Existence
by Anat
DISCLAIMER: All the characters in this story belong to Joss Whedon, David Greenwalt, the WB, FOX, Kuzui Enterprises, Mutant Enemies and whoever else owns the copyrights. I'm merely using them for the fun of writing and reading, and because I MISS B/A DAMMIT!!!!!!
DEDICATION: To Michelle, Alex, Kim, Steph, Vivien and all the great true B/A shippers out there, keep the faith!
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This story is a sequel to my AtS FIC "The Chosen One" (can be found in http://www.crosswinds.net/~cookiesm/tco.html), and it's based on the lost but not forgotten "I Will Remember You", 3 years later.
Part Eighteen
Buffy stared at Angel, completely shocked.
She tried not to look at him she was angry.
“Buffy, I’m sorry, I know how you feel”, Angel said quietly, pacing towards her.
“Do you? I don’t remember anything! A whole 24 hours of my life! 24 hours I spent with you as human! That’s not fair!”
“Buffy, try to understand”, Angel spoke softly.
She closed her eyes. “Stop. I don’t want to hear. It didn’t exist”.
He looked at her, saddened.
They were both quiet for several moments.
“So, what does Michael have to do with this?” Buffy asked after a while, focusing on their problem. “I mean, if the day never existed how can Michael exist?”
Angel sighed. “The day existed. In another universe, parallel to this one”, he explained.
“What is it? ‘Sliders’?” Buffy huffed. “Go on”, she nodded.
“I stayed human, even though, as I said, it had me totally helpless and weak, and then Michael was born. According to the prophecy of Aslan, A child with the powers of the stars, angel of darkness and light”, Angel recited the first line of the prophecy.
Buffy looked at him.
“Michael has powers, because he’s the chosen one of his world. And demons were trying to get him. I was a weak human being, and though we were very happy”, he looked at the little smile she wore at the thought.
“I couldn’t help you fight. We were killed and Michael was kidnapped”.
“Oh God…” Buffy closed her eyes briefly.
Angel approached her and touched her face gently.
“You see why I had to turn back the time? Because more than anything, I want you to live. I couldn’t stand the thought of getting you killed. I want to protect you”, he said softly, close to her mouth.
“In case you forgot, I’m stronger than you”, Buffy reminded him. He sighed and stepped back, remembering that one time he raised his hand on her. “I’m sorry, here I am being so selfish, when you sacrificed your humanity for me”, Buffy apologized.
He was quiet. “The day existed, Buffy. It happened, the memory lives in me. I was never more happy in my life”, he told her.
“But is it worth it, Angel? Is it worth it to sacrifice all that for me?” she asked quietly.
“Nothing is worth more, if you’re not here to share it with me”.
Her eyes filled with tears. “I didn’t know… if I did everything could have been different…”
He reached out for her again and caressed her cheek softly, wiping her tears.
“Things happen for a reason, Buffy. And what I’m doing in L.A, my redemption… everything… the prophecy says when I fight my last battle I’ll become human again”.
She stared at him shocked.
“And I need you to stay alive for me”, he whispered and leaned to kiss her.
She parted her lips, welcoming him. It was as if they were never apart. As though the years never passed.
She put her arms around him and drew herself nearer. She wanted to immerse herself in him, to become a part of him.
Angel let himself drawn in her. All these years, of living the memories of their lost day alone in his bed, when he had time to think, finally he got to feel her and taste her again. She was his sanctuary.
The thought of Michael made him drift back to reality.
“We have to find Michael”. He said as he opened his eyes to look at her. She nodded and let go of him.
Part 19
“I just called Charles”, Cordelia told Wesley as she hung up the phone. “He’s angry I didn’t call before we left”, she told him.
“Oh Gunn, how is he?” Wesley asked.
“He misses me”, Cordelia said, smiling.
Angel walked out of the room and they all looked at him.
Buffy stepped out behind him.
She looked over at her friends as though she saw them for the first time.
“Buffy, is everything all right?” Willow asked.
“We won’t find him now…” Buffy whispered.
“What?” Angel moved closer to her, leaning down.
“Look at him”, Xander muttered in Tara’s ears over on the couch. “I think the years made him forget he still has a curse… look how he’s all over her”.
“I think they’re a pretty safe distance”, Tara replied.
“I can feel… I don’t know how to explain it, but I can feel him. He’s sleeping now”, she said. “Somewhere safe”.
“Then we have to search for him in the morning”, Willow said.
“That’s leaving one of us out of the search”, Xander pointed.
“Not necessarily”, Tara implied.
They looked at her.
“I know a spell that can protect Angel from the daylight”.
Angel walked alongside Buffy on the way to her home.
“So…” she said, looking up at him. “You still didn’t say anything about the spell”.
He sighed. “I don’t know, Buffy. I don’t think I should trust magic so much”.
“But don’t you see what it means? You could walk in the sun!” She sounded excited. “…With me…”
he stopped walking and looked at her.
“Walk me to the light”, She reached for his hand.
He took her hand and held it to his cheek. “I can’t,” he whispered. “Not like this”.
She opened the door to her apartment and entered. He stood there and looked at her, awkward. She put her bag down and turned to him.
“Oh, I’m sorry! Come in,” She invited him and he walked in, closing the door behind him.
“Nice apartment,” he commented, looking around at the one-bedroom place. She smiled and looked over to the bed.
“I should join Cordy and Wesley at the mansion,” he said.
“Please stay,” she looked at him. “I don’t wanna stay alone tonight”.
He smiled shyly.
After years of longing and dreaming, Buffy cuddled close to Angel’s body. She rested her head on his chest. They were both fully clothed, and he held his arm around her.
“Tell me,” she trailed her finger on his chest. “How we were… on that day”.
He smiled to himself at the memory. “You licked ice-cream from my chest,” he told her. She giggled and raised her head to look at him.
“Really?”
He nodded and smiled wider. “We had a good time”.
She caressed his muscular stomach, underneath his shirt.
“Was I happy?”
“We laid like this, only naked, and you didn’t want to sleep, so the day wouldn’t stop from happening…” He propped himself on his elbow, and stroked her hair. “I told you to sleep, that we’ll have another day just like this…” he cringed and dropped his hand.
She waited for him to lay down again, and rested her head on his arm, snuggling close. “It must have been perfect. Spending the day like a normal girl with her normal boyfriend… with you…” she whispered and he closed his eyes, thinking that was exactly what she said then.
He pulled her closer and kissed her forehead. “Sleep”. He whispered.
Part 20
Angel watched Buffy as she stirred in his arms and then opened her eyes slowly. She smiled at him, relieved to see he was still there, holding her. He smiled. “Good Morning”.
The phone rang and Buffy reluctantly turned away from Angel to pick it up.
Angel got up and paced around the room.
“Giles called. They’re going out to look after Michael”.
“They shouldn’t go alone,” Angel said, moving closer.
“Well, Tara and Willow are heading our way to cast that spell on you… and Cordelia didn’t think Michael would hurt them”.
Angel rubbed his chin. “Michael doesn’t know what he’s doing. He’s believing whatever Lindsey tells him”.
“They’re looking for me,” Michael said, turning to Lindsey.
“Hmmm?”
“There’s 4 of them. I think my mother is with them”. Michael said as he tied his new snickers.
“I’m gonna go play with them a little, they will lead me to Buffy,” He jumped up on his feet.
“Be careful, son”. Lindsey said, as he opened his laptop. Michael smiled and walked out the door. “See you later… dad,” he closed the door behind him.
Lindsey looked at his laptop and started typing.
“No need to bother the senior partners… the kid’s very cooperative”.
“I believe we should stay together,” Wesley commented when Xander offered to split up.
“We have better chance of finding him if we look in different places,” Xander argued.
“What good will it do when he controls your mind?” Wesley asked.
“I suppose he has a point,” Giles sighed.
“Oh please, he’s a kid. I can take him easily”.
Cordelia snickered. “I would LOVE to see you try”.
“Fine, you go look for him, I’ll go on my own”. Xander turned and walked away.
The other three didn’t even flicker.
“yi mi nor shemesh nikor. Ti zi kor shemesh lo hol”. Tara finished her weird chanting. Buffy and Willow were standing at the far corner looking. Angel was sitting in front of Tara, in a circle, studying her face as she chanted the unfamiliar words.
She opened her eyes and got up.
“Can I…” He started asking, but she nodded.
He got up, brushing his hair. “What language was that? I’ve never heard that one before”.
“It’s biblican. Ancient witches language used in bible times, later adapted by western witches. The spell I put on you was used in Salem. Witches sent creatures of the nights during the day, to defend themselves from their hunters,” Tara explained.
“Is it working?” Buffy approached them.
Angel glanced at the door. “We’ll have to see”.
Buffy walked over to the door and opened it, waiting for Angel to follow. He blinked at the bright light and started walking slowly towards it.
He stopped before being exposed to the light and looked at Buffy.
She smiled at him and held out her hand. “It’s okay,” She whispered.
He slowly reached out his hand, exposing it to the sun. Not even a sizzle. He held Buffy’s hand and like a baby making his first step, he started walking very slowly, until he was completely exposed to the daylight. He turned around to Tara and smiled widely.
Xander stopped in the middle of the street.
He looked at the young boy, with the L.A Lakers cap, walking towards him.
“Oh, it’s easier than I thought,” Xander said to himself quietly.
Michael stopped before him.
“Hey, kid. I heard you need to be stopped,” Xander said.
“Why do you think Angel is evil?” Michael was surprised with Xander’s thoughts.
“Hey, how did you do that?” Xander asked, surprised.
The boy started to laugh and jump around. “You’re jealous! You’re jealous! You’re green with envy! “ He called.
“Stop that! I’m not-“ Xander waved his hand, then realized his hand was green.
“What have you done to me?” Xander asked and ran to some store’s window, looking at his reflection.
“I’m green!” He nearly fell to the ground.
He turned back to the boy. “Turn me back!”
“You’re jealous! You’re jealous!” The boy kept repeating his little chant and giggled. He stopped abruptly and look around.
“Stay away,” he warned riley who came closer, trying to sneak behind him.
“Get him!” Xander called and riley stopped on his tracks.
“Xander? What happened to you?”
Xander grinned foolishly. “I’m green with envy”.
The boy stepped back. “Here’s your big chance, zeppo”.
“What?” they both turned to him.
“Dead boy!” Michael hissed. “I’m not sure you want me to…”- he was cut by riley who lunged at him.
Xander grabbed riley and pulled him away from the kid.
The tall guy looked surprised. “Xander, what are you-“ he didn’t finish his sentence; Xander punched his nose and dropped him to the ground. He got up and tried to hit Xander back, but Xander ducked his hit. Michael watched amused the two guys fighting.
“Kill him,” he ordered and walked away.
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