05/21/97:

At the urging of my friends, I start again. I simply have not had the heart to continue since what seems so long ago. Very soon I will continue my quest, but I must feel 'right' about it, I must be prepared, I know that this is not platime, but a very serious venture. It can not be entered into lightly. At least not by me.
Several friends, Zeppi, Laverne, Yaana, and Stardancer have been trying to help me prepare for this journey. But I think I have found a key to my puzzel. Quite simply, it is I who must prepare, and start this journey, no one can do it for me. Some of those listed above have gracefully offered to help me in this task.
I yearn to begin, in fact, I am practically beside myself with energy, and frustration that I am yet not ready to begin.
This is a most taxing and trying time in my life. And I would not trade it for anything!