Please keep that in mind the fact that this story is manga
related.
I've decided to use English translation names for the Inner Senshi and
Japanese names for the Outer, since I have no clue
as to what their English translated names are. And Haruka and Michiru are
only close friends not gay.
It only makes it easier for me to write.
This story is rated PG, well some slight violence and maybe language later
on. Well, enough of my babbling! On with the show!
Usual disclaimers: Sailor Moon and all its characters and likeliness
belongs to Naoko Takeuchi, Kodansha/Toei. English translation is made
possible by DiC.
My email address: ml_eclipse@hotmail.com
<< >> = thoughts
[ ] = author's note
More Author's note at bottom. I advise that those who do not
like this chapter or the way I portray Sailor Cosmos here
to please read the note at the bottom. And those who do
like it, well you have a choice. Thanks! Enjoy!]
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Serenity's Legend written by cosmos
Part VII: True Identity
"I am known as Sailor Cosmos, soldier of mists, guardian of all
of universal space and time."
Her beautiful voice pierces the crisp night air like a beam of
light through clear crystal. The others gasp in surprise. They
have heard of this legendary warrior from the Asteroid Soldiers,
but they never believed it to be true, nor did they ever expect
to come face to face with this mysterious being.
[Asteroid Senshi are Sailor Soldiers from the Asteroid belt. They
are at first the Amazoness Quartets whom were destroyed and turned
into crystals which Serenity revived into the Asteroid Senshis.
They are not in the Anime. They were the ones who last saw Cosmos
in the Manga, so they knew of her existence. Sorry for such a long
author's note.]
Silence enveloped the group like a thick London fog. The atmosphere
is uneasy and there seems to be tension hanging in the air like a
delicate silk web spun by an invisible spider. Taking a hesitant
step forward, her heel clicks on the ground releasing the
prisoners from the hold of silence, Sailor Venus speaks in an
unsure voice, "Y-you are the legendary soldier?" she whispers
in awe. "Have you come to help us free Serena?" Then silence
captures them all again. Though it was only for a brief moment,
it seemed like an eternity before they hear the figure in white
reply.
Her voice is like the soft caressing of a breeze, yet her
words are like daggers in the night, "I
* really * don't have a choice do I?" She speaks bitterly.
"If I don't, the future ahead will be changed." And she gives
Sailor Pluto a sharp glance, adding in a poignant tone, "Though
I wish it would."
"Wha-what do you mean?" Sailor Neptune questions in great concern.
At this point Cosmos can no longer hold back her emotions.
All the pain, the sorrow, the suffering she has seen and has felt
locked deep within her now icy heart spills out in great bitterness
and frustration…against herself.
"What I mean," she yells in anger, but her voice only relays sorrow
and anguish, "is that I
*want * the future to change! I * want * it all to end!" In a
quieter voice, she repeats broken hearted the last phrase, barely
audible to the group staring at her in bewilderment not seven feet
away, "I want it all to end. All the pain, the sufferings,
the destruction…the…the deaths." Her eyes now brimming with tears,
tears that she refuses to spill.
Suddenly, Jupiter's voice is heard thundering back at her,
"That's why we * must * save Sailor Moon, " she shouts angrily.
"*She* is the one who can stop all this. *She* is the one who
can bring light to the darkness. In the future she--"
"--is the cause of all this!" Cosmos cries, cutting Jupiter
off in surprise. "Can't you see? The future is not what you
think it will be. It never is. It is * not * the all utopian
world of Crystal Tokyo! It will be the darkness where only Chaos
exists. Sailor Moon had a chance back at the Cauldron of the
Stars to end the Sailor Wars, but she didn't. Instead, she chose
to believe that she could create a brighter future, that she
had the capability to do so. She thought she had the strength to
defeat the darkness and bring forth the light. But she is wrong."
Cosmos turns aside and says in a lower tone full of regret,
"…so very wrong. What had she done, but bring only more suffering
to the ones she loves? It is because of her…her * damn * power
that always lures the darkness."
"YOU ARE WRONG!" Mars screams in hysteria. "YOU ARE SO *DAMN* WRONG!
She is not at all what you say she is! She is kind, considerate,
full of life and laughter and she gives others her light freely
without a care. Even though you're the strongest Sailor Soldier,
you are *nothing* compared to her. She is *more* than what
you will *ever* be!" Mars yells in great anguish, tears streaming
down her face uncontrollably. Her body shakes with the rage
that she feels against this being, this insolent soldier who
dares to scorn her dearest friend.
Sailor Pluto looks at Sailor Cosmos with indescribable sadness
on her face. She can see very well that each word Mars throws at
her causes Cosmos to flinch and withdraw upon herself. Unbeknownst
to Mars that each word let fly in rage is like daggers tearing
at Cosmos' soul. Yet, Cosmos yells back, rage now controlling
her…and guilt. Guilt that none of them knew except her. She
blames herself for all her friends' death. She had sworn to
protect them, yet they died, and because of what? Because of her
and now in a fit of rage she brings out that guilt that have so
long haunted her.
"Why do you care for her?" Cosmos yells in blind anger. "She
brings nothing to you but pain and suffering. You have risked
your lives time and time again for her…and why?…Because she is
too weak…too much of a coward to defend herself and you. If it
weren't for her you all would be living happy peaceful lives like
everyone else, pursuing your own dreams and desires. Instead she
dragged you into this. She dragged you into her cursed destiny
with her!"
"No!" This time it is Mercury who speaks up in defense. "NO! You
are SO wrong! If it weren't for her we all would still be imprisoned
in our own loneliness. The emptiness would have shriveled our
souls now if she had not shown up. She is my friend…She is the
only friend I had ever had!" Mercury cries in a voice that any who
heard would have dropped to their knees in tears. In a lost tone,
Mercury says, "She is the only *real* friend any of us had ever had."
Still blind to the words thrown at her, Cosmos cries, "I should
have known from the start that a klutz, a crybaby, an idiot, a fool
could not be the saviour of this world."
"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP!" Uranus roars. "I have had *enough* of
this! How dare you call yourself a Sailor Soldier? You are nothing
but a coward. A fool scared to face her own destiny." Uranus stood
trembling with tremendous internal rage. Suddenly she raises her
hand and light begins to gather in it. "Now you won't have to run
away from your destiny anymore…" Uranus says in a voice of ice,
"because it will end here! Uranus World Shake!"
"Noooo!" Pluto yells, but it is too late, Uranus has released her
attack. The orange ball of energy flies at lightning speed directly
at Cosmos. "Cosmos! Get out of the way!" Pluto screams, but her
scream is left unheard by the figure in white. She simply stood
there, her gaze never leaving Uranus' burning blue ones.
Something in that calm sad gaze made Uranus' heart lurch in
anguish…something like…like…forgiveness? Is she asking for forgiveness?
Why? Suddenly, Uranus regrets what she has done, but it is too late.
Even though she has all the ability to dodge the attack, Cosmos
simply stood there with unspeakable sorrow on her beautiful face as
she took the attack directly in the chest. The hit causes her to be
thrown back several feet. She lay there for a moment as her head
slowly clears from the dizziness that now encloses on her. Slowly
she gathers her trembling legs beneath her body and attempts to stand.
"Cosmos!" Pluto begins to run toward her, but Cosmos raises her
hand and tells her to stop.
"D-d-don't…come any closer," She barely whispers out, her chest
heaving in pain with each intake of breath. "P-please…don't come
any closer." Then looking at the others again, she suddenly
catches Darien's fiery blue gaze. She notices his fist clenched
white at his side. She locks her gaze to his and speaks in painful
gasps, "S-she…*is* a meatball head…who doesn't deserve you."
Her words have an immediate effect as she can see the flames of rage
lurch into a bonfire of hatred in his cold blue stare. Suddenly, a
steel tipped red rose appears in his hand and he throws it directly
at her. Again she makes no attempts to move. The rose whizzed
closer and lodges its sharp dagger deep into her arm. This time
she cries out in pain, not from the wound in her arm but from the
one in her heart. Tears begin to stream down her rosy cheeks as
she clutches the bleeding arm with her other hand. Then everything
seems to stop. No one moves. Even the wind appears to have halted
in its journey around the world. Complete silence and stillness
fills the air around them.
Then as if everything has just slowed down the Sailor Soldiers see
Cosmos close her eyes as her grip on the rose tightens. Unexpectedly,
with only a small cry Cosmos yanked the rose from her arm. She
opens her eyes and holds the rose directly in front of her face,
looking at it as if enchanted by its beauty. Suddenly, crimson blood
oozes out from between her fingers and drips down the stem onto the
ground already soaked in red. Only then did Cosmos notice that there
are thorns on the stem of the rose, puncturing her palm and making
it bleed. Yet her grip on the rose does not lighten. Instead she
raises the bloody flower to her face, closes her eyes again, and
takes a deep breath, inhaling the rich fragrance. A large single tear
escapes between her closed eyelids and slides down her cheek. The tear
hangs onto the edge of her face like she is hanging onto the rose.
Then the crystal tear rolls off her face and hits the ground at the
same time she lets go of the rose, which also drifts to the bloody
surface below. Before the rose strikes the ground, a bright flash
of light erupts from Cosmos' sigil on her forehead. The female Soldiers
and Darien quickly shield their eyes in order to prevent the intense
light from blinding them. When they look back, the white figure has
vanished, leaving only a faint trail of glittering stardust and small
white feathers behind. The red rose lays floating on the surface of a
small pool of blood on the ground.
"W-where did she go?" Neptune voices. "What happened just now?"
Instinctively, Sailor Mars turns her dark raging eyes toward the
Guardian of Time who stands silently staring at the space formerly
occupied by Cosmos. "You have a lot of explaining to do," Mars
whispers in an icy tone. The others look at Mars in surprise, then
at Pluto.
"Who was she?" Darien speaks blankly; his voice has lost all emotions.
Then turning his icy blue stare toward Sailor Pluto, he directs the
question to her, "Who was she? Who is she really?" His cold commanding
voice snaps her attention to him. She recognizes this tone as that
of King Endymion's. She knows she has no options but to answer his
question.
"Sailor Cosmos…is Neo-Queen Serenity."
Everyone gasps in shock. Darien's eyes widen in horror as color
leaves his face. He lets his gaze slip from Pluto's saddened face
to his hands. "W-w-what…have…I done?" He breathes. The image of
his rose piercing into her arm and her crying out in pain flashes in
his eyes. "What have I done?" he cries as tears drift down his
cheeks. "What have I done?!" He yells falling to his knees, his fist
pounding lightly on the ground. "I…I've hurt her. I can't believe
what I had done. I should have known…that gaze…those beautiful blue
eyes…I should have known it was her. God! What have I done?" He
whispers to himself, barely audible to those near him. Uranus too
stares at the empty air in front of her. The image of her attack hitting
Cosmos, sending her flying backward in the air, flashes repeatedly
in her mind. "No…no…no…" Uranus gasps in disbelief.
"Where is she?" a voice rises from the ground. Pluto looks down
at Darien, who still has his head buried to the ground. "Where is
she?" He asks again, his voice like the wind in a sail. "Damnit!"
He shouts in anger and anguish, "Tell me where the hell she has gone to!"
"Come…follow me. I will take you to her," Pluto says in a gentle
voice. He rises to his feet and they all followed the dark green hair
figure ahead of them as she leads them to their destiny.
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[All right, if you're reading this you are probably itching to
hit me, BUT before you do, let me explain. Just keep in mind
that I *like* Sailor Cosmos, okay? I am not making her look weak
and pitiful or anything. For those who read the end of the Sailor
Moon Manga (I did via internet translation) you would probably
noticed that Cosmos is a bit disturbed by a battle in the future.
>From what I understand this might be what she is feeling, a
feeling of guilt or something or other. She has a heavy burden of
responsibility to carry on her shoulders because she is the guardian
of the cosmos. But through the long years of warfare her soul and mind
begins to get tired under all that weight. Seeing her friends and allies
die before her eyes only caused her more pain and sorrow. Since she has
been alone for who knows how long because everyone else is dead, she has
to bury her feelings deep inside her where it slowly builds up to unbearable
proportions. Seeing her friends die and not being able to stop it,
she feels a sense of guilt and anger at herself. At the end of the
Manga, Serena said that she will protect her friends, so now that
she has found she is unable to do so, she is frustrated, confused and alone
to bear her guilt and grief. This would result in her outburst in this
part of the story. Does that make any sense?
Besides, my entire story won't be like this part it will get better
and not so depressing.
Anyway, the next chapter is the opposite of this one.
You'll see what I mean.]
So what do you think? Please email and tell me. I love to hear
from ya'. Email me at ml_eclipse@hotmail.com. All right…next
chapter coming soon.]
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