Sad Poems

Clouds

While clouds amble gently through
My line of upward sight
I can't help but be reminded of you
And how you've given me so much delight

I'm smiling inside more than I can show
On the outside of my visage
There are so many things I want you to know
But they shall stay locked in my cage

For now is not the time
For me to shed these chains
These words are far from benign
I need not say them again

I've told them to all but you, my dear
I think you always knew, my dear
So saying the words will interfere
Now that your intentions are clear

So, alone sit I, writing
These words you'll never hear
I can't help but stay here, always waiting
For the time you and I will both be here

But never will that joy fill me
Victims of time and location are we
It would have been wonderous, that I can see
A future, with I on bended knee

Forever holding you in my arms
You eternally close to me
Me, endearing your precious charms
Ah, vivid that I see

Alas, it is but a dream...
A tale of faeries and elves
The present is what is unseen
Like a tight locked oyester shell

A treasure lies inside, that's true
But how do we get this treasure out?
My treasure is no other but you
But you've blown away like the clouds



Let Me Sleep

Oh Sweet Death! Take me into your arms
My time has come to depart
I feel the need
To take my leave
Whether morn be light or dark

Oh Peaceful Sleep I thee embrace
My soul shall never rest
I need an end
So you, my freind
I count on for the rest

For 'tis my choice to leave this world
And head towards the hereafter
Just leave me be
And let me leave.
Mourn for me no longer



WHY ME?

The blood surrounds
With dripping sounds
Encasing me in danger

The pools they form
And lap my arm
And fill your soul with anger

Coming 'round
That fearful sound
The drip drip drip of death

Turning right
The fearful sight
Of the exhaled final breath

The tears you moan
Your wailing tone
Shall do you little good

For time has passed
I breathed my last
My blood still stains the wood

About what could
Or did or should
Please don't ask yourself

You were not there
I did not care
That's why I killed myself



I Am Ready Now

The morn melts through my window
And I rise to shake its hand
I now see that my life has passed
In this dawning truly grand

I think of all the things I did
From Fall to passing Fall
And agree with greater men
In that I never lived at all

Perhaps in the short amount
Of life I still possess
I' ll do something that's great or good
Instead of just regress

Or maybe I'll look Death
Squarely in his face
And tell him, "I am ready now.
Take me from this place."



The Black Sonnet

The sky was dark and under it
Was where I stood and waited for a bit
And when she came the sky did clear
And all 'round knew my time was here

I spread my arms to greet the black Death
It swirled and swarmed around my breast
The sky above me, it did open wide
And a cloud lifted me up like an incoming tide

Into the Heavens I was then thrust
There were fallen pearl gates on hinges with rust
"Is this what I get for my life's endeavor
For all I have done, the wise and the clever?"

My guide turned around like a demon possessed
The blank skull looked at me and said only "Yes."



Awaiting the Inevitable

The life in us all must end
And some will greet it warmly
But those that say that life is good
Do never leave life calmly

Those who are mistaken
By life's foul mysteries
Will let their death surprise them
But no. Not ever me.

I will not run. I will not hide
From that which comes to claim me
I'll see his face. I'll Death embrace
And leave this cursed life calmly

But now I sit and wait for the
Time when Life is done with me.



Sorrow

Although it is what's best
I hate to tear your heart
We've been together for so long
I hate to see us fall apart

But Honesty we both must keep
It might not make sense now
But if this is what we both need
The we should decide how

Parting is such sweet sorrow
I hate to hurt you dear
But if it's gone we should admit
To end it now and here

I know the pain may overwhelm
But please my dear stay true
You do not need me in your life
Anyone could love you

You were the best I've ever had
And that is not a lie
But we have never been the same
Since this past July

I tried to make work
Oh God, did I try hard
But if it really wants to go
You can not change the cards

I'm sure that freinds we can never be
That ball, though is in your court
Who knows, perhaps if we both decide
We could try and restart

But for now, I'm sure you'll see
I have to pack and take my leave
I leave not for another one
I'm doing this for me

I tried so hard to save you
That I tied my own slip knot
But now I see I can not play
By my feelings I am caught

I really hate to let it go
But please do not pursue
It is the time for both of us
To go for something new

I can not help but feel like hell
It was not an easy choice
But still it is an choice which must be made
Whether it brings sorrows or joys

I'm sorry for the pain I've caused
I'm sorry for all I did wrong
You always treated me like a king
I hated to string you along

If this hurts you more
Than me leaving, again I'm sorry
But know that I tried to save us
Maybe that was my folly



The Gamble

I do not mean to hurt you
Know that it is for the best
Just like the fledgling dove
Must at one time leave the nest

I'm sure the pain must overwhelm
But find the strength to carry on
I'm sure you've many questions
Maybe answers will come in the dawn

I hope we can keep open the door
If we both feel it is right
To give these dice another roll
If we both shall see the light

But if not, my dear, know this truth
Stronger than any other did I love you



Clowns

I sit alone where I once loved you
And I wonder why I let you
Pull my strings so hard and tight
I could barely see out of my eyes

But once I squinted hard
I saw thorugh your barrage
And realized you had lied to me
You had made it hard to see

I couldn't hold myself at fault
Because I had to kneel and crawl
The truth is you had pushed me down
And toyed with me like a clown

And with I happy to fill the part
You slowly shred my heart
Leaving me to die and wait
As you leaned forward and offered bait

But now that you are gone
You will get my bomb
All these times you thought
I wasn't learning what you taught
I had become your brightest pupil
I had learned true evil

So now as you cry to me
Because you are blind and can not see
That I'd been pulling all the strings
And making you dance and sing
I can walk away
And live to play another day
For it is your own game you fell into
There is nothing you can do
I hold all the aces this time
You have come to the end of your line
And I will no longer follow you down
You are now my clown



Love is Like suicide

I lie on my back and see your eyes in the stars
I lie on my side and feel you behind me
I lie face down and it's better by far
Because there I may die, I can not breathe

Why do I love thee so, when you don't love me?
This makes such little sense
What makes your name ring in my ears?
Did this love I just invent?

It's something about your eyes, your scent
They deliver me to heaven
Maybe that's from where you're sent
And I must find out your intentions

But if you are an earth-born being
Did you mean to kill me?



When I think of you...

I wonder why I am lonely this eve
And I conclude that I don't know
I haven't done just what I need
I haven't let you go

I miss the look you gave me
When I would give you flowers
I miss the times that I would be
Doing nothng for hours
And I would come up to be
Something sweet for you when all was sour

I miss the motion of your body
And the kisses of your lips
As they danced all over me
The scent of your love I miss

I miss the smell of your perfume
When after you'd lie in my arms
And just each others love we' consume
And keep ourselves from harm

I miss your golden fleck'd hair
As the sun would twinkle through
I miss the days that you were here
But most of all I miss you...



Blood-red Tears

Blood-red tears crash like waves
Upon an empty shore
Although barren, days on days
Time on time it's damaged more
And now as time and days roll by
I've stoped myself from asking why

I realize now you are gone from me
Through many tears and pains
I still lie awake when I can't see
And try my strength to regain
For now I can see you really don't care
Despite your lies I've grown aware

This is where I should have been
So many months ago
I should have seen the clear signs when
You forced me out the door
But like a fool I kept returning
While you were still my letters burning

So now because of you I am lonely
But no more so than when you were here
I love you, yes, but don't you see?
Our end, my life marked with these blood-red tears



The Poem

It amazes me to see
How models so long set in stone
Et tossed as a feather to sea
As through this life I have grown

So many standard precedents
Torn assunder in the wind
Riding on your foul intent
As you pass on by and chill my skin

I read the words you wrote to me
And wonder if you meant them
And I still love, don't you see?
And don't you remember when?

How I treasured those lines
Of verse upon the page
Just because they are from you and mine
And by reading them, I see your face

But just as if you're long since dead
You are gone from here
And I see the poem long since read
And I cry a lonely tear



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