Steppenwolf's past life feelings - Part 2

For years (since 10 or so) I was obsessed Germany and then especially wartime Germany and not really sure why on a conscious level. For ages I had a lot of emotional resonance but didn't have any real clues or memories.

Now I read years ago that Edgar Cayce said that you can narrow down your past life by analysing what events / people / places you get emotional feedback from. Recently I thought about this and my list of strongly positive emotional attachments from the past was

• Germany - pride, national feeling (from about 10 or 11 or so)
• Wehrmacht - military training, uniforms, boots, weapons etc (very strong)
• Plot to kill Hitler - strong empathy with conspirators (from teens)
• Operation Barbarossa - great interest from early/mid teens
• Luftwaffe aircraft
• Kübelwagens
• Some interest in the paras, not sure why
• Peoples and culture of Eastern Europe + Jewish culture

• Almost zero interest in the navy (Kriegsmarine)

And although I was unsure if I was a Nazi or not, when I analyse my emotions, it seems very unlikely:

• Nazi party - full of weirdos
• Hitler - no particular feelings
• Nazi racial theory - nonsensical
• anti-Jewish stuff - anger
• holocaust - rage!

Then in 2003 I found myself trawling around the webpage about the Hitler bomb plot (which I'd always been very interested in) and noticed after years and years that I still had a very strong emotional attachment to it. Now just around that time someone sent me a book showing the amazing physical resemblance between their current self and their past life self. This was a bit of a revelation as I didn't think people looked like their past life self at all, but I'm becoming more and more convinced now that some of your past life features must come through in some way. (Though it would be unlikely for you to look exactly the same.)

Seeing as the I was browsing through the http://www.joric.com website I noticed that they had a ton of photos of the people helping in the conspiracy. I looked along the faces and couldn't find anyone who looked very similar at all. I've always been quite fascinated with Stauffenberg too, so I did a few searches for pages about him and was stunned when I saw one photo of him. The weird thing is that I have been looking at photos from the war for years and never seen anyone who looked like me, and yet in this photo I could really see myself in there! There's a comparison I've shown a few people and it's the first two photos here. (Just a random photo I found taken from a similar angle, though I am squinting in the sun.)

Stranger still... when I spotted that resemblance, I searched the library and found a book on Stauffenberg to see if we had anything in common. I read it and was quite surprised by the similarities in our mannerisms and habits. I don't work or act like many other people and it was a bit of a revelation to read that he had the same idiosyncrasies.

At the same time I was complaining to a friend that I was not feeling very well for a few days and then a week later someone mentioned on a web forum that the anniversary of the bomb plot had just come around recently. I looked back at the dates : I'd gotten the book out on the 15th July, finished it on the 25th July and started feeling unusually nauseous for three days from the Monday morning - ie from the 21st onwards, or equating to the European night of the 20th onwards. Very odd that I should coincidentally happen to read the book EXACTLY centering around the anniversary (as I just hadn't noticed the date) but the strange illness added to the mix was really odd!

Anyway I've just been asking (asking Spirit Guides or whoever can help) for more help investigating my past life and for evidence that I was or wasn't Stauffenberg and have come across more and more Stauffenberg stuff.

The most singular coincidence is that I wear a gold ring on the middle finger of my left hand. Women often ask what it means and I just say I couldn't bear to have it resized. The story is that I'm not into jewellery, but when my girlfriend and I decided we loved each other, we gave each other a ring and the one she presented me was too large for my slender fourth finger and the only finger it fitted well was the middle finger of the left hand, where it has stayed. However it is a bit irritating to the finger so sometimes I occasionally cycle it around the index finger and the thumb on the left hand. The coincidence is that the middle finger of the left hand is where Stauffenberg ended up wearing his gold ring up until his death (because of his missing fingers due to war injuries). Also the fingers I cycle the ring around correspond to the remaining three fingers he had left up until his death.

Less exciting similarities:

• both very serious types of people yet people are often confused because we both like to laugh so much. (I take every chance at work to make jokes and get laughter going around the office.) Both our laughs have been described as "booming".
• both like to get to know every single person wherever we work, even the people with far "lower" jobs, eg cleaners etc.
• love of tobacco and alcohol (though I try to keep both under control)
• tendency towards sloppy dressing (both have been criticised for not caring too much). I have only picked my act up in the last year or so because I am self-employed now.
• strong interest in languages. Stauff learned English, French and a little Russian. I learned French and German and would like to know Russian as I only know a few words. (Very rare in my field of work.)
• strong interest in history and culture. (Rare in my field of work.)
• both have a tendency to show-off and love lecturing newcomers in our respective fields
• both equally interested in achieving in the real world and the mystical world.
• both good at analysis of systems and finding flaws overlooked by others in process (in our respective fields)
• both excelled in respective fields (I am team leader for quite a cutting edge government project)
• both impulsive and impatient for action
• both convinced of the power of prayer
• both suffered from serious throat infections in mid-twenties
• both acted in plays in our twenties
• both got together with respective life partners at 26 & keen on children
• both interested in music (he playing cello, me playing the piano) but both ultimately gave up
• both sceptical about the process of democracy
• both members of mystical groups
• I tend to vote Green, his manifesto mentioned a society in tune with nature
• both brought up Catholic (though probably not very significant)
• both right-handed
• I found a past-life Axis friend convinced our local university to study Stefan George - leader of Stauffenberg's mystical group. This is really a hell of a coincidence as George is simply unknown in this country.
• etc

Interesting that Stauff had his honeymoon in Italy - including Rome - as I had found Rome to be the most romantic of cities in Europe when we toured in '98. (Far more so than Paris.)

And in my teens I always assumed I'd join the armed forces until I looked at the reality of the situation in a modern world. (Not a great career in New Zealand.)

Just in the last week I found out recently that Stauffenberg had been referred to as "Stauff" and I had already been using that abbreviation myself as I couldn't be bother typing his whole name when mentioning this whole thing to people. (Not terribly significant though.)

Also when trying to do conscious regression, the name that came to mind was "Steiner". Was I really think of "Stauffenberg"? (I am no psychic!)

So in the end, the main thing is the physical resemblance, and then on top of that was find that I'd had my mind blown by reading the Stauffenberg book exactly five days either side of the anniversary of his death plus in addition feeling inexplicably nauseous for three days from the anniversary date itself. Especially as I just hadn't twigged that we were in the same month. Just so much of a coincidence. Then since then finding that not only did we kinda look alike, but we seem to have so many similar habits and in fact after a while I had to try finding ways in which we might be different, since we seemed to have so very much in common. And after all this time and reading two books about him, I still haven't found any place where I can see we really differed - which is odd as I have often been described as a bit of an eccentric as far as ideas and philosophy goes.

Thoughts about past life regression

The upcoming Hollywood movie!!!