Mike,
I want you to know how much I appreciate you being my friend. I remember when we first started talking, it wasn't very much. Usually just a simple "hello" and "how are ya?" Then we started to talk more and more, and you became very dear to me. You knew how to always make me smile or laugh. You understood me more than anyone ever has. You were always there when I needed someone to talk to, or even to tell me how stupid I was when I would hurt myself or put myself down. Having you be there for me, made me feel special and wanted, more than many of my other friends did. You were my first real, true friend. You helped me out so much, but right now I wish I could help you. I feel really helpless and just unsure of what to do. I know that you may go off and be in a better land where you can always be happy, and you don't have to worry about the problems and obstacles here on earth. You mean so much to me. I know that for now I may be sad that you're leaving me, in human form, but I know that you'll always be with me, in my heart, in my soul, and in my mind. I loved it, when I would be talking to you and I wasn't happy, and you would ask me what there is that you could do to make me smile, and all I had to say was talk to me. You knew what I meant, and you would talk to me and I would hear your voice and all my problems seemed to just disappear for good. I loved hearing your voice, so calming and reassuring. I wish there was a way, that I could tape your voice, and play it over whenever I missed you. Yet I also wish there was a way that I could be there with you when you take your last breath. I want to sit by your side, to hold you in my arms, just that one time. I wish I could go with you, and be with you through that one last step. I wrote that poem for you though, and I hope you like it. I'm really going to miss you. I guess in a way, I'll still be able to talk to you and have you hear me. I won't be able to hear you back, but I know you'll be there. I just want you to know, that I care about you so much, and you mean to world to me. You have been the greatest friend to me, and I'm going to miss our chats. I could write so much to you right now, but it's so hard to do, just knowing that you'll be gone, and I have no idea when. Just remember that when the day comes, that I die as well, I'm going to find you. And I'm going to give you the biggest hug in the entire world, like I wish I could do right now. I won't say goodbye, cuz I know I will see you again. I will be thinking about you always. I love you Mike. ~Jenny~ |
