Paul's letter to Marguerite


Marguerite rarely paid any thought to him when Frank would bring the mail in, so on this particular day when she saw Frank shuffling through the mail that arrived at the manor, Marguerite did not pay much attention until he abruptly stopped at one letter. He pulled it out and seperated it from the others as he finished sorting through all the pieces of mail. Frank gave Percy an odd look while handing him the mail but took the one letter and handed it to Marguerite.

Seeing Marguerite take to her letter, Blakeney excused himself, anxious to open the odd letter in the stack that he did not recognize. He knew Andrew was in the back, but if his friend was sleeping as Frank had reported last, a few more minutes wouldn't matter.

Making his way upstairs, Blakeney glanced back to see Marguerite's face smile over whoever the letter was from. Swiftly moving into his private study, he locked the door behind him and made for his desk. Luckily for Sir Percival Blakeney, Baronet, the letter Marguerite read was long, and it allowed him the time to make a brief escape.

Marguerite thanked him as he handed her the letter and smiled when she saw it was from an old friend in France.

Dear Marguerite,
Bonjour. It's Paul here and first off all I must humbly beg your pardon for not writing to you sooner but Paris is just so hectic these days. I'm sure you've heard of this since it has become world news. Still it is no excuse to keep a friend in the dark. I am truly sorry for this but I don't feel quite comfortable in Paris anymore. That is why I'm careful about what I write and mostly to whom I write. Incase my letters should be intercepted. Something I am convinced off that will happen one day. Ah Marguerite live has changed a lot since you left and not for the better as we all hoped when we started this revolution. It has only gotten worse. So worse that you can't trust anyone anymore. Even your best friend here can turn into an enemy and send you to the guillotine without feeling any remorse or guilt. Instead they have a victorious smile on their face while they stare their former friends in the eyes as the guillotine blade is being released. I have seen this happen many times. Friends are all being denounced and the entire family, even children, are being send to that monstruous machine! You know that the children are being guillotined first so that the parents can see their young ones die before their lives have even begun. Oh God Marguerite what have I done? Why have I ever supported such a cause? A cause that I no longer believe in but will die for none the less. Everything I worked so hard for has now been ruined by people like Robespierre and that bloodhound of his Chauvelin. They have turned a once noble cause into revenge and have changed the citizens of France into a bloodthirsty mob who demand more people die by the guillotine every day. They have no respect anymore and I have lost them. I have lost all my dreams and hopes for the future and as it seems I will also lose my life. It is all over Marguerite. You were smart to leave and start a new life somewhere else. I hope everything is alright with you and your husband. I also hope that I will hear from you soon. I could really use your advice.
Your dear friend Paul Déroulède

Marguerite's happy spirits quickly disappeared as she read Paul's letter. All the horros of France that she had somehow manage to force out of her mind came flooding back to her. Betrayal, lies, deception, was all the work of some many people done in vain? All of the sufferings and the sacrafics of the children of France for nothing more then to remove one tyrannt only to replace him with a group of them? And the children, the mention of the poor children brought an image of the three children of the Marquis St. Cyr to her mind. The three innocents that she had unwillingly sent to the guillotine.

It was too much, she started to tremble and she felt her knees grow weak. She felt her breath grow frantic and rapid and, due to absence of a chair nearby, she dropped onto her knees and began to loudly cry out in an emotional agony. He didn't even need to say it, but it was almost as if Marguerite had entered a period of mourning for Paul, and all of her friends still in France. Frightened for her mistress and to what could have caused such an outburst she hurried from the run in search of the Baronet. Taking the stairs as fast as she could, Candice ran into one of Marguerite's ladies in waiting and quickly ordered the young girl to try and console the woman. Reaching the study door she rapped hard and awaited entrance....

Armand was walking absently in the halls when one of Percy's servents dashed by. He stepped back and watched as she ran to Percy's study and banged on the door. He saw her enter and close the door behind her.

"Now what could that be about?" Armand wondered, aloud. His question was answered when he reached Marguerite's door. She was on the carpet, sobbing hysterically. A little frightened, and more than a little worried, Armand entered and knelt beside his sister. "Marguerite? Marguerite! What's wrong? What happened?!"

Marguerite continued to cry, not able to stop or even calm herself. Still shaking, she couldn't bring herself to stop or regain her composure. All she could do was look at the letter still in her hand.

Armand, with his arm around her, gave the letter a quick once-over. He understood what Marguerite was crying about: her friend was in danger. He might die. Paul... the name was familliar. Obviously more of a friend to Margot. But a close one... a good one, apparently. "Marguerite, please... tell me what I can do... there must be something...!"

Marguerite shook her head and gasped through her tears, "Nothing, Armand, there's nothing that we can do. It's too much, it's gone too far. It's not jusst the tyrants like St. Cyr that they're hunting anymore. It's good people like Paul. People that worked for this revolution. I hate it, I hate all of it, the blood, the pain, the suffering, the fright, and I hate being here and not being htere to help people like Paul."

Armand said nothing. He had known this for a while now. He did not say this, of course, because that wasn't exactly comforting to his sister. Still, he had to find SOMEthing consoling to say. "I... I know that there is nothing we can do to save ALL of them. But there are escapees, like... like Hélène and Louise! There are people who are escaping, Marguerite; precious few, I know... but better few than none."

"But not Paul," Marguerite continued to sob, "Not Paul. Paul's a good man, he gave his money to the poor, he built a hospital, he worked for France, he's a good man but he won't leave, he won't try, even if he is in danger. And he is Armand! He is! Terrible danger I'm sure of it." Marguerite began to choke on her sobs and unable to even sit properly on the floor, she leaned over placing her arms in front of her to support herself. In the tight corset she struggled to breath and gasped for air.

"I... I am sure he is a good man..." Armand said. "Strong and loyal." He saw his sister choke on her sobs and almost curl up on the floor. "Marguerite, please... try and calm down!" He rubbed her shoulders, trying to soothe her. "Why won't he leave if he is in danger?"

On hands and knees, Marguerite rocked back and forth trying to regain some bit of composure. "He won't run, he won't leave. He believes too much in good things and he'll stay and fight it out to the end, that's why Armand."

"But he must know that no good will come of this bloody revolution by now! If there were, it would have happened by now! There's nothing left to fight for.... All the people that we were fighting against are dead or they have fled the country, and yet the mobs kill hundreds... M. Paul must know that he cannot possibly help anyone by staying..."

Marguerite continued to struggle but finally gave in, lowering her body to the floor and leaning back against the side of a soft sofa. She wanted to scream out in rage and curse Robespierre and Danton and Marat and all the rest that let this continue, but her body wouldn't allow her too.

'Dammit,' Armand thought. He sat next to his sister on the floor. There had to be something he could do, something at all. "Marguerite, what if someone were to help Paul out of France? Or forcefully remove him from that country?" Going for Paul would give Armand another try at trying to kill Chauvelin.

It took a minute for what Armand was suggesting to register in Marguerite's mind. Through her choking and crying everything around her was a blur. She wanted to tell him no and to put such thoughts out of his head, but a random mess of blubbering was all that she would be able to make out if she tried. Instead she pulled herself up, leaning on Armand for support and hugged her brother tightly against her.

He slid one arm behind his sister's wasit, and one to her opposite shoulder, and he hugged her, wishing there was something he could do to stop her crying. And where WAS Percy? One of Marguerite's women had gone to fetch him, had she not? Would he not come?

"It will be all right..." He murmured in French. He kept repeating what he hoped were soothing sentences, trying to ease her crying and to help her breathe. She seemed to be having trouble when she was sobbing like that.

Marguerite began to rock back and forth as Armand held her. She rememebered so many times when they were young when she would the same for him. Why is it that she is now the weak one?

Her crying eventually slowed to a sob and then a soft whimper. Marguerite softly kissed her brother's cheek as she calmed down. "I wish. . . " she started in a whisper, "I just wish that . . ." She tried and tried but her emotions had left her disraught and she was unable to voice her thoughts.

"I know..." Armand whispered. He couldn't do much more than he had done. He had to speak to Percy. Where was the man, anyway? Did he just not care? "You should rest, Margot." He helped her to stand. "Maybe after, we can think of something we can do to try and help your friend."

Armand's first thought was to go to Percy and tell him what Marguerite had told him. Quietly, Armand slipped the letter into his pocket to show Percy.

Marguerite for once didn't fight and didn't argue. She quietly held onto Armand, still sobbing, and he led her to her room. As they neared the doors to her suite, she threw her arms around Armand and let one last brust of emotion come through.

He tried to comfort her, so he put his arms around her and hugged her. Then he led her to her bed. He sat her down and seated himself beside her. "Shall I call you ladies to assist you?" Armand asked.

Marguerite sat down on her bed and nodded. "I. . . I think Emma is around, or Candice. If they're near I would apperciate it, if not I can manage."

Armand nodded and he touched her hand. He gave her a weak smile. "I will try to help you friend," He said. 'I dont know how,' was added silently. He would though. Kissing her cheek, he stood up and left quietly. He found Candice and told her that Lady Blakeney required her assistence. The he went to his room.

Taking out another sheet of paper, Armand wrote to Percy, "Can we do anything for him? Marguerite is very upset about this. Armand" Then he slipped this and the letter under Percy's study door, which had remained closed since he last saw it. Then he went to bed.

The following morning, after calming herself from the painful shock the night before, Marguerite, after much hesitation, finally put pen to paper to write Paul a letter.

Dearest Paul,
It is with a heavy heart that I have finally forced myself to do whathad to be done. I fear for you and all my friends in Paris. If things are as awful as you say, I beg of you to flee from Paris, if not france altogether. I know the thought of it is difficult, having left so recently I can symapthize with you, but do not put yourself at risk.
Paris is dangerous, especially for anyone with any sort of ties to the revolution. No one is safe. You are a good person Paul, to live in such fear is not something you deserve. Please, at the very least leave the city. The countryside is no doubt a bit safer.
I would tell you of my new life it, but what I have experinced seems petty and minor compared to the deals of Paris, and to speak of such things at this moment does not seem proper. I will jsut say that Armand and I are well and adjustign to our new home. In the meantime I pray for your safety and hope you seek refuge some that's safe.
With Love,
Marguerite

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