Liar

© Alicia February 4, 2002

I lied to you
I didn't tell you I would be honest
I didn't tell you I would not tell a lie
But somehow you thought I was close to perfect
You kept comparing me to people you thought you knew
You thought I was doing things more right

I never told you I knew all the answers
But somehow you thought I did
I told you I was never arrogant
You believed every thing I said

You discovered I acted differently than I thought
I told you I was worth being around
You found it wasn't always that fun
You've told me since that I had my problem years
We weren't always working together

I don't even know myself
Neither do you
I haven't shown anyone else who I really am
or even who I thought I was

When I lie to myself
It's easy to deny
I define myself
It's hard to be suspicious

Now I admit I'm paranoid
I'm a known liar
I even repeat myself
Every time I try to be honest with you
You tell me you can't believe it until I show it to you
Are we ever the same from the outside in?
Will you ever trust me again?


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