i am my lost innocence
© Alicia January 6, 2002

I am the one who was immodest
I am still playing outside
I am walking with dogs on the golf course
I am the girl who didn't know her mother's name

I am eating applesauce and peaches
I am running for no good reason
I am taking pictures of nothing
I am going to bed at 9 at night

I am able to be excited
I am trying to be interesting
I am forced to get clean
I am pleased by little things

I am singing in my own concerts
I am playing with dolls
I am riding a bicycle
I am sleeping on rollaway beds

I am wearing white shorts to a horse barn
I am writing my thoughts as they come to me
I am trying to be a good girl
I am painting by numbers at every chance

I am talking with my father
I am inviting friends over to play
I am going swimming without worry
I am putting my brother back to sleep

I am in a race to put on my pajamas
I am reading every night
I am imagining always
I am trying things when they come to me

I am smiling for the camera
I am unaware of my disfunctions
I am unused to my own sarcasm
I am not putting up a fight


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