Part Thirty-two;
*One Million Mistakes*

         Paato Seruteitsuu;
         *Hyakuman no machigai*

Do you know what it's like to feel your mind suddenly just slip away from you?

Some rational part of me that remains knows that feeling. It's not a gradual thing. It's like one minute you're standing there, a part of your life, and the next... you're not. You're an observer. A part of the dimly obscured background; standing in the wings as your life still going on is enveloped in yellow light.

It's hard. Difficult. I don't know how else to explain.

Do you know?

In French, my name means the number four. To Oz that was all I was. Just a number. Gundam Zero-Four. Did you know French is also the origin for the term coup d'état? As I watch the living dream my life has become, I realize that I am performing a coup d'état on my life. I have become the other number designated by Oz to my existence: Zero.

Zero choices.

Zero regrets.

Zero future.

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[Kowai yo. ^^ It's another short-but-sweet chapter. See you in 33. ^_~]

[Written by Inseiko, 2001]

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