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[maybe I can't write it everyday, but I'll write it every time when I find something special in my typical days. Several feelings can't be expressed just by poems, that's why I'm writing here.]

   sunny day : cheerful mood rainy day : depressed mood
   cloudy day : quite good mood thundered day : bad mood! 

  23-10-00 : Pretty fine today. ^___^ Well, yesterday I read an article in a beauty magazine, it's about 'find & hide happiness' I think it's such an interesting article. It makes me know that we can find happiness everytime and everywhere. Just feel it, quite optimistic way. Oh, 'Through a rosy glasses' s'th. LOL Anyhow, it's such a good thing to learn, isn't it?  

  22-10-00 : well, I rarely touch this webpage recently. #^_^# Now I'm taking some tutorial lessons & hang around almost everyday. but well, I admit that's just my sound-like logical reason. The truth is... I almost lose my interest in this webpage. Five months for existing is not such a long time for any site. But it's such a long time for me who can get bored easily. ^^;; Anyhow, I think I still wanna maintain it as long as I could, maybe until I gotta take those horrible preparation for the uni' entrance. ^^  

  07-10-00 : hmm... why do I have to get hurt by the same person repeatedly? *sighs*  Maybe I shouldn't cared for the one whom never cares me. Well, s'times I wonder why human have to be social creature. If only we were not we are, things might be better. There's no easy way to carry on my days, hmm?

  05-10-00 : Woo~ So long leaving this diary ne~ ^^;;  Feel so vacant in this vacation, but... hmm... well, not vacant totally. I got a lot to do but I still keep sitting here. LOL Anyhow, I hope to finish updating this webpage in this short vacation soon. 'coz next week I gotta take tutorial lessons. haha, life is tough.  

  26-09-00 : Hi!!! *waves* Finally I come back. *grins* Even if this last exam wasn't very good, but somehow, I managed myself to get through it. *sighs* But I bet the result won't be great. Well, so today is the first day of my vacation. But hmm... I feel like too free and have nothing to do... haha, I can see the boredom is greeting me. LMHO

   

  15-09-00 : My God, desperately tired all week. ^^;; At first, I though I'd be dead. *sigh* Well, plus my sleeping time all week, I'm sure it isn't much more than 10 hrs. *laugh torturedly* Well, next week is my final exam, I'm not sure if I can survive to maintain this webpage. LMHO Anyhow, I'll be back soon. 

   

  09-09-00 : Today I went to meet a pal from Japan. The one who recorded MARS live VDO for my another pal & me. ^^ She's so kind. Well, but our different accent was troublesome sometimes. ^^;; Anyhow, this is a good sign, maybe when I'm free from my studying I'll go to Japan, her place ne~ Of course, I'll go with my pal then we'll see Gackt's live if we've a chance. Well, will we?

   

  08-09-00 : I got terrible allergic tonight. Maybe 'coz of those shrimps. *sigh*  I'm sort of easily allergic one, so I must be very careful for everything I touch, I eat. Esp. what I eat, I can be dead from it's poison. Anyhow, s'th is beyond my mind & my control so I got allergic again & again. I've ever come to see Doctor several times, but they couldn't help me much, but got me injection. Anyhow, the medicine will work out around two hours later. So well, do you think it can help me from those torturing lament? Well, tomorrow I'm going to meet a pal from Japan, we'll have dinner together too. ^^ She's the one who recorded MARS live VDO for me & my another pal. So kind she is...! Hope everything will be fine tomorrow. Tomorrow never dies, right? lol

   

  07-09-00 : Really tired ne~! I don't know how exhausted I have been. *sigh* Now the final exam is coming, so all homeworks & reports come rushing all the time. Last night I slept around three in the morning to finish my Bio' work. Anyhow, it's still not finished, so I gotta continue it this morning. Haha, that caused me to go to school late today. I went to school at noon. What a naughty student I am! lol And then I took the Chemical Formative. Well, it's kinda tough & hard to understand & get the nice score. ^^;; Somehow, I think I'm quite satisfied for what I get. 

   

  31-08-00 : Kinda bored today. Chemical Lab made me dizzy. ^^;; I almost missed my lunch for it, lol Anyhow, I still think these Labs esp. Chemical one are funny & interesting to deal with. Even if sometimes it's too much specific  detail. But well, I don't like Biological Lab 'coz we always have to have those terrific operations. Operate this, operate that. Kinda cruel sometimes. ^^;;

   

  24-08-00 : hehe, at first I'd like to stay home then finish my homework & so on stuffs, esp. MARS live report, but my chemical teacher's command was just out of the blue, so tomorrow I gotta go to school with all classmates to provide chemical lab'. ^^;; Well, I've a plan to hang around & seeing movie this Sat', then how about the works? When should I deal with it ne~? lol

   

  20-08-00 : Today I was busy all day long. ^^;; 'Coz of tons of those burning reports, lol I wonder why on earth I didn't finish it before it'd burn me. And I tried to continue MARS live report, and hey, good news! I finished half of it. ^^ *proudly grin*

   

  18-08-00 : Well, at the moment I'm trying to finish live report as I ever said. ^^ Last Thursday I took two tests, very impressive tests. Definitely, the circumstance effected me a lot. I couldn't concentrate 'coz of the surroundings, so poor me ne~ Sometimes, you might find that you can't force yourself to do unwilling thing somehow, me too. ^^;;

   

  13-08-00 : I found that there's a great error inside gallery page. Wonder why all images can't show. ^^;; Well, I'll fix it ne~ Yesterday I've received a flower from my dearest one. ^__^ It just feels so right. Well, giving anyone a present, I think surprise can make a big impression after all.

   

  05-08-00 : I think I've heard this phrase from s'one whom I already forgot, sorry ^^;; but the profound meaning of it still remains inside my mind, he said, "Nothing to be shame, but shame for thing should not be shame" S'times, various words or quote from the others who surround me might effect me a lot. I guess this is the complexment of social creature, human race. lol

   

  03-08-00 : hmm.. sometimes being humankind is really hard to deal with. I found myself several times couldn't understand what which surrounds me. so I didn't know how to manage it, so it gets chance to torture me. Well, or is this one more step for being human? What is it for??? Several people say I'm too emotional, too sensitive. Yesterday I laugh but today I shed my tear. but well, I have no idea if I can really change this point, so that's it. I get hurt.

   

  28-07-00 : Yeah! Finally I can make the 2nd page as my thought! ^^  it has to take a few minutes to d/l, but u see, it's worthy, isn't it? Thank you to Javascript web site who helped me to make my dream complete. lol but well, due to my school works [exactly, it's just my excuse ^^;;] those translations & live report & interview haven't been finished yet. hehe~  bye!

   

  21-07-00 : Oh, well, I'm so bored now. ^^;; just have no idea about what's next in this HM. haha~ Lyric things depends on my pal, the translator then I'm a bit too lazy to write Gackt's live report right now. :P B'coz I'm so absorbed in graphic things! lol Then my pal suggested that I should make free banner stuffs. I mean I'll add none-article banners in some page in this HP for other HM to take it. ^^ The first: I'll have thing to do when I'm bored, the second: nothing, but for Gackt-sama. lol hmm... maybe before I finish live report, I'll add my other fics into inspiration. [one is in progress] Well, just wanna do it before my studying will be hard again. -_-

   

  14-07-00 : Dizzy, dizzy... maybe I'm lacking of sleep now. So low-blood-pressure is coming!  Ahhh... I should have cared for my health much more, right? and then... I didn't know Japanese Channel, the great website about J-rock, returned again, until I found s'one's message about this. ^^ I'm so glad seeing it return again. P' Pam always does her best for her web site. Just hope there's no the same problem occurring to her web site again. ^^;; and well, I'm going to have Gackt's live VDO in my BD in hand in a few days, can't be waiting.... >_< Gackt, Gackt... Really wanna see the way u danced & acted on the stage. [wonder if there was 'fanservice' in that live too 0.o]    

   

  12-07-00 : Yeah!!!!  Finally my exam was finished. ^^ Just like lifting the mountian out from my chest. Then I will work hard for this webpage... Just hope all that I expect to be finished before my school will start again. Next Monday I'm planning to go to the beach with my classmates. [Leo's beach ^o^] Just hope there'll be no accident and it must be fun!  lol  From this last exam, I think I need to concentrate in what I do much more. ^^;;

   

  06-07-00 : Well, guess what's the most precious present I got in this year? ^^ It's a mail from Gackt!!! Oh mine, it made me happy all night long. I've ever sent him several mails which I didn't really expect him to reply. But anyhow, it's not very private one, but that's enough to cheer a girl's heart up. And from this, I'm very happy to know that Gackt DOES really read every fanmails & replies some. So there's not wonder why his fans so faithful in their God named Gackt, lol. I'm so glad too that it made me realise that I've not loved the supple statue but the real person who cares for his fans. ^^ Thank God I found him, am I supposed to say this? lol

   

  03-07-00 :  Ahhh~ Tomorrow is gonna be Gackt's BD.. ^^ Well, just wonder if he will do anything special ne~ hmm... well, seeing nightview? dating with pretty girls? or sleep all day long?, lol I myself just hope this year would be his great year in life. Succeed & succeed & succeed, lol... Oh well, some of my pals gave me 'moonstone necklet' as for BD gift, I DO like it. ^^ hmm. but this sort of things, the gift, not depend on its value or s'th, but on each other's feeling, right?   

   

  02-07-00 :  Oh, well, now I've a bad cold completely. *sigh* Yesterday was just my BD then God rewarded me by this??? lol Yesterday when I had my tutorial lesson, I was absent-minded almost all the time. I just thought about what I wanna do about this web page. So you see, it's changed alot. Just hope the visitors like it. hmm... I think sometimes I'm too into graphic thing, but it can't help. I just wanna do it when I still have chance. But anyhow, I'd like to hear the other's comment so that I can improve it ne~ ^^ Tomorrow gotta take Chem' & French test, Tuesday-Eng' & Maths. Just hope my guardian angel'll be  always beside me. lol   

   

  19-06-00 :  Sometimes, you can't deny what you feel. Even if you've tried to encourage yourself but indeed, you can't! Well, I myself am quite sensitive, I guess. So I easily get hurt by anyone's unintentional movement. Even if sometimes, it's no one's fault, but it hurts me. But hey!, can anyone hold back the days? Can you regain the same precious feeling when you lost it completely? I don't think anyone on earth can... so... I hurt by this. Sometimes, I felt like I've been a fool, why did I have to absorb in the one who keeps hurting me? Am I stupid? I guess yes, I am... 

   

  18-06-00 :  Al last, my modem went wrong. It has permanent problem, so I gotta bought the new one, maybe I'll change PC too. But it depends on my dad. ['coz its' his money, lol ^^;;] Well, some of Gackt's live reports make me wanna see his live desperately. I'll be free in the last term of high school, so I'll prepare the good plan for that half year spare time. ^o^ Hope Gackt'll manage his lives that time too. Well, at least, now I wanna see his Live VDO, it must be funny!!! but... urr.. maybe various things could be beyond my imagination.... *starts to laugh hysterically* Next week I gotta take several tests, just hope I can do well all. *God bless me*... -_-;;   Oh, well, have u guys seen 'It's gonna be me' of N'SYNC yet? They all are cute! ^^ See it lah~.  

   

  16-06-00 :  At last, today I & all classmates didn't take my chemiscal test I. -_-'' Personally, I'd like to finish this test as soon as possible. Well, if the teacher changes the date that mean I have to re-do all my effort, need to read all books again. *sigh* But many I'll be more ready at that time. This afternoon I went to see 'Final Destination' with my classmates. And hey, it was really GREAT!!! I'd not expected it too high, just thought of as the common triller film, but it was beyond that point. I wanna tell you that if you have chance to see, just go to see it ne~. I'm sure it won't disappoint you. Well, then you know, no one can cheat the death... lol BTW, Euro matches were beyond my imagination too. haha..   

   

  13-06-00 :  Well, at last I couldn't update this web page as my wish. I'm taking the exam in this Thursday, also Chemistry test I in Friday. Well, it's quite tough for me now. I've been not very fine since last week. I found out that everytime I was mentally ill, my health went hell too.. hmm.. make me think of this phrase, 'the sound mind in the sound body'. *sigh* Me, kinda not very healthy person, I guess.   

   

  08-06-00 :  Well, today I had 3 chemical labs. And it made me know the fightening matter much more. I touched H2O2 6 % unintentionally and just minutes later I felt my fingers hurt. Well, it's sorta acid and I was about to cry in fear. My skin in fingers area turned into shade of white, thank God that it's just a small area where I touched it. So about an hour ago, my skin returned into its normal shade and I didn't hurt somehow. Even if it's not such a very dangerous aqueous, but from this experience, there's one more lesson for me. I have to be more aware in next time I have experiment such as this. Sometimes I'm too careless person, I know... -_-''  

   

  07-06-00 :  I'm a bit surprized now that why I chose to study in science field. Well, somethings about it I don't like. Recently, I & my classmates had to operate those little beings, they're all fishes. One of my pal operated a catfish, which had a very strong survival strenght. Even if my pal'd already operated it and supposed that it was dead, but it's still alive and writhed in pains sometimes. We all tried to think that it's just cell-jerk effect. But until now I still feel so bad. It should be dead since the start, so that we didn't have to operate it alive. hmm.. I think sometimes, human is such a cruel creation ne~, I guess.       

   

  06-06-00 :  Well, today I'm not very well. A bit of tired and dizzy all the day. Maybe becoz I'm lacking of sleep.  Oh, and maybe 'coz of the pouring rain too. So tomorrow I don't think I'll go to school. I'll stay at home and clear all those waiting homeworks & reports. Fighto, fighto!!! [sorta try to encourage myself]^^''  Oh, well... I start to fall for Westlife's songs. Their songs are beautiful! [esp. 'We are one'] I love the song just by this phrase; 'music first, then lyric next'... Some I like 'coz their melodies, some I like 'coz their lyrics and some I like it all, both melodies & lyrics.   

   

  04-06-00 :  Well, at last, my bio' project is about to start. I'm a bit tired now. Tons of homeworks, lots of things gotta go, makes me feel sick since the morning. In addition, my poor internet connection cheats me since yesterday, so I could upload this web page awkwardly. Just hope things didn't go wrong. Tomorrow gotta make 3 chemistry Labs. Wonder if I can finish them in the period... ^^

   

  02-06-00 :  Today I went to see WARLOCK III with my classmates. hmm.. any comment for that movie? Well, it's really boring!!! What a horror film! lol, it made my classmates sleep in the cinema when they saw it. Is has a very simple plot, not interesting, also not scary. I really regret that why we didn't see Gladiator instead which I've heard that it's really cool one! But anyhow, we all just wanted to celebrate for winning of school erection. So the most important thing was making ourselves enjoy with the [silly] programme, not the movie ne~.  For me, I love horror film, I've seen several horror films. But the only one which can scare and drive me to tear is 'The Sixth Sense' [even if many people say it sucks! ^^'' personal right ne~] I cried 'coz of fear in the very first night after seeing it. hmm... Do you think that child is resemble to Gackt? I mean in their both psychic abilities. ^^  

 

 

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