© Alicia, July 12, 2001
I feel so betrayed
Every day hope leaks away
I'm not allowed to depend on people in my life
Yet I let these hurts slip away
How can I dare expect them to
Save me when I try to fly
Give me a reason to try in the first place
I swear these things don't mean they don't care
I don't ask for support
I know they're there but
Not for the asking
When I plead I go too far
I'm the only one who sees me
Reason enough to let it slide
All these things they should do
All the these things they never do
All the time I let pass by
All the times I don't cry
All the times I don't beg
All the times I don't get in the way
All the times I knew I couldn't do it by myself
meant I had to give it up
I couldn't ask, you didn't offer
You didn't see, I hide everything
So in the end I betray myself
I never ask for help
And no one stops to wonder about me
I don't give it voice but in my head's a wish
For you to save me
Won't you save me from me
Save me from hiding,
Tell me I can hope for great things for me
I don't want to have to depend on only me
I want to ask for help
But you might desert me
Why must I be everything to me?
Sometimes things are just bizarre. Hollie wrote a poem called Save Me right around the time I wrote this one.
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