Sibling Rivalry


It was early the morning after the ball. For the most part, Suzanne regretted going. Though she would never say so to anyone. Most of the things she had been looking forward to at this occasion had failed to happen. Scooting back from her place at the table after breakfast had been finished she walked silently into the front room and found her normal seat in the windowsill. She sat in sweet revelry for several minutes staring out the window before hearing anyone else enter the room. Looking up she smiled slightly at Pierre before looking back through the glass.

"Who are you looking for?" Thus begineth the morning.

With a frown she turned back towards him. "No one."

"You sure? You look sad." Pierre actually felt a moment of compassion for his sister and pat her knee.

"Just enjoying the morning is all." Suzanne looked up to Pierre with a half smile. "I'm fine, I assure you."

He laid down his head in her lap. As a little boy, he would do this with each family member. It helped him calm down and usually they would rub his back, which he liked.

Very soothingly, Suzanne stroked her fingers against his hair, and worked her way down his back. It was so much like the peaceful times at home. When she and Pierre rarely had any reason to go against each other. "Mon petit Pierre, is something wrong?" She asked very softly, he hadn't done this in so long.

Last night he decided he wasn't going to tell her, but today seemed a very different day. He remained there and hugged her legs, deciding if he should tell her about the French man he'd met the night before.

Continuing to rub his back, Suzanne sighted softly wishing for Papa to be sitting in his chair reading the paper. "I know something is on your mind. Please, tell me."

He hugged her legs again and thought and thought and thought. Finally he spoke, "I'm going to save Poppa."

Looking down at him in surprise she tried her hardest not to tell him that it was crazy, for she longed to do so herself. "I wish you could. I miss him so much, but how could it be done. We don't even know where he is."

Glancing up, he wondered if he should not tell her. Maybe it would be better if he just went and met the other man. "Yeah, I guess so."

"If only we knew where he was, then I'm sure something could be done..." She whispered half to herself. Andrew had promised he would see what could be done, hadn't he. But she was so unsure anymore. "There is a look in your eyes, what are you thinking?"

"Nothing." He lied. Then he thought the better of it. "There might be a man who can help Poppa. The man I'm going to find."

Her face brightened slightly. "Someone can help poppa?" she asked in half hope. "Where is this man? Where did you meet him?"

He sat up now, wishing to speak and be treated like a man. "Last night at the ball. The man is French. He doesn't think he can help, really, but then again, if I went and needed support... I trust him Suzannie." The poor daft boy.

"Do you know where he is? Or even what we would have to do for our part?" Suzanne asked turning to face him.

She asked a lot of hard questions. "Well, no. But I'm going to go and free Poppa. I could figure it out."

That was where she did not like his plan. "Pierre, you can't go back. There is no way for you to get there, and even if you could get back to France... There is no way you could do such a thing alone."

"But Suzannie! This man could help me! I could move around a lot easier than a group of loud mouthed pompous English!" He pulled away from her now. She never believed in him.

"Those loud mouthed pompous English were the one's who saved us. Do you think they meant to leave Poppa behind." She stood and folded her arms. "I want to see Poppa back with us as much as you do, but risking your life and going back. It would kill Mamaa to see you go."

"Did Sir Andrew mean to leave you behind last night at the ball?" Pierre did not actually mean to pick on Sir Andrew again, for he had a fairly good idea on how it must have hurt his sister, but right now she was not believing in him and that hurt more. He lashed out equally sharp.

Her face crumpled, as he shot those words at her. "No!" she whispered. "It was not his fault." How she could defend him when he had hurt her, she didn't know. "Besides, this has nothing to do with you going to find Poppa!"

"Not his fault? Like the English did not *mean* to leave Poppa?!" He stepped back and clenched his fists. Why could she not see things as simple as he did? It was as clear as crystal!

"They didn't, I know they didn't. Sir Andrew said they had gone back for him. I know they didn't mean to, how can you say such things." Suzanne snapped back. "You want to make it sound like they purposely left them, but the Scarlet Pimpernel would not have done that. And I will not let you go off to get your self killed."

"And did Sir Andrew not mean to *not* dance and ignore you last night? These English! When will you realize they are not French Suz?!" He took her hands and pleaded. "You are my sister, why do this to us?"

Pulling her hands away, she took a step back. "I did not do this to us."

Another rejection. Again from his own sister. This habit was becoming unbearable to receive. "I am going to find Poppa. You can't keep your eye on me *and* swoon over your deserting lover at the same time."

He turned to go.

Although his words hurt her, family meant more to her than anything and would not lose Pierre as well. Chasing after him she wrapped her arms around his shoulders and softly pleaded with him. "Please, don't leave Mamaa and I alone. Pierre, I'm afraid, don't go."

He stopped and reached up to hug her halfway awkwardly. Closing his eyes, he remembered months before what it felt like to be loved. His family. It had been months. The younger boy's voice had calmed, as well as his disposition, but he was still curt. "Won't Sir Andrew still be here to protect you both?" The sting to his words was gone, but he asked the question.

"I'm not sure I want him to Pierre." Suzanne confessed softly. A lot of her opinions had changed during the night. "I will help you to find this man, see if he can help us, but please, do not go to France."

Not be with Sir Andrew? It was music to his ears. A smile crossed his face briefly, and then he quoth, "I have got to go to France. That is where this man is." Then, with no detail left out, Pierre confided in his sister and told her all about Mattheui.

"But if he was here in England last night, there is a chance we could still find him before he leaves to go back for France." Suzanne knew it was a long shot. After all they knew no way of finding him.

"I only have his address in France..." He hadn't thought about contacting him in England, and honestly, Pierre looked forward to be going home.

"Then can you write to him?" Anything to keep him from going back to France.

"I suppose." It took him a while, but he understood why his sister kept asking him things. She didn't think he was old enough to handle it himself. Well, he would show her. "I could write him." He would write him too. Informing him of his visit. Pierre could go to France. He *would* go.

He wasn't going? Suzanne hugged him again. "Then, we can finally find out where Poppa is. And this man will help us, I am sure." Happiness just seemed light her face with the idea that her poppa would be coming back to them. "Will you write tonight? Then the letter can be there when he returns."

"I can do that. You want to write it with me?" He liked the idea of the two of them doing something together. Alone. No stupid Englishmen. "But Suzannie, we shouldn't tell Mamaa. I don't want to get her hopes up if it fails." Actually, he didn't want his mother keeping a closer eye on him. He would need to slip away from his family when he went to France.

Touched he would let her help when she offered, Suzanne nodded. "Yes, I would like to help. And I understand, Maman would be terribly upset if all this came to nothing." Walking back to her window seat she lifted the box and pulled out the small writing desk. "Do you think it would be best to go into one of our rooms?"

He smiled and took her hand. "Okay. Let's go to your room." In his early youth he was quite the snuggly little boy, which would explain his tantrums when he did not get his way. Times like this, Pierre was near pleasant towards his sister.

In agreement, Suzanne glanced down the hall to where their mother was then lead them both to her room, careful to shut the door behind. Then with a hopeful smile, she pulled her skirts around so she could sit on the edge of her bed and Pierre could be beside her. "Now, do you know the monsieur's name?"

He snuck passed the viewing point of Mother. That would ruin his whole plan if Mamaa became involved. With almost an excited leap, Pierre told Suzanne the name Mattheiu had given him. A good sounding French Aristocratic name. "What shall I ask of him Suzannie? He lives south of Paris and does not have many contacts in the city." The thought crossed his mind to have the Frenchman meet up with Sir Andrew and the rest of the Pimpernels, but that would only get his sister back in good graces with Ffoulkes. At all costs, Pierre would avoid that.

Watching her little brother, and thinking of how to find Poppa with this mans help Suzanne settled into a seat. "Well... we might ask him if he could confirm which prison Poppa is located in.." The more she thought, the more things began to click in her mind. "I do think they would have taken him to the same place as they had taken myself. Perhaps we could suggest he try there first?"

The boy nodded and hugged her arm, leaning his head into it. "That is good. Write that. I like that." Pierre smiled.

Concentrating on making the letter very clear, and serious, Suzanne frowned for a moment before she addressed the letter to the name Pierre had given her and began to explain what they were asking and the information she had. Looking for Pierre's approval, as this was a joint project her frown from writing softened. "does it sound correct? And what else are we to tell him? Perhaps we should contact Sir Andrew and see if he can find out anything more..." In truth she wondered how Sir Andrew faired. He had seemed so ill.

Immediately, Pierre's face scrunched hearing that name. Sir Ugly Andrew. "It sounds found until you mentioned *that* part." He looked at his sister. How could she?

Sighing softly she glanced back to the paper. "I only thought he could contact the man who had been in the prison. The one who had taken me out. But of course, no, we should not contact him." A trifle disappointed, she then looked up. "What else does this need?"

"No..." he whispered, imitating her and enunciating his great dislike for the aforementioned Englishman. "A contact name and signature. Then to be mailed. We are done, no?"

Studying the paper, she made a tiny change then looked over to him. "I am going to put you as the contact, as you are the one he spoke with." She wrote his name and handed him the paper to sign. "You are sure this man will try to help us?"

Having spent a Hellish night at home after the ball (Drew had wound up walking- he was in no way, shape or form able to ride his horse) he woke up with a nasty hang over and could hardly sit up on his bed from the throbbing pain in his head. Feeling horrible about what had happened, he decided to go and appologize to Suzanne. Even though he felt awful, he pulled on some clothes, ran a comb through his hair and started out. It wasn't long before he arrived at the residence...'Dear God, please let her be home..please, please..' He begged silently, knocking at the door...

Still holding the letter in her hands she looked over to Pierre. Pulling out a few blank pages she placed them on top of the freshly written message for help and placed it on her desk. "If someone is here, Maman will come looking for us, we should go downstairs. she looked once more to the letter. "We will have to send that later."

He nodded and placed the ink well on top of the blank sheets too. Just for security in case it might, but couldn't with no window open, blow away. "Yes, yes," he whispered as they shared the secret. "Let's go so she doesn't see!"

He was resourceful, that she would give him. All relied on Mamaa not finding the letter and discovering their plans. Taking Pierre's hand, she pushed the door open and listened before tugging him downstairs. Peeking into the room where their mother had last been, she found her still sitting there, sneaking past the door she went to the place she had been sitting last and glanced to Pierre as she picked up a book. "go to the door, Pierre, Mamaa will not."

Following Suzannie, he felt very adult and very important. Right now, she could ask him to scratch her back and he would. Seeing his sister take her seat, he smiled and nodded, giving an agreeable sign. Moving over to the door, he opened it and that is when his smile vanished. As quickly as the door swung inward, he took to shutting it tight again. Sir Andrew! "Nobodies there!" he called and pressed his back to the door. Would this Englishman just go away?

She couldn't see him, but heard the door shut immediately after being opened. Leaning forward in her chair she could see him in the hall. "What? But someone was." She got up and walked into the hall. "Are you sure no one was there, maybe they left a package or something." She said moving towards the door to check.

Moving immediately in her path, he waved his hands about. "No! No one Suzannie! It was nobody!" He tried to stop her, but she was bigger.

Moving one step she reached past him and unlatched the door. Why was he not even letting her check if there was no one... "Sir Andrew!" She said in surprise seeing him on the other side of the door, turning her head she cast an evil glare at Pierre. "What a surprise." he didn't look well at all. "Are you feeling well this afternoon? I do hope you have improved."

Drew's head pounded and throbbed, but all that mattered at the moment was seeing Suzanne. "I-uh, s-somewhat." He said softly, too weak and tired to really argue. "I see I've come at a bad time. Perhaps I'd better go and come back later..."

"Not at all, please, come inside and sit for a moment. You have come all this way at least stop for a moment before heading home." She still felt guilty for leaving him alone at the ball when he was ill, but what was she to have done?

Drew nodded, before following Suzanne into the house. As awful as he felt, just being near her made him feel a tad bit better. "A-all right, if it's not an inconvenience or anything.." His head hung and he wasn't sure how he was supposed to act around her anymore. Did she or did she not want to be with him? Only time would tell..." A wave of sickness washed over him and he ignored it. "Sus, I-I'm sorry- about last night...I had to say something, I...feel…awful…bout ruining your evening..."

She lowered her eyes feeling horribly guilty for harboring such evil thoughts. "It is I who must apologize. I should not have left you alone when you were ill. I had good intentions to find someone to help..." never the less she had gotten distracted.

Seeing that Suzanne went right back into her old path of things, Pierre huffed his disappointment and turned heading to his room. "Stupid English!" he said sort of loudly. Not really loud enough for them to hear, but secretly he hoped they could. Sir Andrew Ffoulkes here to stay. It was inevitable. This man was everywhere! If he wasn't such a loser, Pierre would have thought him the screwball Englishman named after an ugly plant.

Andrew looked up in surprise...he hadn't come here to make Suzanne feel guilty when he had been the one who had deserted HER first. "No need to feel bad, Suzanne. I guess I deserved it." He should never have come to her home. Stupid English indeed! "I messed everything up last night." His head pounded from the hangover and he simply wanted to pass out. Yes, fainting sounded rather good at the moment...

She would almost swear that he was paling more before her eyes. "Why don't you sit down, Sir Andrew. Would you like some water?"

"Merci beaucoup, mademoiselle." Andrew said in a shaken voice, feeling like he was going to collapse at any time now. Though he would have sooner have had the wine...sitting down, Andrew lay his head down in his lap, moaning slightly. He sincerely hoped that it was the hangover and not another flu bug.

Nodding slowly, Suzanne looked back once as she went over to the next room towards the kitchen. "Pierre?" She called softly. Where was he when she wanted him. She had seen him walk off when she let Andrew in, but she hadn't heard the door close. "Pierre?" Softly she knocked at the door. "Petit frère? Please, I need to talk to you."

Sir Andrew! Ugh! Now Suzannie wished him to emerge from the hiding place he took to. Not very dignified, for he went around the corner and hid behind a long drape near the window. He had planted himself there to try and listen in on his sister. With a bit of a gulp, he shifted his feet and tried not to make a sound.

No Pierre? With a soft sigh of uncertainty, she looked back to the doorway then went into the kitchen and fetched that glass of water for Sir Andrew. Stopping once more in the hall she looked about then went back to the room with Sir Andrew. "Here you are." She took the glass over to him setting it on the table before him. Then calmly she sat down in a nearby chair.

His eyes widened and threatened to tear up. No! He couldn't! He just wouldn't! Clamping his teeth on his tongue, Pierre concentrated and shut his eyes.

There was no way in his young little life that he was going to open his eyes and let out...

"Ahhh-CHOO!"

Her head snapped up, "Excuse me." she whispered standing and moving almost silently back into the hall. Looking in both directions she could still she the ruffling of the curtains to the one side so she walked that direction and stood there for a moment before pulling the heavy fabric aside. She realized why he was hiding and wanted to scold him, but glad to see him none the less she hugged him and pressed her face against his shoulder.

Pierre heard the soft footfalls of his sister's shoes approach. Unsure of what to do, for the thought of suddenly bolting crossed his mind, he remained where he was, fidgeting.

When Suzannie whipped back the drape, he looked at her as if he had been caught sneaking in sweets prior to the dinner bell. His mother scolded him for that, and now he expected his sister to be tenfold angrier for his eavesdropping.

Instead, she confused him and offered an embrace. Pierre returned it gently, still waiting for the blow to fall.

"Oh, Pierre, I am so confused." She admitted to him. She longed to ask for advise, yet what did he know of matters of the heart? Of course, depending on his mood he may turn everything around on her. Softly she sighed and still held onto him.

Alas, the phrase the Englishman was the answer he feared to escape from her vocals and hearing the desperation in Suzannie's voice made him ask it anyway. "What is wrong my sweet Suzannie?"

Knowing his feelings towards Andrew, she knew any thing he said would reflect that, but who else could she go to. "He apologized, I didn't think he would. Now I don't know what to do. I thought I could just let his disappear. I cannot."

With a large out take of breath, the little brother sighed. Unable to contain it any longer, he angrily asked, "Why do you like this useless man so much?!"

The anger in his voice made her gasp in breath to keep from tearing up. But he was right, wasn't he. What did she like? "He was so sweet in Paris, he seemed to care so much about what I thought. No one had every paid attention to me like that before. He even wrote to me after he left for England. It's just, things seem so different now that I'm here." She sank slowly to the ground wrapping her arms around herself. "Did I do something to make him change how he felt?"

Wanting his own way, cruelly, Pierre answered, "You are boring to him now. You came over to his country and the excitement is gone." He heard that line in a play once. Maybe Suz would buy it.

It only took long enough for the words to register for the tears begin to roll down her cheeks. She then crawled behind the curtain to hide.

She bought it all right. For a moment, he almost felt bad for saying it. "Suz..." he said and hugged her, joining his sister away from the world and within the drape. Should he calm her? "Suz? It maybe isn't that bad."

"No, no." she cried. He had to have been right, she just was too available now, he couldn't go home and leave her there now. Burying her face against his shoulder she cried. "I guess I just can't hold his attention." She whimpered.

Good. The Englishman was through. "I guess not." He added and hugged her, resting his head in the crook of her arm. Pierre couldn't' wait to see what happened next.

Her crying increased. There was no hope. She got up and glanced back towards the doorway where Andrew was. She wanted to go in, ask him for herself. Taking steps that direction she let out a muffled cry and ran down the hall the other direction before shutting herself in her room leaving Pierre to handle Sir Andrew.

One small child had never had such evil thoughts in protection of his sister. Boldly, Pierre moved into the other room, sensing his chance and taking it. "Sir Andrew?" He asked quietly, "I need to ask you to leave now. Suzanne is very upset at your behavior lately and asks that you never come call on her again."

Andrew sat up with a start, half expecting to see Suzanne standing there, but instead? He saw Pierre. Ask him to...leave...? Hadn't he just apologized? Andrew was very much in love with Suzanne, which is why he had been so confused. And hurt, when she had kept leaving him stranded the night before. "All right, fine. J-just grant me one last thing...tell her that I...love her." Then he stalked out of the house, tears burning in his eyes. He got halfway home, before he had to stop along side of the road where he simply sobbed. This simply was not fair. He could be dead and she wouldn't care...

"Sure." his voice used as much sincerety as possible, which wasn't much. He would pass a message along for this moron. One that would finalize his fate. Pierre held their door open, and locked it prompty once Sir Andrew left.

Proud of himself, he wandered around and then decided enough time passed for him to deliver the 'message'.

"Suzannie?" He asked quietly as he stood near her door. "Can I come in?"

Sitting at her window she had watched him walk away. Wasn't that what she had wanted? Of course not. She jumped up and started for the door. She would go after him. She stopped short when she heard her brother's voice. Moving to the window she looked back to the door. "It is not locked. You may come in." She had to force her voice not to tremble as she looked back out the window so Pierre would not see the tears that still streamed down her face.

"He left a message. Said he's fine with what you ask. What he wanted anyway." Pierre didn't know if Sir Andrew would sound like that, but Suzanne would believe him.

She nodded slowly but didn't turn towards him. Lifting her hand she wiped the tears from her face then turned to Pierre. "Well, we had best get that letter off." she whispered getting up and removing the things from on top of it. "Sign it and we can take it down to the post and see it gets there soon."

Quickly he moved over and signed the letter to Mattheui. Hugging his sister he laughed, "Things will be all better once Poppa is home."

Poppa always made things right. Waiting for the letter to dry, she then folded it and copied the address neatly on the outside before handing it to Pierre to hold until they got there. Picking up her shawl Suzanne took Pierre's hand and started for the door so they could make this bold step towards finding their father together.

Putting on his coat, Pierre held Suzannie's hand. By now, Andrew would be well on his way home. With a smile, he gave a bit of a skip. It was going to turn out to be a good day.

Walking with her head slightly down, she followed her brother to the post. They would mail the letter and they would finally get to help Poppa. That was the only reason she smiled. She was doing something for Poppa. Waiting in line she looked down to Pierre as they reached the counter. "We would like this sent to France, as quickly as possible."

Once the letter was passed on and the two renounced Aristocrats left the building, Pierre tagged his sister. "What do you want to do now? Want to play?"

"Play?" she asked a bit surprised. "Play what?" she needed to do anything to get her mind off Andrew. Yet all she wished to do was curl up in bed and wait for Poppa to come home.

He looked around. There wasn't much to do in England. "Maybe go on a boat ride?"

She shook her head. "I've had enough boat rides. Maybe we can just go to the park?"

"Feed the ducks?" He liked ducks. The noises they made were funny.

"Yes, ducks." She gave a soft laugh. "Let me see if I have enough change so we can get some bread." Suzanne pulled out her small change purse that she had brought to pay to send the letter and then pulled out a few coins and gave them to Pierre. "There is a bakery right there, go ahead and see if you can get some of their day old goods." she said motioning towards the building.

Immediately he made a face. Having to actually *look* to see if you had enough money was humiliating. Worse was asking for spoiled food. He refused to do it. "Maybe we can only watch the ducks."

She took the money back. "If you feel like that we can just go home."

"No." He argued back. "I just want to watch them now. Okay?"

"No, it is not." She fired back. "We are going home because I said it was time. You do not wish to feed the ducks we do not need to stay." She folded her arms and started walking down the street towards their small apartment.

Catching up to her, he grabbed for her hand and tried to undo her fingers wrapped around the money. "Fine! I want to stay! I want to feed the ducks!"

Pierre began to cry louder, making a scene.

Stopping she pulled her hand away. "Poppa would be so proud, wouldn't he?" she asked, then shook her head disappointed in his behavior as she started down the street again.

"I'm not the one being a lover to some Englishman, am I? I've been doing actions to free him!" He shouted at the top of his lungs.

She flinched, pausing her steps. "All you are doing is acting like a spoilt child." She didn't turn around but she had stopped her walking.

Moving slowly near, he took her hand and whimpered, "Can we please go feed the ducks Suzannie?"

Looking down, her face softened from the frown she had been holding. the trail of a single tear evident on her cheek. "You must promise me never to speak like that of Sir Andrew and I again. And believe me, I want Poppa as much as you do."

He could never quite promise that, so he gave a quick nod of his head and squeezed her hand. Pierre hated the Englishmen, so it would have to do.

With a sigh she accepted his answer and keeping his hand in hers she walked with him into the bakery and bought two rolls. Holding the small paper bag they had been wrapped she looked through the park for the ducks. He wished to feed the ducks, they could stay for a while longer and do so.

Sitting at a bench near the quacking birds, Suzanne handed her brother the rolls so he could have his fun.

Taking the rolls, the brown sad eyes gazed up at his sister. "Aren't we doing this together Suzannie?" His soft voice hoped.

"I thought you were angry with me..." she said looking to him. Neither of them needed more sadness. "Yes, we can do this together." She said standing to go with him towards the ducks.

"I thought you were angry with me." In truth, Pierre could not remember how the argument started. Usually, all it took was the mention of the English to set him off, but he did not think on that part with specifics. Taking her hand, he set off and soon he was breaking off bread, and tossing them in the pond.

Closing his eyes, he listened to the happy beckonings from the birds. "I can almost pretend we are back home, in our own yard!" he exclaimed with excitement.

She smiled happily taking the smaller roll and breaking it slower so she could feed the ducks but that there would still be some left when he had finished. "When Madame Burke would bake fresh bread and the ducks would come right up to the house. And Poppa would laugh when they chased you." Those were the happy memories, but at least they had them.

Refusing to open his eyes and end the wish, he laughed. "Yes!" he cried out, "And Mamaa would move over and dangle bread by Poppa's feet and then all the ducks would come and I would toss the bread at his feet." Snapping open his eyes, his hand flew out and threw the bread at Suzannie. Pierre laughed, "And YOUR feet!"

Letting out a squeal she jumped back as the ducks came waddling towards her. Laughing she kept backing up as they continued towards her. Those birds must not have had very big brains because they still believed the food to be on her shoes when it was now on the ground. Still laughing she ran around and hid behind Pierre. "You are so horrible." She laughed

"No!" He squealed. You are bringing them to me!" He turned and ripped up all of this bread, throwing it and tossing it as his friend. His sister.

Laughter increasing, she moved away her legs moving her over the rough grassy ground. Tearing pieces from the roll she threw it at him trying to get the ducks to follow him. "that is the point!" she called out> Waving a piece of the roll in front of the ducks she ran to Pierre and stuck it in the small loop in the back of his jacket watching the ducks run towards him for it.

He had nothing left and laughed so hard his sides hurt. Falling on his knees, the ducks quacked and pecked at his sides and legs. Unable to free the bread from his pants, for he was crying in joy now, Pierre breathlessly begged Suzannie to help him.

The ground was covered with bread crumbs from their tossing before and she gathered some up in her hands and waved it before those orange-brown bills before tossing it to one side, distracting enough of them to get her little brother out of the mess she had put him into. Wrapping her arms around him she handed him the piece of bread she had stuck on him. A bright smile covering her face, cheeks flushed from the running. "You are very lucky, my brother, what would you do with out me?" she asked tickling him.

"I don't know" he said in-between the laughter. How silly was it? "Death by Duck!"

Giggling, she took a collapsing seat on the lush grass. "Deceased by geese" She picked up another crumb of bread and tossed it at him just to have something to throw.

He laughed at his sister. "Silly Suzannie" he giggled. Taking the last of the bread, he tore it up and tossed it above his head, as he spun in circles. When he near dizzied himself, Pierre moved over by her and sat, resting his head on her chest. It was a good afternoon.

With a laugh, she placed an arm around his shoulder as he sat there soon her gaze turned to the small pond and of course Andrew came back to her mind to the day they had met in France. She frowned for a moment then brightened trying to place that away to the back of her mind. "What should we do now?" she asked, hoping he had another idea.

He shrugged. They mailed the letter. They played for a bit. Pierre knew they didn't have money to rent a boat or a carriage or even a horse. "Pick flowers for Mamaa?" He offered.

She frowned. That didn't seem the least bit exciting. "That would be nice, I'm sure she would like it. But I do not see any flowers around here." Suzanne looked about "Mamaa will notice we are gone soon, so we cannot stay out much longer." She reminded him.

Nodding, there was nothing else to do. Taking her hand he retained the fun feeling Suzannie and he shared. "Let us go home then."

It did not seem so bad now, going home. Releasing Pierre's hand she gave a laugh "Race you to the park edge." For a young boy such as Pierre it would not seem strange, but to see a young woman running along through a park, but Suzanne did not care.

"I'll beat you!" he hollered, instantly taking on the challenge. Puffing his chest and running as hard as he could, Pierre grew quite serious and ran.

Keeping up well, Suzanne began to tire and fell behind. Reaching the edge of the park she leaned her head against his shoulder catching her breath. "You did beat me." she said with a tired laugh. Straightening she took his hand "I think we can walk the rest of the way."

"I did! Didn't I!" He was glad she took his hand and gladly walked with her. All the way home he was happy. Little did Pierre know what Englishman would await them.

With their hands swinging between them, Suzanne kept a smile on her face, no longer finding it a fight to be happy. As the two approached the house something sticking out from the side caught her eyes. With the beginnings of a curious frown she released Pierre's hand and stepped around the corner. Taking cautious steps she leaned over to see who was sleeping there. "Sir Andrew!" She gasped. Kneeling down after the initial shock she shook his shoulders.

He froze. No. It couldn't be. That stupid, ugly, smelly, tall, broken minded Englishman! But it was him, for his sister called his name out again.

"Sir Andrew? Is everything alright?" her voice filled with concern.

Andrew had been so sound asleep that he almost hadn't heard Suzanne approaching him...not that he cared. When he finally came around long enough to see who it was, his eyes flew open and tears burned in his eyes. "No, everything ISN'T all right." He clutched the note. "Read this...then decide for yourself if it is all right or not."

He was young, but not mindless like most Englishmen. Pierre remembered a play he participated in when he was a small boy. He played the part of a elf. Quiet. Little lines to memorize and he was only on stage for a moment. The reason this memory came to mind was simple and Pierre obeyed the command he recalled the child's director giving him: Exit Stage Right.

He turned and fled.

Confused as to why he would have come back, the sudden remembrance of why she had though never to see him again resurfaced in her mind. He had said he didn't wish to see her, she knew why he wrote this note. It was only to strike at her in a means more solid then a voice. Lifting the note from his hand, she moved to the front steps and sat there, unsure of what to do. It was a letter telling her never to see him again, she was sure, and she didn't wish to open it. Looking back to him once, her trembling hands finally broke the seal and opened the letter.

My Dear Suzanne:

I do hope that Pierre has given you the message by now. I know how you must despise me...but I just wanted you to know that I DO love you and hope that you find it in your heart to forgive me. I've never been in love before and if you don't love me? If this is what love is meant to be? Then I hope to God that I never fall in love again. Hopefully you'll find somebody else whose worthy of your affections. I love you....even if you don't feel the same. Right now, I'm at the lowest low and couldn't possibly get any lower. Take care.
Love,
Sir Andrew George Ffoulkes

As the letter first began she was ready to drop it and run, it was as she thought, but she read further to torture herself with this knowledge, soon the frown softened and she held her fingers to her lips. He had changed his mind? He loved her? It was all something foreign her, the idea of love. Not able to speak she sat there, unmoving staring down at the letter.

Andrew sat frozen in place on the ground. Suzanne didn't love him. He knew it. "When I came to your house earlier, I had come to apologize. I told Pierre to tell you that I loved you and he said that you no longer wished to see me." He hung his head. "Perhaps I ought to go now..."

The frown returned. "Pierre said what?" She asked in astonishment. "How... that is what he told me you had said."

He was watching them from afar, hidden in the bushes. They spoke. They talked. A letter was exchanged and the little brother knew: The gig was up.

"Pierre said that you didn't wish to see me any longer." He said softly. "I didn't say any thing of the sort. I felt horrible for my attitude last night, and wished to make it up to you." He blushed and stared at the ground. "But I got the picture that you didn't want to see me anymore, so I wanted you to at least know how I really felt." He sighed helplessly, prepared to get slapped across the face. "I couldn't let you go. Not without my saying anything."

"But I did not want you to go, do you not see? I did not tell Pierre to send you away. " Suzanne raised her heart shaped face up trying to find some sort of look in his eyes, something to say he believed her. "I nearly died when he told me you did not wish to see me again. That you never felt anything for me."

Anger filled up inside of him...that...little....clenching his fist, Andrew looked to the ground, feeling horribly ashamed of himself. "Of course I feel something for you!" Drew blurted out, so not used to blurting out his emotions. "How come do you think I got myself drunk last night when I thought you didn't want me around. You kept disappearing...it seems like everybody disappears on me." He was gasping for breath now, thinking about his life as a child...his crazed mother...."My father was often cold towards me as a child and my mother- my OWN MOTHER- tried to kill me." He gulped. "It was I who died inside. For I've really never known love. Until now..." He cupped her chin into his hands, drew back and kissed her.

Her eyes closed as his lips brushed hers in a tender sweeping motion. Opening her eyes Suzanne found his face still so close to hers. Very slowly she took his hand that held her chin and lightly pressed her own against his palm. The smaller slender fingers looked near dwarf like against his hand, and she smiled. "Today has been very strange." She admitted softly, beckoning him to sit beside her on the steps. "You must forgive me for saying so, but I am thankful this happened." She turned her face to his in slow fluid movement. "Now I know how you do feel, and no one can convince me otherwise."

Drew gulped, never before had he been this close to a woman before. "Now that you know how I feel, have I permission to hurt your brother?" He joked, leaning into kiss her again. He had never kissed anybody before...and his eyes closed, savoring the feeling. Shaking slightly, Andrew forced himself to pull away and drew her into his arms. "I love you, Suzanne de Tournay....I love you very, very much."

The words came and she smiled. Still the little voice of danger whispered to her. It was not right for her to sit out on her front steps like this. Love or not she could not bring anyone to speak badly of her family. "Will you come to see me tomorrow?" she asked hopefully.

"Of course I will...you need to ask?" He grinned over at her. "Perhaps we could do something.....go into town and eat lunch?" It was a lame suggestion, but it was all he could think of at the moment.

"We can do that." She said with a nod. Slowly she got up and stood beside him her hand still tightly woven with his. "Around two?" Suzanne blushed and gave a smile, "if that works for you of course."

Drew nodded and found himself shaking. "That should work just fine...I don't have any plans tomorrow that I know of." He said softly, looking deeply into her eyes, wondering what on earth she was going to tell her brother.

"I should go inside, Mamaa will be looking for me, and she knows Pierre has returned." Suzanne gave a soft sigh. "but I will see you tomorrow. Have a pleasant ride home, Sir Andrew." She gently squeezed his hand then released it walking around him up the steps to the door.

"Thank you, mademoiselle.." He said softly, watching her wistfully as she walked up the steps and into her home. Andrew didn't WANT to leave, but he had to pry himself from those steps sooner or later. "Aurivoir..." He said softly, turning to leave for his own home. For a quiet evening of reading and resting.

The moment she stepped into the house she felt like lunging for her brother's throat. That is if he could be found. Slowly she composed herself and sat down in a chair in the front room, picking up her sewing and began to work on it.

Standing amongst the bushes, he had watched it all. Quiet he was and even when they kissed, as much as it illed him, quiet he remained. Pierre watched them exchange more words and though normally he would be angry at Suzanne, knowing he was probably in trouble kept his anger in check. Fear took its place. She was not going to be happy about this and Pierre decided it best to not show his face about.

For now, the safest place was to be as far away from them as possible. Even as the night grew, Pierre busied himself by keeping away from the Inn.

Hours passed and it was time to retire to bed. She had not seen nor heard anything from Pierre since they had returned from the park. Long ago her anger had melted into resentment, but still her love for her brother remained the strongest. That love made her fear for his safety. Against her mother's wishes, Suzanne pulled a heavy shawl around her shoulders and went outside. "Pierre?" Her voice called out in the still night. All was quiet. With no guides and no clues, Suzanne began to walk, calling out his name every few feet.

He heard her, and was not about to answer. Pierre feared a beating. Not that his sister had ever done so, nor any member in his family, but his deceit had planted in his mind the worse possible fear. A beating, thrashing, yelling... none would be out of place for what he did. Not being the smartest boy and certainly mostly hot headed, Pierre stepped on a twig that gave a loud >SNAP<. Instantly he froze and held his breath, watching Suzanne from only a few yards away.

The noise triggered in her mind a presence. Who else but Pierre would be out this time of night all alone and hiding. She decided to put out of mind any other types and focused on it being her brother. "Pierre? Mama and I are worried about you. You did not come in for supper, please. Come home?" She stood there for a while. Listening to the deafening silence. "Pierre, I am not angry with you any longer. No I am not happy with what you had done." she admitted openly. "But I cannot forgive you until you will talk to me about it. Please, Pierre?" She listened again and took blind steps in the direction the movement had come from earlier.

He saw her coming and she knew. He failed being quiet. Retreating a few steps, he called out, "You promise you aren't angry?"

Stopping where she was, his voice confirmed that she had gone the right direction. "I promise, I am not angry. I was, I had been very angry, but not any longer."

"Okay" he spoke very weakly and took a few steps forward into the lights, so she could see him.

As Pierre came into view, Suzanne walked towards him pulling him into a hug. She did not think she would ever understand why he had done what he had, but having him safe was more important. "Come home?" She asked softly "Mamaa is worried about you."

Weakly returning the hug, for how could his sister just forgive him so easily like that after what he had done, Pierre felt sick to his stomach. Maybe he was just hungry but he said nothing. Taking her hand, he nodded and hoped he wouldn't be punished by Mamaa.

As they walked back she continually looked down at her brother. As they entered the house she finally spoke again. "I would like it if we could talk later." She was not requesting his permission, demanding it.

Standing there, wondering when the blow would fall, Pierre nodded his head slowly and nibbled on his fingernails. Not saying a word.

Moving away from him, she went to the window seat where her sewing was and curled up comfortably. she sat there for a moment then looked over to Pierre. "You are afraid to talk to me now, aren't you?" She asked studying his face.

"No." He lied. He did not really move around, for it sounded like Mamaa was still up. Quietly he moved over to where the pressed apple juice jug was kept. Taking a drink from it, he looked around and wondered if Mamaa had gone to bed or was worried for him.

She heard his soft footsteps move away. Seeing his gaze wandering she looked back to her sewing. "I told Mamaa that I knew where you were. She still worried but consented to go to bed. I doubt she even got into bed until she heard us come in." Suzanne never lifted her eyes from her sewing, waiting for him to come to her to talk.

"Alright." It was the only reply he gave. He knew she wished to 'talk to him later' and as far as he was concerned, next week, next month or next year was equally as satisfying. Moreso.

She grew frustrated, he would not come over on his own. "Pierre, please come sit down." She said pointing to a chair near her.

He reluctantly obeyed and sat. Staring at his shoes, he said nothing and did not look up at his sister. She said she would not be angry, but he did not believe it.

"Can I just ask you why you would lie? You saw how it hurt me." Suzanne held her sewing in her lap watching him as he looked everywhere but at her.

The young boy did not move and did not answer. He hurt his sister and despite his best efforts to remain still, found himself trembling. Silent tears streamed down his little cheeks as he looked down further, so his hair would cover his face and she could not see.

Despite his efforts to hide away, Suzanne saw his shoulders moving and it took most of her strength not to reach out and hold him. "I'm very disappointed, I thought you had grown more then that. To see other's hurt because of a grudge against someone else." Her fingers clutched her ball of string as she looked away. "But it has been cleared now, and the truth has been revealed. The truth normally has a way of coming out. Remember that."

His shoulders began to shake as he silently sobbed. Large, flowing tears fell and stained his shirt but he said nothing. All he could do was nod his head, shamed.

Watching him tore at her heart and she could no longer sit there near him and not comfort him.

"I am going to go to bed now. Mamaa had dinner left out for you. It should be in the oven." Suzanne stood and looked down at him then went to her knees beside him wrapping her arms around him. "I love you Pierre, I may not always understand you, but I still love you my little brother.

"I'm sorry Suzanne!" he blurted and bawled as he hugged her back. He was so confused now. Why had he done this to her? Because he hated the Englishman. Why did he hate him so much? He was taking his sister away. He didn't save his father. He was English and an aristocrat and didn't have to live in fear.

Pierre could say no more and only bawled until his sides hurt.

Holding her brother tightly, tears trickled down her own cheeks for her father. Wondering how he would have handled a situation like this. Slowly she pulled back and wiped her face.

"Get some rest, Mamaa need never know of all this." She said before kissing his cheek in a sisterly fashion.

He wiped at his face and nodded. "I sorry Suzannie... I'm sorry..." he kept crying as he walked away towards his bedroom. Guilt finally setting in.

Watching him go, Suzanne turned and blew out the lantern that had kept the room blanketed in a warm yellow light, and now darkness descended.

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