| What If..The Origins of some mental behavior are found? |
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| The origins of mental disorder are unknown at this time however I feel compelled to explain just one more medical condition that contributed to my own "symptomology" of "Bipolar" diagnoses. I began my decent into hell with little idea of why I was becoming so reactive, angry and moody. Though I understood I was 7 months pregnant I had never experienced something as severe as I had with my last pregnancy. It was a difficult pregnancy with early labor for the final 3 months, dialation and continued back pain and migraines. I waddled myself into a doctors office and told him I thought something was "wrong" with me and then explained my symptoms. He quickly surmised that I could be Bipolar but needed to rule out possible Post-Partum (wait, doesn't Post mean AFTER delivery?). I agreed to see if things got better after delivery. Things got okay and then the moods hit. I would cry and I would sleep. After 6 weeks of it and getting worse I begged to be hosptalized and treated for something because I couldn't stand the way I had become seemingly overnight. Within 5 days I was officially diagnosed with Bipolar.. In hindesight I remember my first rage in that hospital being right after lunch-cementing my proof of the metabolic difference in how I metabolize sugar...and how much the symptoms convinced the doctors I was actually "bipolar". Problem was, I never told you guys how I used to have "hallucinations", how I used to get "migraines" and how my head felt "fuzzy" and "pressurized". You know about the rages and depression and how eating differently solved most of my problems, but did you realize that there was one more thing I found out? See, my back hurt an awful lot lately. I finally went to the MD and was simply told to excercise and given muscle relaxers. I hated medications so much by then I usually just gritted my teeth and dealt with the pain. I still saw "hallucianations" and still suffered migraines but I knew it was merely a bandaide approach to the real underlying issue, whatever it was. I finally went to a Chiropractor and was given X-rays to view my spine. He walked into the room, looked at me and asked me when I got into my car accident. I just stared at him and asked him, "uh, what?" He said he knew I'd gotten in a car accident and that I'd been hit from the right side and asked me when it was. My mouth fell open as I told him it had been 12 years earlier and how could he possibly know. He explained that my spine was damaged in areas, curved in others. He then looked at me and asked, "Are you seeing things?". Afraid he'd think I was crazy I fought with the urge to tell him about my "disappearing bug hallucinations" that the psychiatrist had put me on meds for (which caused me to hear voices)..so I sat there staring again. He finally looked at me, asked me if I heard him and I finally whispered that I had been on medications for them. He asked me a few questions then said, "You are normal. There is nothing even remotely "crazy" about what your seeing, it's normal for your condition". He explained that my spine had been pressing on my optical nerves causing my "hallucinations". He adjusted my back and explained as he did that the CNS runs up through the spine and gives off chemicals into the Base Ganglia which is the lower brain at the nap of the neck, lower head region. He said not only was my vision effected, but the rages and migraines and pressure were probably all going to be corrected once the spine was corrected. He said the spine was pressing on the CNS and probably causing the production of wrong amounts of brain chemicals into the lower brain.. He said the Base Ganglia controls primitive emotions like Anger and Fear. He then placed his hands on either side of my neck, told me I would notice the pressure gone when he had finished, and jerked my neck into place. Instantly my migraine disappeared, my vision cleared even more and the muscles relaxed in my neck. I finally had a medical answer to a "psychological" problem. |
| JUNE 23, 2001 |
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