01/12/97
This is an effort to put into words, 'feelings', that I felt during the latest session that ufobabe and I conducted on 01/10/1997 from about noon till 3 pm of so. I am really not sure how long we chatted.Unfortunately I did not think of down loading any of the script in time to capture all of it, so I am unable to recall some of the event.
I remember at the start of our session, we thought that it might not work at all, due to the lack of spontanaity, and just about called it off in frustration, but when we started on the subject of UFO's building and plain, things picked up, Boy did they!
On of the first impressions I remember was that it was increadable cold, there was no wind, and it was deathly silent. When I first looked at the scene in my mind, I picked up the impression of extreem age, no agelesness!, this has been this way for a very lone time. I remember aproaching the building. When I came near it, I started esperiencing a feeling of discord running through my body, and it seemed that the temperature in this room (RT), was plumiting. As I got to the base of the building, I reached out, to touch the wall. By this time I was wishing that I had dressed warmer, as I was now experiencing wave after wave of chills, not the ones I usually get, but bone numbing chills. (Writing this has triggered my bodys memory of the event, and I am once again very cold).
I have the impression that the plain around the building is dry, barren, sterile and terrible bone chillingly cold. There is no plant growth, only a thick covering of dark dust. the dust is heavy, when walking it compresses only slightly, leaving shallow prints, Ours are the only prints I see. Its like the building is not on earth, perhaps the moon? It seems out of scale,, very small at the base relative to its height. And tall, about half as tall as the Space needle in Seattle, however tall that is. Sorry for those of you who have not seen it, but its the best I can do on relative terms. The building seems to be tapered slightly toward the top, but due the the scale, I am not sure about that. My impression is that the building has more then 4 sides, the corners do not feel like 90degrees.
While standing near the wall, I felt rather then saw a depression in the wall, located about 6' another possible indiction of the size of the beings that built and used this place. from the ground, just within reach. When I placed my hand in the depression, there was a lot of room left, as if it had been ment for a hand much larger then my own. By this time I was wanting to be anywhere but here! The feelings I was experiencing were so intense, and I was so very cold, all I wanted to do was to curl up in as small a space as possible in an effort not to be noticed. It was difficult for me to stay in the session. I was so afraid!By this time during the session, I was starting to have a terrible headache, above my right eye, felt like a nail being driven through me. Pain terrible. By this time, I was short of breath, very chilled, and my pulse was at 78 bpm, up from 60 bpm.
The significance of this change is that I am on beta blockers for a medical condition, to maintain heart rate, and for my pulse to reach 78 bpm, I have to be doing something akin to running a 2 min. mile! Ufobabe was kind enough to remind me to breath about now..
I notice that a portion of the wall is gone now, allowing me to enter once again. It is very dark within as last time I was here. I still have a feeling that I should be anywhere but here, I want to leave, run, fly anything I can do to put distance between the building and myself. As I move further into the building this feeling fades, leaving a memory of it, like a warning.
Could this have been a field,, low frequency sound, a screen of some sort, defence from intruders? Breathing is easier, pulse down to 72 bpm. A statement I made during the session comes to mind now:Sorry had to collect self,, compose,, solidify,, I wondered at the time about the term "solidify", and still am wondering, ufobabe noted it as well. She made a comment saying that words used not an accident. By this time, I was tired beyond belief, and almost glad that ufobabe said that she had to leave. Before leaving, she advised me that I should try to keep these experiences to something like Watching a Movie, don't participate. Would that she had told me this earlier!
Regardless to the discomfort I have felt during these sessions, it is my wish to continue. I have much to learn, and ufobabe seems a good teacher, I hope she doesn't mind.
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