| Slow Learner |
| I guess I should have noticed it back in 1999. You asked me to appear in the videos for "I Drive Myself Crazy" and "Thinking Of You". I had never found silk pajamas sexy until you stepped onto the set. I knew that I wanted you to myself, and I asked you out shortly after the wrap. You turned me down, saying something about not wanting to ruin our friendship. How was I supposed to know that you were already dating another friend- and one of your bandmates, even? Or maybe I should have noticed when you invted me to Hawaii for New Year's. I figured you had changed your mind about having a relationship with me. Instead, I rang in 2000 with Danielle. She really is a great person, and I was pleased to see that she and Lance were back together- or so I thought, until she told me she only came as a friend. After that I was regularly invited to attend awards shows, parties, and concerts with you. All the fans assumed we were a couple. By my definition, a couple isn't afraid to show their affection in public. They go out to dinner, to the movies, spend quality time with each other. They show each other love. If that's the case, we were far from being a couple. I finally got fed up with it at the VMAs, and confronted you at one of the after parties. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* "JC?" I asked, pulling you away from a conversation with Fred Durst. "We need to talk." "Now?" you started complaining. "I'm kind of in the middle of something." "Of what, a discussion on what you killed to make that jacket? I want to talk about us." You looked around nervously. "Us?" "Yes, JC, us. How come you never show any affection for me? I mean, Justin and Britney showed more love than we do, and they can't even admit they're together! We, on the other hand, have been *dating* for nine months, and we haven't done much more than kissing." "Bobbie, listen to me. I love you a lot. For the last six years you've been an older sister to me.And I don't want to ruin what we have." I was confused. "Then why the hell have I been with you for that long if that's how you feel?" You hesitated for a minute, glancing at the crowds of people all over the room. "Be...because I'm dating someone else." "What?? How could you do this to me, Josh? Do you have any respect for my feelings?" "Hold on, Bobbie, let me explain. This person means everything in the world to me. They have everything that I look for inside, and more. I'm afraid that if I tell the world I'm in love with them, *NSYNC will be over and all respect for us will be thrown away." "Fine," I said furiously. "Who's the lucky bitch?" You looked down at your feet and whispered the word I least expected to hear. "Lance." ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* How did I not see that the entire time? You two always had your arms around each other, eyes glued to each other, some people would say you're siamese twins. And some people would walk away from the role I've been playing for you. But not me. I love you, Joshua Scott Chasez. Even if I lost this game. Next time, however, I'll try harder to win. You said no but my heart heard yes I couldn't face the truth so I kept on lyin' I love you but you don't love me I couldn't deal with that so I kept on tryin' There's no denyin' that I'm a... Slow learner, can't seem to get it through my head Must be a slow learner, I still ain't got it yet I drew a blank on the first time A little fuzzy on the second time I got a clue on the third time Now I'm slowly learning You ain't ever gonna love me Never any good at chemistry That's why it's hard for me to see we ain't got none You don't want me, I'm a cryin' mess And I'd listen to my common sense if I had some But I'm too in love, hey, I'm a... Slow learner, can't seem to get it thorugh my head Must be a slow learner, I still ain't got it yet I drew a blank on the first time A little fuzzy on the second time I got a clue on the third time Now I'm slowly learning You ain't ever gonna love me Slow learner, can't seem to get it through my head Must be a slow learner, I still ain't got it yet I drew a blank on the first time A little fuzzy on the second time I got a clue on the third time Now I'm slowly learning You ain't ever gonna love me Yeah I'm very slowly learning You ain't ever gonna love me (Slow Learner, Meredith Edwards) Back |