Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely

Sung by: the backstreet boys

 

Author’s note: Okay, so don’t sue me if you don’t agree with Shaila and Graushaila as a couple…coz it’s just a product of my wild imagination. But don’t you think it’s worth it??? Anyway, read on…

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Show me the meaning of being lonely

Graushaila was shocked when he learned that his general is already dead. He didn’t know how to react with the dreadful news…

So many words for the broken heart

Its hard to see in a crimson love

So hard to breathe

Walk with me, and maybe…

He didn’t know if he wanted to cry or what, but all he knew was that he needed to avenge her, he needed to destroy the one who killed Shaila. He felt mad and disappointed at the same time, but the feeling that he hasn’t felt before sprung immediately into his mind; loneliness…

Nights of light so soon become

Wild and free I could feel the sun

Your every wish will be done

They tell me…

And he felt it when he remembered the times they shared together as master-minion. She was a great companion and a great minion, she understood his every feeling and everything there is to understand about him which no one could.

Show me the feeling of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with

Tell me why I can’t be there where you are?

There’s something missing in my heart…

He pounded on the arms of his chair, hating every memory she has left with him. “Damn it! Why did you leave me here!? Shaila!!!???” he yelled angrily, though he knew no one could hear him. The cold air of his base became colder after he yelled, as he began to recall the times when she told him to take it easy whenever he is pissed by something, say he lost in a lame battle or so…

Life goes on as it never ends

Eyes of stone observe the trends

They never say forever gaze

Guilty roads to an endless love…

He was trembling already. “Curse that bastard who killed her!!!” he whispered as he thought of the days to come. Who would try to defend him? Who would save his grace when he is being insulted? Who would catch him? “I can take care of myself but…but…” he thought. Sure, he is strong, but is he strong emotionally?..and Shaila was the only one there to make him understand his emotions?

There’s no control

Are you with me now

Your every wish will be done

They tell me…

He looked up, everything was spinning around him. He wanted to weep…

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with

Tell me why I can’t be there where you are

There’s something missing in my heart…

And so for the first time, he let his tears fall, wondering at first what they were, then realizing what they are when he recalled the time when Shaila cried for him.

There’s nowhere to run

I have no place to go

Surrender my heart, my body and soul

How can it be you’re asking me to feel

The things you never show…

He frowned, wanting to stop but he couldn’t. “Mazoku never cried…I shouldn’t be crying…only weak humans, gods and dragons cry…stop it, stop it!!! No!!!” he said aloud; but it only worsened it. No one was there to comfort him, only Shaila did so, because his priests and other minor minions never cared about him…only Shaila… “Why do I feel this way?” he asked himself.

You are missing in my heart

Tell me why I can’t be there where you are…

He then realized it was hard without her. “I will avenge you, Shaila…then maybe if I win, I’ll try to bring you back, if I lose, it would take time to heal myself…and it would take time to bring you back…but I swear I will try for you, Shaila…” he said softly, remembering her smiles and giggles. It made him smile slightly.

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with

Tell me why I can’t be there where you are

There’s something missing in my heart…

And he stood up, wiping his tears off his face, frowning, then walking out of the room, his evil grin visible again, but his eyes filled with hatred and sadness…

Show me the meaning of being lonely

Is this the feeling I need to walk with

Tell me why I can’t be there where you are

There’s something missing in my heart…

…and loneliness from the one he truly loved….

 

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