I have a dream, between the fake and reality,
I have lost my heart there...

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One night, I dreamt... Still, inside that darkest blankness.
I found myself trying to fumble awkwardly, trying to find the light.
but... there's no one. I was scared... by this empty nothing.


Once, the softly shining light shone at on side of my dream.
I began to walk to that bright blue light, almost ran to it...
Its light was soft, caressed me gently.
So I wasn't scared, saved by that soft blue light.


In the core of the light, there was a butterfly, a blue butterfly...
Its wings were blue of the sky, which I've sought all my life.
I dared not to touch it. It looked so fragile, too fragile to be touched.
Afraid if it'd be faded just before me.

But it... fluttered its wings towards me.
Flying around me, like it teased me playfully.
I was covered by the tender blue light,
Felt saved and warm, inside this little creature's protection.

As I dared to touch it, before I reached out my hand to it...
Softly, it faded away...
Left me in that empty darkness again.
I started to fumble again. So scared I was...

I woke up, wondered what happened inside my dream...?

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Again, I found myself inside that darkness...
There was nothing around here just as the same.
But me, wasn't scared as before.
As if I knew someone would come to save me...

And as my wish, the blue light appeared again.
This time, it floated towards me slowly.
Then I found it shining softly in front of me,
Wrapped me by its tender light and warmth.
The blue butterfly flew to me,
its wings touched my face, like the soft kiss it gave.
I was saved by it, not lost to that illusory dream.

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When I was in my dream again, I found other creatures.
They were little creatures as my little blue butterfly.
Butterflies... in gold, in red.. and... in purple...

That purple butterfly flew to me,
kept surrounding me like it loved to go nowhere.
I felt like I found heavenly feeling of being saved.
They all saved me, kept me alive within my empty dream...

I couldn't remember how long I had been surrounded by these fragile butterflies...
Couldn't remember how many night I had been lost and saved in my dreams...

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Until, the final breaking night... All lights have gone.
There was nothing inside my dream...
So scared I was... as the same.

I woke up, returned to the reality.

Once, I found myself singing in front of the band...
I sang my songs while they all were playing their instruments.
But something was missed, things which always saved me.

I looked back at them. Their features were blank, the expression of puppets.
I found myself hurt... irretrievable pain here, inside my heart.

So I walked away from my pain.
Once again, I looked back at my little beautiful blue butterfly.
I realized that I had fallen in love with a elegant lapis statue.
It was a pain...

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Last night, I dreamt again...
That softly shining blue light floated away from me.
Afar, it never came nearer me again.
I looked for another creature... that purple butterfly.

But, the purple butterfly was nowhere.
It has gone forever...

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Morning, I found myself lying alone on my bed.
I am here, away from my pain,

but why...
These tears inside my eyes......?


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