may 22 2006
different
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i am different
call it any malfunction yu like to give yourself an excuse not to bother with me
to cover up the sheer real reason for your quick exit is yu cannot use me
and yu cannot adapt to me
-it will only give me less junk from yu to have to deal with anyway
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i am different
i am not insane, insanity is without reason
others act without reason or the only reasoning they use is will it give them some sorta personal benefiht
i use the reasoning beyond my lyfe sphere
i kinsider the environment and the lives of others involved, and my future older selfs health
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it is true sometimes i am not changing in aktions, yet i am still kinsidering the rite akts that i want to fufill and let me tell yu i am trying to change even when yu may not be able to tell
i worry about the effects of my aktions yet often because of lack of interezt my aktions do not change
i mostly lack interezt because noone else akts as i
i lose interezt because they strike me with the smack of self abzortion, the whut's in it for me broadcast that streams from their aktions
and i cannot raise a hy enouf value level for others to stir me into some pashion filled frenzy of kreation