Resolve

Chasing dreams
Down desolate alleys
Dead end roads
And deserted valleys
Wondering how
I got where I'm at
If life is a highway
Then I lost the map
How could I make such venomous choices
I'll take the blame
But won't excuse the voices
Of those who tried
To bring me down
My tongue all tied
My hands all bound
Because of decisions
I did not make
I had nothing
You were selfish to take
Something that did not
Belong to you
I was only six
What did you do
I should have screamed
Years long ago
I could have had justice
People would know
But I was frozen
Silent with fear
And no one can see
Invisible tears
Did no one notice
That I had been used
My spirit was broken
My body abused
For one fatal night
My life changed forever
Confused and alone
I'd be the same never
And way back then
At age fourteen
I remembered it all
And life got mean
And I wasn't scared
If death rang its bell
'Cause I was already
In my own private Hell
Innocence lost
Assailant long gone
Survive, and  realize
That I did no wrong
I've begun to feel
Somewhere between here and there
I can't give up
It's time to care
Decidedly now
I can renew my life
Things will get better
I'm removing the knife
And even though it's been pretty tough
I'm telling my mind
It's had enough
For what you took
I'm taking back
And self-esteem
I'll no longer lack
Now my dreams aren't down
Desolate alleys
Dead end roads
And deserted valleys
The map's inside
Towards tops of mountains
In my heart
And golden fountains
For life will be good
And I am strong
'Cause I've found the strength
To carry on
I see it in tiny eyes
So blue
A miracle child
Whose love is true
For him and me
And our time ahead
I may have suffered
But my soul's not dead

© Stephanie 1996  (hockeygirlie9)

©Alta
March 22' 2000