Nothing But a Dream

Beauty found than lost in a blink
So close, yet so far away.
Fingertips touching but only just barely
Lightly grazing the skin.
An eternal gesture full of yearning
A burning need all consuming
Bereft of any understanding
Losing oneself in the unending battle
Wishing  that you could turn away
Praying that she wont
Hoping that he can’t
Knowing that your heart could be broken
Not able to stop or even hide it
Shocking isn’t it, how much you want this
Terrifying how deep you need his love
Petrifying to think she’s just playing a game
Loneliness swallowing your soul 
Darkness so deep and filled with despair, sucking you in.
Struggling with all our might to fend each other off
Trying to keep you at arms length one moment pure torment
Wanting to embrace you the next so tenderly
Not knowing which way to go, 
or even how things will fall
Just knowing it feels right, 
When we’re together, 
No more fight to be complete 
Finding a peace that is abounding
A love that is so dazzling it blinds me
Can we overcome our disjointed nightmares?
Clawing my way out, to the top.
Standing there bruised and shaking,
Wondering if this is it
Could I finally have a chance,
Or is this nothing but a dream?

7/21/98   NChantrss