Please Stand by Me

Not knowing what my future holds does not make me any different from you.

I want someone to hold my hand as we gaze into the distance. A friend who makes me feel tingly when I get a letter from her or call to say “hello”. Life is a constant struggle for everyone, but to go through life feeling alone only makes matters worse.

There is my mother whom I love with all my heart. I’ve even got some pen-pals who I care deeply for. And there are all the men around me here. But it’s not what I crave deep within my heart. I want a woman who I can love as a man can only love a woman, a sweet lady who can challenge and inspire me.

I met her. I must admit, in the beginning I was afraid of my heart attaching to her, it all happened so fast. And I doubted all the promises she was telling me, that is until she convinced me never to doubt her love. Then it happened, you know what usually accompanies love – its call heartbreak. She said she couldn’t handle the thought of losing me, and began her process of walking out of my life.

I blamed her for my pain, cause she didn’t have to walk away from the promises she made. But I’m grateful for the short time she was mine. My days became bright, my spirit even grew. I have wanted love for years, but had thought I was unable to open up and love. Now I carry the pain and shame with me along as I descend back into darkness.

Written in 1998

Gary Davis Hart II, Z-519
Holman 3700, 7-D-11
Atmore, AL 36503
USA

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