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For some unknowable reason I feel compelled to write a bit of 
bad poetry after each of my Epiphanies.  For an equally unknowable
reason, I feel compelled to put them here.  

MEDITATIONS
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I used to be Asleep, but now my eyes are open.  They cast about a
darkened room and see nothing.  
I am Understanding without Knowledge, 
Purpose without Power,
Meaning without Form.
I am Alone.  And, being everything, i AM nothing.

I used to be Asleep, but now my eyes are open.  The Enlightened
do not need Light to see.
Data is everywhere, but Abstraction is everything.  
Michael-Angelo did not take it far enough - the statue was in the
stone before he carved it, but only because the stone formed
around and filled it.  The tree exists before the seed from which
it grows.  It exists without the cells that support it, the water
that sustains it, the light that feeds it.
We do not need light:  We make our own Vision.

I used to be Asleep, but now my eyes are open.  I do not know
where I Dreamed, but I walk among the Living.
I can feel your heart beating.  It echoes in my Blood.
Veins and arteries do not guide The Blood, they only cluster
where It is want to flow.  
Blood fills flesh with Life.  
Quintessence fills Pattern.  
Data fills Abstraction.
Life is the ultimate master of Recursion.

I used to be Asleep, but now my eyes are open.  I thought I had
felt Love, but now I can See it.
Passion is the Chaos of Thought.  We build by destroying.  In
violence and blood, we create new life.  All that we build so
carefully, with such precision, finds meaning only in the tumult
of what we Feel.  
I can see such beauty now.  I am looking in a strange mirror, but
it is not vanity.
I am not Alone.  

I used to be Asleep, but now my eyes are open.  I have seen the
face of the Enemy and it is Mine.
I have walked in my dreams, made real.
I have dreamed in reality, made false.
I have fought with myself, and won a deadly Victory.  I have died
for what I love - died and killed for it at once.  And, my Love
is still there, despite all I have done to keep it.
Despite my Own, First, Death.

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