RP 4.13.99 

"What's wrong?" Sugi abruptly stopped his action of licking Ryu's neck,
lifting himself up, he questioned, trying to suppress the impatience in his
voice.
"… hun?" Ryu's response came 1 second late, his as-if-just-woke-up-facial
expression pushed Sugi to the limit.
Sugi swiftly jumped off the bed. He strode to the window side and ignited a
cigarette. 
"Wha.. what's wrong?" Ryu asked a bit hesitantly. 
Sugi smoked some more before he turned his head back and looked at Ryu.
"Since when.." Sugi frowned, rubbing his forehead he whispered to himself,
" I can't believe I'm saying this.."
" Since when has making love with me become such a boring thing to you?"
"What??" Ryu blushed, he would never have expected Sugi to be this
"straightforward".
"For a few times I thought you've fallen asleep for there were no movement
whatsoever from you - but then I realized you were still awake, for you had
both eyes wide-open, staring at.. something." Sugi said with a flat tone.
"I.. I…" Ryu could feel his face burning, he had no idea how to respond to
Sugi's confrontation. 
Sugi's gaze had became more intense, when he saw Ryu dropped his head,
seeming to have given up on forming an excuse. He parted his lips, and
heard his words came out slowly, "You are thinking about 'him', aren't you?"
Ryu's silence did enough for admittance.
Sugi left the room without saying another word.


It wasn't jealousy. Sugi decided.
He was lying on an open grass field, staring at the glittering stars.
He had not cared even one bit when Ryu came back with those love-bites J
left on his neck. He did not feel his possession of this lovely
black-haired beauty was threatened at all.
So why was the fact that Ryu was 'missing' someone bothering him so much?
Why did he feel so… empty…. when he looked into Ryu's eyes and found he was
not there? 
He closed his eyes, trying hard to pinpoint the exact feeling that was
tormenting him.
It was… it was BETRAYAL.
What was it that Ryu wanted now?
Affection.
Devotion.
Attachment and all those craps.
Sugi had decided long ago that he didn't need these weaknesses. He had to
be the locus of control of his own life.
And he had_ all_along_ thought Ryu understood this.
Proud, cynical, cold but graceful. Ryu was like his mirror image - a
slightly flawed one of course. 
Sugi had no doubt that Ryu would always be his close companion and they
would roam the world together.
But in just these few days 'something' had crept into Ryu and made him a
different person. Sugi found himself no longer able to see right through
Ryu, and even though he had Ryu locked in his arms, he knew Ryu was
slipping away. 
"Even so, I could never give you what you want… I was born without it…
Ryu.." Sugi whispered.
"Oh… I'm not feeling too good.." Sugi stood up and said to himself, "
Gotta find somebody to cheer me up."

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J walked into his room, dropped his bag to the floor and was going to
loosen his tie when he heard a deep voice coming from behind, " The curfew
was one hour ago…"
J spun around and saw Sugi half-lying on Franz's bed, arms and legs
comfortably stretched out. He lightly shook the beer can in his right hand
and smiled, " And you're also not supposed to have this in your room."  
The pounding of J's heart was so violent he was afraid Sugi would hear it,
he could not understand why he felt so pleasantly surprised and he would
rather die than letting Sugi know about his excitement. 
"You broke into my room just to remind me what the school rules are?" J
managed to speak with a cold voice.
Sugi did not answer. He merely gazed at J with a radiant smile that made J
feel uneasy. Sugi's shirt was fully unbuttoned and part of his smooth chest
showed. J stole a glance of Sugi's perfect skin, and the sudden urge to
pull off his shirt and reveal more of it appalled himself.
"If you have nothing else to say, then leave! I'm gonna sleep." J hoped he
sounded calm enough.
"Why? My presence here would prevent you from sleeping?" Sugi 's smile
turned a bit naughty.
"You know very well that I would never welcome you, and besides, you are
sitting on my roommate's bed."
"I have strong doubt in the first bit of your sentence and as for your
gaijin roommate.. he wouldn't come back tonight." 
"What did you do to him?" J did not give a damn actually, the blood-boiling
memory of their last encounter had inevitably come back to him with Sugi's
seductive voice, and he was frantically fighting with his rising desire.
No!!! J!!! You CANT let it happen again!!!
"I merely gave him permission to go out of school and I believe he's now
having a good time, in some pub I presume.." Sugi shrugged. 
"So I'm your roommate for tonight…" Sugi deliberately made his voice husky.
"Suit yourself." J turned his back to Sugi, hoping that by not looking at
him he would be able to regain his composure. 
J began to unbutton his shirt, Sugi watched his movements admiringly. When
J pulled down the shirt and revealed his sturdy backside Sugi's greedy eyes
lighted up.
He quietly approached J and his arms circled J's bare chest from behind,
J's pulse fastened and he had to apply his strongest will to grab hold of
those trouble-causing arms and pushed them away.
"Why? I know where you were looking at and what you were thinking of… and
isn't this what you have been anticipating?" Sugi said teasingly.
"Look, you smug, I would have kicked you out if you weren't.."
"If I weren't the President of SC and I hold the power to make your beloved
Ino's life here miserable if you don't do as I tell you to?" Sugi said with
a mocking tone.
J remained silent, as he did not expect such response from Sugi.
"Aren't you tired of using this pathetic excuse again and again? Telling
yourself that you're sacrificing for your brother, instead of helplessly
yielding to your lust?" Sugi sneered.
"Come on, you know as well as I do - you aren't gonna let me leave this
room even if I want to.. hmm…" J sealed Sugi's mouth with his own before
Sugi could finish the sentence. He sucked rampageously at Sugi's lips and
his strong fingers stuck into Sugi's hair and pulled his head even closer.
Sugi hung both of his arms over J's shoulders, his finger nails dug into
J's skin and made J moan like a beast.

Sugi was expecting something much more brutal, he was waiting for J to
bite, to tear at his skin and give him the pain and pleasure that came with
violence.
But J was kissing him in the way a mother wolf licks at her child's wound.
So tender and caring, as if afraid to hurt him.
Sugi stiffened and pushed J away, "what is this?!" Sugi demanded.
J chuckled, " I don't think I'll ever catch you looking miserable like you
do today again, and you won't always find me in mood to pity - a slut like
you - so why don't you accept my very special service and enjoy it for as
long as you can?"
Sugi's face grew dark at this, he cast a nasty look on J and his mind was
desperately seeking for some retort that would wipe off the triumph on J's
face.
" Plot your revenge later, let's just have fun." J sank his head into the
crook of Sugi's neck. He had never felt better before.

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A gentle knock on the door aroused Sugi from his musing, he responded
rather reluctantly, "Come in."

It was Ryu. They had not spoken to each other for a few days already. Sugi
did not think of him much since there was something else that already
occupied his mind. But he did feel a little delighted inside to see this
familiar pretty face. 
"What brought you here? Vice President." He said rather uncaringly, his
tiny happiness perfectly concealed.
"It is the time of the year that we recruit new SC members," Ryu's voice
was equally emotionless, "and I've decided to nominate for this person." He
handed over a manila folder. 
When Sugi opened the folder to see who the nominee was he couldn't believe
what he saw, so he narrowed his eyes and looked at the photo on the file
even harder, but the image before him did not yield to his will and
transform into something else--it was unmistakably Ino's cold, pretty face
that was staring back at him.
" You've gone out of your mind.." Sugi whispered.
"How so?" Ryu responded calmly. Not a trace of fear nor uncertainty.
"Taking your boyfriend into the SC.."
"Has always been your special privilege." Ryu retorted. " And by the way,
he isn't my 'boy friend', might never be…"
"Enough!" Sugi held up his hands, " I'm not interested in what you think of
him. I will let him in - although I doubt you would be able to persuade him
to come. I will grant you this request for once - as stupid as it is. After
all, you "were" a little more special to me than others weren't you?" Sugi
sneered at his last sentence then he went back to his laptop and said
without looking up, " you are dismissed."
Since that night, an awkward coldness had come between them. No harsh words
were ever exchanged, but somehow Ryu knew this was really the end of their
relationship. Whatever bonded them together for 10 years was now broken. He
felt a bit sad that neither of them even bothered to act as if they care.
To amend this relationship that he could not name.
"Thank you, president." Ryu said politely and left the room. Sugi seemed to
have forgotten that he was even there. Let along catching the slight
bitterness that was in Ryu's voice.