I thought I had forgotten
all of the screaming pain
of losing you forever
but now I find again
I grow warm and happy
when you call me, just to chat
when your hand brushes mine
I get the feeling that
maybe it could work this time
maybe we could be
together forever
for eternity, you and me
and I would be so happy
if only you loved me
If you were to say it
my heart could again be free
I need to know or I think
that I'll die trying
to find out whether or not
you love me and I'm crying…
tears of regret
that I didn't find you
sooner than I did
maybe we could have worked and who
could ever take your place?
I don't think I could imagine
life without you anywhere
but I suppose I'm going to have to
because this year you'll leave me
or the other way around
the impact of our parting
wears me down to the ground
so sorry if I'm not perfect
I love you just the same
I think you are so perfect
please take away my shame
don't make me go through this year
without a single friend
be someone who will love me
from now until the end
don't rip my heart from me
and throw it away, to the wind
wrench my dreams away
and tear my soul apart
I'll love you forever…
I'm giving you my heart…
~© - Alicia Lehner, 1998