head. (He want that Youko more than this high-level job and you, Mukuro!)

'I won't accept your explanation, Imigo Hiei. I order you to go on duty within three days. Get it?' I said. My voice was full of anger and jealous.

Hiei nodded, and before I could react, he throw me a form. I look at the topic. The resign form!

'What's this for!?' I shouted.

'You see. I don't wanna work for you anymore.' he snorted. 'sayonara Mukuro.' He turned, and ready to left. I called him, 'For that Youko?' I asked, try to make myself sound tranquil and even.

He stopped, shake a little, and face me. He use a sound that I've never heard before. So gentle, so soft, so.... lovefull.

'Yes. For Kurama.' then he left the hall.

I stood there, full of shock. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, and I cound't heard beside the cracking sound of my broking heart..... until one of my peasent called me.

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A sound broke my thoughts. 'Mukuro-sama.' he bowed, and kneel down, waiting for my order.

'What's the news you brought this time?' I asked him without turning my back.

'Still the same. Hiei is still working for the police, tried to catch the convict for earning money. He still remit two hundred-thousand yen to Takanaka family every month, and he still lives in Youko Kurama's room.' The man replied.

'Good. Go and get your money.' I said, let out another deep sign. [Such a crazy youkai] I thought.

'Domo Arigato-gozaimatsu, Mukuro-sama.' he thanked me, and left my room.

My mind floated into the thoughts again.......

That day, when we're celebrating for the winning of the war, the messanger I sent to watch Kurama comes back. He kneeled, and reported, 'Mukuro-sama, Hiei-sama. Youko Kurama is dead.'

Hiei's cup fall. The glass cup broked. His face was pale, as pale as the white paper. 'Re..... repeat it..... again.' He said in a tremble tune.

The messanger repeat Kurama's death again. Hiei grabbed the man's shoulder in a sudden, and shake him very hard, 'This is not true!! Impossible!! Give me some evidence!' He yelled. This is my first time to see him act so intensive. I was so surprise. I look into his eyes. That pair of red, ruby eyes were full of shock, scare, and unbelief.

The man took out a daily newspaper from Ningenkai. Hiei grabbed it. The Main page clearly report the death of the No.1 student of Tokyo-- Minamino Shuichi. Hiei read through the paper. Every second he read makes his face pale more. Finally, after he read all the reports, he dropped the newspaper, gasped rapidly in shock. His eyes were empty, he muttered, 'Kurama........ no.......' and he disappeared in the darkness.

I've attend Kurama's funeral. When I arrived, I saw Yusuke grabbed Hiei's collar, and shouted. 'You still dare to come here!? Why didn't you attend Shiori-san's funeral? Don't you know that this means a lot to Kurama?'

Hiei stared at Yusuke with a ignorant look. 'Shiori's.... dead?' he asked.

'Don't you know that? Everyone included me has send you the notified letter!' Kuwabara yelled.

'I.... I didn't receive anything from Ningenkai!' He said.

Everyone gasped in surprise. I look around. Yusuke, Kuwabara, Takanaka family, and.... Yomi!? What's him doing here? Nevermind, what I should worried about is how to tell the truth.....

'Ahem, minna-san,' I spoked hardly. Everyone turned and look at me. 'I know all the things.' I said, full of guiltiness.

'What do you know?' Yomi asked. Quite, but full of dangerous.

I walked toward Kurama's memorial hall, place the flower I've brought, and prayed. I pray, for his forgiveness. Then I turn to facing the people in front of me, and spoked, 'I..... love Hiei. But he loves Kurama. So.... I come up with many reason to make him stay in Makai....' I stopped, swallow hard, found my voice and continued, 'I do sent messanger to watch Kurama's every movement; for Hiei, but I use money to bribe the messanger that make Kurama sounds like have a new sweetheart. Demo, it's no used.... So.... I......'

'I do received the letter of Shiori's death. I burned it and copy Hiei's handwriting to write a note to Kurama, to said that he doesn't have time to attend the funeral. That's why Hiei didn't attend Shiori's death.' Finally, I told everyone the truth, and I receive lots of killing stare from them. Silence took over the place.

'I can't believe it!' Finally, Yusuke broke the silence. 'I always thought you're a nice woman. Even though you're a enemy of Reizen's. Now I really need to think it over. Maybe Kurama's right. I shouldn't trust people that easy.' He stopped, glared at me. 'Especially people like YOU. C'mon, let's go.' Everyone left besides Yomi, Shura, and Hiei.

Yomi stood, 'Let's go, Shura. I don't want to stay with this self-fish jerk anymore.' When he pass through me, he said, 'You make me disappointed, Mukuro. You're the shame of youkai.'

It's only Hiei and me now. I look down at the floor, not daring to look at his eyes. I felt he stood, and come near me. Before I could react, he slapped me on the face. 'You son-of-the- bitch.' he growled, and disappeared in the mid-air.

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I pull myself from the thoughts, and drank all my wine. I throw myself on the empty bed, and close my eyes. Tomorrow, is another day........