inner strength's June Ruminations
June 1999 June 2000
Marriage is an institutional entity I have little use for. Oh, it comes in handy for the reason marriage was created in the first place by the State--to guarantee heritage and inheritance of children. Other than that, it has little meaning to me except stressful times of forced togetherness for the sake of the betrothed.
Two individuals joining as one. This concept usually ends up with, instead of two strong, bright, capable people working together as a team for the better of the whole as their new family, becoming one semi alright person as the ONE. Families then tend to get caught up in their own little worlds of work, buying houses, having children, bills, 401-K plans, that they forget the greater good in the Universe.
Dinner together at the table to learn of other's lives is replaced by fast food drive bys with each person in his/her own car speeding for a "goal".
The "goal" lies within us all. Simple. We are the products of our labor. We labor in the rat race, we become rats. We labor in the beauty of Nature, we become naturally beautiful.
Graduations are similar. Students feverishly racing to obtain the great lambskin. What a wasteful sacrifice! Lambs are the symbol of peace. What peace lies ahead for those who chase after the magical job which pays top dollar? Lambs are for loving and nurturing. Take the lambskin, be proud of accomplishments during school, and nurture the true accomplishment behind the Lamb--relationships gained during school. Education can never be taken away, this is true. However, later on in life, if relationships are not nurtured, then the lambskin on the wall will be only a cold, lonely bedfellow.
This month my whole life took a 180 degree turn for the best! I got a dream job as director of a human service agency in my favorite spot on earth, the Blue Ridge mountains of North Carolina, USA. Ever since I was a child, I wanted to live there full time. With each vacation over the years, it was harder to return home for I always felt the mountains were my "home".
I never before now had the courage to move out this far on my own. Although I am very professionally accomplished, the little girl/child in me kept hearing those naysayer voices of "You won't ever make anything out of yourself" and "Why do you want to do that?" I am through with trying to please others because I have come to learn that those who are hardest to please, will never be. I must be true to myself first and live my own life.
The scared little girl in me is fastly transforming into the mature woman--the one who still occasionally loves to take off her shoes and go wading down by the creek:) Next month I will move and hopefully, finally come "home".
copyright 1999 by inner_strength.geo
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June brings to mind new beginnings and parting of old ways, ties, and relationships. We usually think of new beginnings at New Year's or the entry of Spring. However, it is a time also of many marriages and graduations--all of which result in leaving the old behind and starting a new beginning.
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