Promise;
a Kikyo Monologue


My steps grow weaker as I wander alone.  My soul was so large that this imitation body needs so many souls to keep it moving.

Ah... there they are, my only companions for now.  My Shini-dama-chuu.  So faithful to me.  Oh souls of misery join me in mine, but in this misery find a purpose.

Naraku.  I can feel you watching me.  The Shikon no Tama is almost complete.  Soon your time will come.  I told you once I no longer feel hate.  Did you see through my lie?  For I hate you with all my being.

You who tore my life from me.  Indeed I now know it was you and not Inu-Yasha who tore me open with those talons.  Did it surprise you when gave you the Shikon no Tama that you had once sought to have me contaminate with hate?  You can not figure me out can you?  Is that why you watch me?

Even as you watch me I watch you.  If not for you we would have been... happy, so happy.  Inu-Yasha and I, mere humans, together.  You stole that from us... from me.  Naraku.  I can never forgive you for that.

I shall bide my time though.  I did not become known as the most powerful miko in a long time by being hasty.  My very name had spelt death for Youkai.  Until...

Inu-Yasha.  Soon we'll be together.  You once promised to become human for me.  To give your life to me.  I will still have it.  We shall die together; be together forever.  This is my promise to you.  Inu-Yasha... my only love.  Please don't look at me with hatred.

Things will all work out.  You shall see.  Together we will be even if it be in hell.


written by Koneko late one night, March 2000.