Hey, I know I haven't updated in awhile, well, I'm at colleg now and stuff is crazy
But I don't think anyone even reads this or anything...so blah..well...
I'm at college having fun being on my own and rebelling...
Things are different and everything's going kinda slow
This past weekend, a lot of kids went home and some are even talking about transferring already
I don't think things are that bad...it's only been a week, and it always takes a long time to make friends w/people.
Plus, being in a new place, we don't all know what there is to do
and I honestly think I'd feel the same way if I was at another school.
I'm having fun, and things can only get more exciting.
I have to write my autobiography for American Studies, so maybe if I have time I'll post the chapters here...

ps..I've turned into such a klepto..college does wierd things to people.

Today was my last day of highschool ever!!! I have no exams so I'm through...
I'm just gonna be chillin' till graduation on Saturday.
Hmmm, I haven't updated this section in awhile.
Hmmmcoolstuff..Well there was prom, parties, senior skip day etc last weekend, but the coolest thing of all was:
Blink 182!!
I got to see Aztektrip!, FenixTx, Bad Religion (who kicked ass), and Blink!.
It was so Fahkn awesome.
I can't wait till NO Doubt/Lit..only problem is I haven't gotten my freshman orientation stuff yet and it might be that weekend...grrrr.let's hope not.
So hooray life is dandy...and now..
A thought on High school:

High school should be a time to grow, change and find ourselves, instead it is four wasted years of everyone trying to morph into someone they're not all in an effort to be cooler than the next person.
Don't get me wrong, I've had some really good times in highschool, but I honestly feel that most of the time I spent there was wasted associating w/fake people who didn't have the balls to say to your face what they thought of you
Everyone was obsessed with climbing the social ladder
And that's normal behavior...I guess people try to either climb it or reject it and ostracize it
and sure I've been guilty of keeping my true feelings inside and just coasting through remaining neutral
But I was sincerely sickened today by the fact that after four years there are certain individuals who couldn't take the time to be sincere with those around them.
Sorry I"m so fahkn disillusioned.
there's nothing i can do about it though, it's just the way I feel.

Well on the happy notes, I've made a decision as to where I'm going to college.
I will be attending Providence College in Rhode Island next fall.
Anyway, I was looking through the news at all the different stories about Columbine, since it is the one year anniversary and all, I must say that I am honestly disgusted with all of the people who are choosing to sue the school, the sheriff's department and other families because of this tragedy. It seems as if everyone is pointing fingers and trying to place blame, yet no person seems to quite get that this tragedy is the fault of no one but the two gunmen who made the conscience decision to kill and terrorise their classmates and teachers.
Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris wanted to do something that would haunt their victims forever--they've won. All the anger and hostility, along with all of the blame throwing is keeping their memories alive, while the victims themselves are forgotten.
I don't know what it feels like to be the parent or friend of one of the Columbine victims, but I do know what it is like to lose someone you love, it's important to remember their life, and their memory. Anger is just a way of covering hurt.
If I had the chance to speak to anyone who has been affected by Columbine I would tell them to let their hurt out,but to turn it into something positive-a way to remember the good times,
not as a way to give in to the two individuals who caused this horrible affair. Anger turned Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris into killers
Let it not do the same to those whose lives they've hurt.

So here's my latest beef
Everytime I get on the internet and surf around I see all these people who have personal websites where they bitch and moan about no one accepting them,
and they go on long rants about tolerance and love and being open minded
yet then have tons of things where they describe how they hate Christians and Christianity.
Ok, does anyone beside me find this just a little bit hypocritical?
How can anyone make a statement so broad?
I'm Christian, and I'm not a white-supremacist, homophobic, rich, preppy antisemite.
And I take great offense to know that people hate me b/c of the faith I was raised w/.
I know the church hasn't always made the right decisions, and I myself am even disgusted w/certain members of the community,
but the basic message is love and tolerance, some just can't see that.
I've gone to church w/blue hair, one of my closest friends is gay, I have lots of friends of different ethnicities, sexual habits and preferences and I'm Christian.  
Just because I believe in something doesn't mean that I'm going to judge and condemn you to hell.
That's not my job
But seriously, re-evaluate how you feel and what you say if you are one of these anti-christians.
Don't be hypocritical and make statements that you preach against.

Anyway in my wonderful life of extreme highs and lows that occur for no reason, I can say that I actually am feeling, dare I use the word, Happy at the moment.
Currently, there is enough going right in my world to keep me happy and smiley for a long time. My current cause for smiling is an oh so fabbish, cute person who shall remain nameless because I'm sure they don't want their name plastered all over the net.
So, I will leave you with this: When you've hit your lowest point just remember, there's nowhere to go but up, and in my case that has definetly happened.

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