Kansas State of Mind
© Alicia, 8/4/02

It's way past midnight
and I'm feeling pretty creative
There's a blur in reality
I don't actually hate it

I stopped to look in the mirror today
Colors flashed and flared around my face
Til all I could see was a different place
It seems I'm not quite who I am

All we want is to blend on in
Til we find our own way to be different
Once we've found a hiding place
We can end up stuck there forever

I'm the girl who wants to drag race
or if you want I like the silence
No I'm the girl who doesn't remember
If her likes are her own inventions

Sometimes other people notice things I don't
Parts of me not well-enough hidden
I want to know myself better than they can
But I've made myself into someone I don't know.


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