It didn't mean anything, did it?
I guess I had formulated one too many realities in my head.
I guess I just played the few good moments over and over one to many times.
If I didn't act idealistic I guess I could have seen it coming,
instead of planning situations in my mind.
I'm not mad or anything.
I'm not even that depressed.
I just thought that as little as we had could have become something much more.
I just relied on that thought to get me through.
It wasn't that great, but I had hoped it would be better.
I wish we could have talked.

10-3-98