So many things ran through my mind
I don't want to hurt you
But I don't want to lie
I can't help but love you
And I can't help but cry.
When we were apart
"Did I do something terribly wrong?"
"Did I break your heart?"
Rising in the morning
Was the hardest thing to do
Because every day that started
I had to face without you.
Now you say you want me back
Now you say you care
But what about the lonely nights
When you were not there?
What about the tears I held
Deep within my pride
What about losing forever
And going insane inside?
Deep within my madness
Love has passed away
Died without my knowing
In an unmarked bitter grave.
I searched, my dear
Constantly searching for my love
Or at least the remains that haunted me
And all I had memories of.
Walks along the levee
Picnics in the park
Dining out together
Parking at the bar...
Everywhere I went
And everything I tried
I couldn't stop thinking
About you and I.
You don't know the hurt
Or the madness in my mind.
You don't know the things I did
Just to pass the time
Or how hard it was
Just to make it through the day.
No, you never even called
To see if I was okay.
Meanwhile the madness
Caused me to feel pain and all alone
It forced me to fall out of love
And made my mind its home.
So I cannot go back,
Not to where I've been
To be in love with you
I will never know again.
But I don't want to cry
I realized I'll love you
Until the day I die.