this is a free nation
anybody is free to try to use you and/ or corruhpt you
i used to struggle to find somebody who was different
i only want a friend, for i am choozing a path of obstanance so that i might know true greatness
yet i am convinced they are such rare commodity that i will find none so i am wresting with users and corruhptors
and solitary hermitism
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it is tragic that i find i cannot believe that my friends are my friends
it is tragic that i find that caring for some is protecting somebody they need to utilize
if i care about you
i will risk anything for you
so then i am risking loss
i find none willing to lose any thing for me
when i would risk losing anything for them
instead they covet anything they can grab
so when i am dead what have i protected
what did i covet
something no man could grab
friendship
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at not being able to have this
i find myself debating and sometymes doing things that are out of character
yet az many tymez az i have debated i just cannot con myself into choozing a path of immorallity
though i surmise that if i am to gain anything in this world somebody must lose it and spiders never care about their victums nor conquerors the conquered
i really though dont care for conquest
it just becomes thee only other option available
i find myself finding it difficult to care about anybody with much depth
i find myself not wanting to bond with anybody new
they are scrutinized with suspician
and who wants to live like that
i gaze as thee woman jaunts by and i understand how man could easily want to use and conquer and control
yet i also am confused at th same tyme how somebody could treat them with such dispasion when they are such beautifful beasts
especially when they come foreward with sadness they had cauzed them
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male is th creator ov woman and man
i am th feminine ov man
so i find it curious why male treats female with such brutality and separateness
if man wants to know woman
would he not simply have to know himself
whereas i woman
must struggle to know man
am i really so different though
if i try to emulate man
if i take similar routes
wont i eventually understand and become like man
if i was in fact bore from man
would i not also have some nature ov him