I have wanted to try to get in words why I skydive, and
it seems to me it has to do somehow with both sadness and
love. How is that? The more we allow ourselves to love, the
sadder the leaving. We can't allow ourselves to love too
much, then; and it's hard to love too much with one's spirit
blowing lightly in the wind.
There is a sense as one grows older that pridefulness and
excessive ego are misplaced-- there is a tendency towards
humility, in the face of knowing how much of what we do is
vanity. Skydiving is three things: It is a submission after
years of willfulness; it is wholly absorbing, and therefore
distracting from our cares; and it is the rational, peaceful
contemplation of death, and eternity made less fearsome.
As skydivers, we can feel less deeply the anguish of
knowing the impermanence of love, and of those we love.
Skydiving *celebrates* life's impermanence with a brilliant
brightness, floods it with a blinding light. Ultimately, it
reminds us that life is very fragile, but very brave.
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