7-14-98: Stuff

Today, I was planning on going over to a friend's house. I was supposed to call about it, but I didn't. I didn't feel like talking to a friend. I didn't feel like seeing a friend. So I didn't call.

It's mean I know, but right now, all I can think about is how much for the better it is because I don't really care if I visit anybody. How am I supposed to think a visit would be a worthy cause if I don't care?

So instead, I've been thinking about what I'm going to have a career as when I grow up. I can't choose, so maybe I'll double major or double minor(is this possible?). I think about what my future will be like, and if I'll meet & marry a great guy that I adore. I think about what it's like to be in love. How does it feel? It's at these times I listen to some Matchbox 20, and get lost in my thoughts & the music. I keep on playing "Long Day." It just compliments my mood. Their album didn't get great reviews, but I feel like I can relate to the songs, and that's why I love the band so much. Also, Rob Thomas's voice just pulls me into those pools of emotion. His voice is so raw, so real.....Don't think I'm going through a Matchbox 20 obsession. I've already been through it, but that's good because after, I appreciate the songs even better. For instance, that Semisonic craze is starting to fade, so my infatuations become less apparant, & I my vision focus better.

Alright, enough of this entry.

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