Gone In The Moment
Part 1
Written and Copyright 2000 by Kristi Petersen
Chapter 1
It was about 11:45 PM on Saturday a night. Billy, Mac, Raul and Sasha were all in the car on there way home from a late night movie that was playing in the next town. (Nilly and Mac had been a couple for about six months. Raul and Sasha for about four months.) They had just been to see the movie "Eyes Wide Shut." Even though the guys knew it would be a major chick flick, they loved there women and agreed to go. "I totally loved that movie didn't you Billy?" Mac said.
"Yeah actually it was pretty good."
"Just pretty good?" Mac replied.
Raul jumped in with a grin on his face. "Okay you two lovebirds stop acting like a married couple, it was just a movie. What did you think Sasha? Sasha just sat there leaned up against Raul's shoulder not saying a word.
"Sasha? Mac said as she turned around. Ah how cute she's sound asleep in your arms Raul."
"That sounds good myself. Billy said winked at her. She knew since he was driving she couldn't very well lean right up against him. He said, Why don't you go ahead and go to sleep we still have about twenty minutes before we're going to be home. You can use my lap as a pillow. How about a little music Raul?" Billy asked.
"Sounds good. Billy turns on the music and they continue to drive down the road in silence. About three miles down, the road looks straight for as far as the eye can see. All of a sudden they see headlights. As the car gets closer and closer it looks like the lights are in there lane. It looks like there coming right at us!" Raul yelled.
"I know! Billy shouted back, hang on there's only one thing I can do! Billy jerked the wheel to the left just as the other car did as well. Oh God!" Billy screamed.
At the same time Raul yelled, "We're going to hit them!" The only sound in the night was the sound of these two cars hitting head on in the middle of a deserted road. 'CRASH'.
FLASHFORWARD
Billy is sitting in his room when Jack knocks on the door. "Hey little brother, how are you doing?" Billy is sitting on the bed with two broken legs.
"Oh I guess I am all right with everything that can be expected."
"Well here's this came in the mail today." Jack says handing him a package.
"Thanks man."
"No Problem I'll come back and check on you later." Jack says as he walks out the door.
Billy starts to unwrap the package. When he gets it open its a book and a note. The Note read: Billy this is my diary. If you are getting this something bad has happen. I want you to have it. Billy just stares at it with tears. He opens the diary.
April 1 2000
Dear Diary: I think I am in love with this guy at school. He asked me to prom. I immediately agreed to go with him, then afterwards felt kind of embarrassed for accepting so quickly. Do you think he knows how I feel? Does he feel the same way? I really hope so! I came straight home from school today and told my dad and grandmother. They were so happy for me. My grandmother said she would take me all over the world this weekend to find the perfect dress for prom. Oh diary, I am so happy goodnight.
Chapter 2
April 2, 2000
Dear Diary: I went to school today feeling on cloud nine. I am so happy. When I got to school Raul already knew that Billy had asked me. I guess he probably knew before I did seeing how they are best friends and all. Well he seemed really happy for us. He said he was thinking about asking this girl named Tina, but he wasn't sure yet. Tomarrow is the day that I get to go shopping for my prom dress oh I am excited. Well I better get to bed early tonight as I have a very busy day ahead of me. Goodnight.
April 5, 2000
Dear Diary: I know that it has been a few days since I last wrote, but we ended up spending the whole weekend looking for the perfect prom dress. But we found it!! Oh it looks so lovely. I know that Billy will just love it. I can't wait for him to see it, but he can't see it until the night of the prom when I come walking down those steps. Well I am very tired from our long trip. I am also very excited about going to school and seeing Billy tomarrow. Goodnight.
April 6, 2000
Dear Diary: I AM IN LOVE, although I haven't told him that yet. I had a wonderful day today. I went to school this morning and Billy was waiting at my locker for me. He had one single red rose in his hand and asked me if I would be his girlfriend. I though that I was going to start crying right there. I told him that I was wondering when he was going to bite the bullet and ask me. I mean gosh we had already made plans to go to the prom together, how much longer did he need to ask me out too? Oh and another good thing happened today. Raul asked Tina to the prom and she said yes that she would go. I am so appy for him. I mean I felt really bad and all when we broke up last winter. But I am very glad that we stayed friends. Well it has been a long day so goodnight.
April 7, 2000
Dear Diary: School was not fun today. There is this girl named Brittany, she is a real bitch. She came up to my locker after school and started threatening me, telling me that my relationship with Billy wasn't going to last because she wanted him. I remember her saying to me "And I ALWAYS get what I want." I could of just reached out and slapped her for that one. I can not believe that seh said that to me. I mean yeah she is sort of pretty, but she is a slut. I mean if Billy wanted to date someone like that he would have asked her to the prom not me. Well she can just live with the fact that him and I are a couple now. I think I have rambled to you enough tonight. Goodnight.
Billy looks up from the pages with tears running down his eyes. He remembers the days that she has written about. He thinks to himself about the day that he asked her to prom.. He knew that she sounded really excited and anxious about it. But what she didn't know is that he was too. He smiles when he thinks about how much he just wanted to kiss her right there, but he decided that he needed to wait until they were atleast a couple. He remembered how he so badly wanted to ask her out, but was worried that a girl like her wouldn't date a guy like him.
Chapter 3
He thought if he asked her to the prom and she said yes he would have a better chance at getting her as a girlfriend too. Again the tears started to roll. He quietly says to himself out loud "How much I miss her. How happy I am that she has given me the chance to see what she really thought about me all this time. He lays his head back down and turns a few pages. I wonder what else she has in here?"
April 30, 2000
Dear Diary: I am so excited I can hardly wait for tomorrow. I can't believe that the prom is all ready here. Tina is coming over to my house at one o'clock so we can get ready for prom together. Her dress is so pretty. I know that Raul wil start to drool the minute he see's her. Not to meation what Billy will think when he sees me in my dress. Its all ready after eleven and I can't stop thinking about tomorrow. I better try going to sleep again so that I won't fall asleep during prom. Goodnight.
May 2, 2000
Dear Diary: Sorry that I didn't write in here last night but I was really tired when I got home. It was after 2AM when I crawled into bed. I am so glad that my dad let me stay out extra late for the special occasion. I think that between him, my grandmother, and Billy's family they must have taken five rolls of film. They went nuts. Not to meantion that we got our pictures taken at prom. Oh were do I start? It was the best night of my life. Oh were do I begin? Billy about fell over dead when he saw me. All I could do is blush. Oh by the way Raul was speechless when he saw Tina in her dress. Then the limo the guys rented was fabulous. I totally lost it when my dad said that the guys in there limo was here to pick us up. Then we went to prom. It looked oh so lovely the colors they had the place decorated and it was oh so becautiful! But Billy said it wasn't as beautiful as I was. Isn't he so sweet? Brittany was her b****y self. She walked in with that drunken jerk of a boy she hangs out with J.T. I think he was pretty well smashed last night. The first thinh she did when she came in was walk right up to MY boyfriend and tell him to make sure he saved the last dance for her. Then she looked at me and giggled. "Oops I guess that means I get to dance with him twice tonight. You know the last dance and when we get crowned King and Queen oh well, I told you I would win this game." Then she walked off. You should have seen her face when they announced the winners. Of course my charming Billy was King, but you should have seen the twinkle in his eye when they said and this years Queen is....Mac! OH BOY DID THAT MAKE HER MAD!!
Billy looked up from the book he did indeed have a twinkle in his eye when they announced the queen. His first thought was wow then he was very happy that he got to dance that dance with her in front of everyone. He also rememberd the look on Britt's face when she didn't win. She was not only mad that she lost, but also that she lost to Mac. He remembers hearing her running out of the room crying something about not winning, but he was paying more attention to his beautiful queen and man did she look good right at that moment. His thoughts were innterupted when there was a knock on the door. "Come in." His mom walks into the room.
Chapter 4
"Hi son, how are you doing? I brought you some dinner. Your brother said you got a package today. "What was it?" Billy replied, "I was sent Mac's diary."
"Now come on son, why would they do a thing like that? Don't people realize that is a female's personal possession? Anyway I will leave you to eat. I will have your father to check on you later."
"Ok, bye mom."
"Bye Billy." Jill leaves and Billy eats his dinner. After he is finished he sets his plate on the floor and picks back up the diary. He flips a few more pages thinking that he wants a glimpse of everything that she has written and figures that he can go back and read every word later.
May 6, 2000
Dear Diary: We have been together for one month now. I am so happy. Billy came over last night with a dozen roses and some candles. He made me the best dinner. I am so in love. (She starts writing down what she is singing, 'Everytime you need a baby I get kinda crazy in my head for you and I don't know what to do and oh baby, I get kinda shaky when they mention you I just lose my cool, my friends tell me something else comes over me and I think I know what it is, I'm in love. Boy, I think that I am in love with you, got me doing silly things when it comes to you, in love, boy I think that I am in love with you, I think I'm in love got me telling all my friends what I feel for you just the other night, baby I saw you hanging you were with your crew I was with mine too, you took me by surprise when you turned and looked me in my eyes, oh you really blew my mind, I don't know whats gotten into me, but I think I know what it is......I think that I am falling in love with him. But how do I tell him without scarying him away? Goodnight.
Billy looks up from the diary. "Oh Mac, if I had only know that you felt this way. I wanted to tell you I loved you while we were dancing at the prom, but I didn't want you to think that I was just saying it. Especially since we had only been together a few weeks. If I had only knew." He picks up the diary again and flips a few more pages.
May 15, 2000
Dear Diary: Things are going great with Billy, and me, but Raul and Tina broke up. I guess that I shouldn't sound so down. Tina's family decided to move away so they broke it off before it got too complicated. I guess he will be just fine cause I heard someone say that this girl named Sasha has it bad for him. Maybe they will end up getting together. Who knows. Anyway, Billy and I are going to the movies tomorrow. I am not sure what we are going to see yet, I told him that he could pick out the movie, but I get to pick out the next one. He said that was fine cause we don't go to the movies very often anyway. He thinks that by the time we go to another movie that I will forget who's turn it is to pick out a movie and he will get to pick it out again. Well, he is wrong I will never forget. The next movie I want to see is Eyes Wide Shut. Man, I can't wait until it comes out. Well I have to get ready for bed. Goodnight.
Chapter 5
Billy smiles thinking about that night at the movies. They ended up going to the drive in that was out of town with Raul and Sasha. He thinks that the four of them talked more than watching the movie cause it wasn't the best. He thinks to himself, in fact I don't even remember the name of it now. All I know is that I was just happy to be there with the girl that I loved. He flips a couple more pages and begins reading it again.
May 27, 2000
Dear Diary: Well I guess what I was thinking someone heard cause Raul and Sasha got toghether this past weekend. We had a great time this past weekend all hanging out though. I am glad that the guys planned a picnic for us. Raul and Sasha were on a date when we left and by the time we came home they were an official couple. I am so happy that he has found someone new. I know that him and Tina just broke up, but it was for a good cause. Anyway he seems a lot happier with Sasha than he ever was with Tina. Maybe this is the way that it was meant to be. Goodnight.
June 6, 2000
Dear Diary: We have been together for two months now. I still haven't had the nerve to tell him those three little words. I had to work today at the coffeehouse and tonight as well so we decided that we would celebrate our anniversary tomorrow night. Maybe I will tell him then. He said that he was going to take me for a picnic. Thats is it, I will tell him tomorrow.
June 7, 2000
Dear Diary: Oh my you would not believe the day I had today. Billy came and picked me up and took me to our little place (a.k.a. the playhouse). It was so romantic. He had a picnic all set out when I got there with candles all around the room. It was so sweet. After we finished the meal he said that he had a surprise for me. He said that we could not celebrate without a cake. He asked me if I would go get it off the counter. I agreed and walked over to get it and I almost fell over in my tracks. There on the cake in frosting I saw the words, "I love you, Mac" I felt as though I couldn't breath. I mean those were the words that I wanted to say to him so very badly and here not only was he telling them to me, but also he slowly came over the where I was standing and whispered the words softly in my ear. He leaned over towards me and said, "I love you Mac." I thought that I had died and gone to heaven. I have wanted to tell him thoes words for so long and I just couldn't find the right time. How long had he felt like this?When did he think of this? Oh How I loved that moment. I couldn't wait for it to get her and when it did, I didn't want it to ever end.
Billy lifted his head and smiled. He remembered every word that he had just read. He had wanted to tell her for weeks. He finally realized that he didn't know if he would be able to get the words out. He then thought that the easiest way to do it would be to have the cake tell her how he felt instead of the usuall Happy anniversary that everyone always gets on those kinds of cakes. He knew from the way that she was looking at the cake that he had done the right thing.
Chapter 6
He smiled as the picture from that night rolled back into his mind. He walked over to her and whispered those words into her ear. She turned around to look at him with tears in her eyes and said, "I love you too, Billy. I have wanted to tell you that for so long, I just never knew when the right time was. I didn't want to say it too early and take the chance of loosing you." Billy smiled thinking about this. He knew in his heart that she could have said it at any time cause he had been thinking it last winter when she was still dating his best friend Raul, but didn't want to come between the two of them. He lays the diary down and turns off the light to go to sleep.
He awoke the next morning to the sound of a knock on the door. "Come in."
"Hey there little brother."
"Hi Ash."
"Sorry that I didn't get to see you last night. Dad and I came home and I peeked my head in the door and you were already asleep, we didn't want to wake you."
"That is okay," replied Billy.
"Here you go, Mami sent up a tray for you for breakfast, where would you like it? On the table next to you or on your lap?"
Billy said, "On the table is fine, thanks."
"I am going to head to the office, Jack and dad already left. Call us if you need anything."
"Okay sis, thanks." Ashley set the tray on the table and left Billy alone to eat. Billy eats his breakfast and then picks up the diary off the floor, flips a few more pages and begins to read again.
June 20, 2000
Dear Diary: I spent the entire day over at the Abbotts house, along with my dad, Kay, and all of Billy's family. I can't believe that Jill and I actually get along to a certain extent. Everyone at school said that all his old girlfriends never liked her, I wonder why that is. I am just glad that I get along with her. I would never want ANYONE to ever come between me and the man that I love. Goodnight.
July 29, 2000
Dear Diary: What am I going to do? I had the most horrible dream last night. I thought that my past was all behind me. It was scary, almost like my body was sensing that it happened again tonight. I don't want to remember all of this, not now. Not when things are going so great between Billy and me. I thought that going to the therapist helped me deal with the fact that my step dad was beating my mother and that I had to watch it. He also raped me and threatened to do it again if I ever told anyone. I went to the therapist, but I never EVER told her who did this to me, just that it happened. I want it to go away, God please make it go away. Goodnight.