This is Amy's story exactly as she wrote it to me......

Get your Kleenexes this is sad.. but when you read it you will understand me a little better

A TRUE STORY: 20 years later

     He waited by the window for her to leave,  as I played jacks on his floor.After she left, He
locked the door. I asked him if he wanted to play checkers,  He replied "no I have a new game that I would like to teach you. "Do you want to play?" Excitedly I said "yes," He took me to his bed, told me to take off my dress. I took it off. I asked no questions.  He says "tell no-one of our game." I said "okay". We're playing doctor and you are the patient, so do  as I say". I just replied " okay" . He put his fingers in my hole, and moved them round and  round. I told him that I was scared. He acted as if he didn't care. He moved his mouth-he said " he was going to kiss my other lips" I said " okay". I didn't know what he was talking about.  Then he made a noise. He said that it was my  turn. He pulled out his pants and grabbed his  thing.  He was playing with it.I wasn't sure why. He told me  to put my mouth on it.. I said "okay". He told  me to kiss it. I said "okay". He told me to pretend  that it was a lollipop and to suck on it. I just sat  there and said " okay". Then he made this awful  noise I thought he was hurt. But he said he was  okay. white stuff came out of his thing and all over me. He took his hand and smeared it all over me.  Yuck I thought,, but I said this is okay.Then he got a rag and washed me up..     The game was over at least for today, I was told to never tell anyone about our new game..I did as he said. I got up and got dressed and went down to my gram's and gramp's house.. All was just okay.
What I just told you, is a true story of what happened to me when I was 6yrs old.When I was 13 I finally let out my little secret for my great grandfather had passed away. I was no longer scared of the man Who took away my innocence.. When I came out with the truth the only ones who believed me was my gramp's and gram's.. 20 yrs later after the death of  my Gram's I found out that I was the last victim of the monster called my great grandfather. The family secret. I was made out to be a liar all those  yrs ago.  This is why I hold no secrets within my house. This is why I value Children so much. See even when all is said and done..ONE CAN NEVER FORGET the pain of being sexually abused, even if we have forgiven the monster.I will not allow such a Crime happen to  my kids or the kids that I know. There are times even today, I can see the images of a loving  great-grandfather, doing harm to an unknowing child.. If I would have known all that was  wrong..  Maybe just maybe, I wouldn't have the nightmares. But then again, I am a stronger person, and obviously I stand behind what I say. But most of allwhen I tell my kids that I love them I say without any strings attached..........

              amyk...8^)

ŠAlta
March 22' 2000