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Well,
we all deserve these tiny, little breaks from all the tension and
conflicts and calumny and envy in the social world. And such breaks could
be in the persona of one in luxurious aloneness or otherwise with a quiet
friend flaunting a smile on the lips. Ideally
placed in a provincial setting, perhaps, as against the bustle of -- say
-- a Cannes Film Festival-like joviality, these breaks must forego of the
advantages and disadvantages of TV and the news radio. These breaks must
even forget the shopping and to-do lists, even for just an hour, as the CD
turns and turns to its last digital audio datum.
Forget
these, yes. But how much more work, which one should forget often
but often something one tends to unforget! Especially when one’s work
requires one’s constant involvement in the social quirks and foibles and
crimes of local and global humanity. No, one must leave work, even for
just an hour -- as we said – to be enmeshed in the abovementioned
comforts. Whether such comforts locate themselves by fate in a modest
subdivision house or a farm hut among the dogs and geese or a lanai or
slum window in the middle of the urban jungle, one must take advantage of
these moments. No, this rare modicum of provinciality must be treasured,
even sought, and independent as we said of the requisites of social
awareness. OF
COURSE these don’t last long. As the CD nears the last song and the
orange juice turns to acid to digest the MSG-laden pansit in the Darwinian
tummy adapting to HMOs and mutant pesticide fruits, one perks up once
again, ready to pounce on a pc whose expensive motherboard warranty life
is ticking away with the threat of thrusting one into forced leave
once again. One’s morning alertness, free of any
caffeine shove, is up once more; ready now, as it were, to ride the
electric guitar assonance of populating populations and their rulers’
country golf club politics.
So,
where to begin? Must I, like a jackass, shy away now from the beautiful
racket of birds on the jackfruit tree behind my window and turn on to ANC
and Ces Drilon’s politician guest challenges and positive-negative
people profiles? Must I read a Seamus Heaney poem to find that celebration
of rustic living that would still inevitably allude to certain
CNN-friendly issues of conflict and intolerance? Should I scream at the
pina colada music still in a flurry with its bevy of string arpeggios to
shut up now, replace it in the process with a (now-fearsome) modern Arabic
lullaby or an American rock anthem on dysfunctions and careers? Must I
challenge too my ears with some Gary Granada problem plays, uh, songs? Or
must I watch a pirated Lav Diaz film on a “not branded” vcd player to
awaken certain Marxist ideals into the present fray of thoughts, awaken
thus my angry subconscious aware of the Imeldific histrionics of our
debt-ridden history of corruption-fighting corrupt personas? Should I now
forthwith dismiss my sofa pillows to buckle into another (possibly
hopeless) lip-servicing venture of campaigning against governments and
government leaders and legislators in our time who are servicing nothing
but corporate and filial and “party” interests? Or should I exchange,
even, this luxurious armchair politics for a more “proactive” decision
of . . . joining the rebels? Must I succumb to frustration? BEYOND
the contentment of pansit and orange juice breakfasts, there will come the
uneasy craving for lunch and the paeans to the slowly slipping buying
power of our grocery money. And, beyond the frustration, there lies the
realization that any call for changes that we make today will face once
again nothing more than the usual apathy and deaf ear and thus will be
impossibly fulfilled by anything other than a revolution, any revolution,
and that to deny this fact would be mere cowardice disguising itself as
rationality and civilized scruples. Beyond the talk shows and the EDSA
congregations, the realization of a historical perspective that the same
corruption-fighting corrupt will find themselves wallowing on the
shoulders of the ignorant masses. The realization, too, that no
mathematical genius will find us a way out of the fraudulent loans that
Ferdinand Marcos and the later dispensations inserted into our collective
credit list written on a balloon, a balloon carrying the corollary
realization that only its bursting will create some change.
Everyday,
after the joy of breakfasts and coffeeshop talk, we move happily towards
our work routine, armed though we are with the knowledge that our
statesmen may be more World Bank men or insurance men or contracts men or
simply lobby envelopes men. Or women, for that matter. Everyday, we creep
away from our little contented luxuries and promise ourselves to do our
little contributions in the fight against the status quo, knowing all the
while that the fruits of these little contented fights will not be there
for us to see in our lifetime. Social
criticism. What does it do when the majority of our people swim in a sea
of ill literacy? Is the pen still mightier than the sword? – we ask. And
can patriotic swords be mightier than the proud satellites of corrupt
government-sponsoring arms dealers in Washington with all their technology
and ill-gotten capital? Why
should I crawl to my keyboard away from the pina colada Afro-Cuban music
on my Cuban-looking cheap player, on to my pc keyboard, knowing that this
will amount to nothing but mere posing in a garb of boldness while shady
radio broadcasters equate the rebels’ rebellion with cowardice? IS
IT possible to live a life without politics? And how is that possible? How
will that attitude have created, nay afforded, a breakfast with a CD
player and waiting pc, surrounded by the rain and the birds and the
far-away and unseen downtown beggars and the nearby squatting
undernourished thieves? Must I really ask how I got my money, how I
don’t get what I don’t get, how others aren’t getting any, and how
certain others get so much? Must I really start my social criticism with
myself? Must I really “social-criticize”?
Why
can’t we all just be contented with our exclusive prayer meetings, our
resort weekends, our arts? After all, Jesus Christ Superstar doth preach
that “There will be poor always, pathetically struggling; look at the
good things you’ve got.” Anyway.
1,134 words. 1,134 words of thinking aloud that led me to this. That
the three choices of remaining in the sofa, working on my keyboards, and
leaving it all for proactive ventures, aren’t really choices. For a
certain sensibility would allow that each of these couldn’t go without
the others. For,
indeed, or so I believe now, 1,191 words later, to appreciate life is to
appreciate one’s duties and obligations to the attainment and sustenance
of that life. And the warrior is no less appreciative of these luxuries;
indeed he may even be more appreciative of them, being more aware of his
position as constantly looking death in the face. How many of us, after
all, are aware of death’s threat as we face the superhighway traffic of
arrogant drivers or the carcinogenic nutrients on the table? No, the
warrior (in whatever kind of war) also knows that throwing in one’s tiny
singular efforts will suffice. For he knows that he is not the whole
battalion. Even as he knows that he also has not done enough. And so he finishes his orange juice and sits on his pc keyboard, a warrior of sorts fighting a war of sorts, obeying the command of a peace utopia.
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Posted 03/09/05. Send comments to: bananacue_republic@yahoo.com
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