Missing You “He, he, heput me down” I said laughing as he ran up to the house we both lived in “Oh ok” he said putting me down outside the front door before opening it “You’re mad you know that” I laughed followinginto the house “Of course I do and I know that’s why you love me”said putting his arms around me “How do you know that?” I asked him “What how do I know you love me?” he asked “Uh huh” “Because you tell me every morning when you wake me up”responded kissing me “And I do love you” I said “I love you two” he said breaking away and going into the kitchen “Wait I forgot I love you both”said putting his hands on my stomach “You forgot?” I asked him “Well it’s not exactly visible yet”replied “True but I can’t forget it” I said “Well that’s obvious”said laughing “Oh noI’m going to have a baby bump when we get married” I said panicking I’d be seven months gone then I was only three at the moment “I know don’t worry babe you’ll still look gorgeous and you might not even get that big”replied “Yeah I suppose” I replied “Hey be more happy about it you’ll be marrying me”said smiling cheekily. “I know that silly” I replied as he lifted my chin and kissed me “What you want for dinner babe?”asked walking back into the kitchen “Ice cream” I said andlooked at me weirdly “Sorry must be cravings” I laughed “Well I’d have to go out and buy some ice cream”said “No it’s ok I can do it” I replied opening the front door “You sure?”asked “Yes I am quite capable of doing such a simple task” I replied “I just don’t want to put too much pressure on you”said I rolled my eyes “Going out to buy some ice cream isn’t too much pressuredon’t worry” I replied and left the house I got to the store got a few looks off of some people probably recognised me as being’s fiancée you see he was a famous singer but at the moment was taking a year out to help with planning the wedding and to help with the baby he was so sweet to me. “That’s a lot of ice cream isn’t it?” Ritchie who worked behind the till said “Maybe but it will be gone soon” I laughed “Oh really why’s that?” he asked “Cravings” I said picking up the bag “Oh” he replied and smiled “Bye” I said smiling and walked back home “OK magazine rang while you we’re out asking if we’d considered them doing the wedding article”said as I sat down with a bowl of ice cream “Yeah did you tell them it was ok?” I askednodded, OK magazine always did the best coverage for things like weddings “Great” I said smiling “Oh and I’m taking you shopping tomorrow”said I looked up at him “What for don’t I have enough clothes?” I asked “Not baby clothes” he said I laughed we only found out today but he was so determined already he’s going to make a great father “we don’t know if it’s a boy or a girl yet” I said “Well stick to White and baby yellow then” he replied “Ok” I replied “And it’ll look and feel so great baby shopping with you”said I smiled “You’re such a sweetie” I said kissing him “I can be, hey can we get stuff for the baby’s room as well”asked getting excited I laughed “If you really want to” I said “Great what colour is the room going to be”asked “I don’t know” I replied “Baby Blue?”asked “Ok then but only because I love that colour” I replied “Great”said smiling so wide it must have hurt him… ‘Baby’ ‘was spotted with his fiancéeyesterday shopping for baby clothes seemsandare going to be parents we caught up with them andwas more then delighted to share his baby news awww’ I laughed as I read the paper even they could tell how delighted was to becoming a father for the first time I was so happy he took it so well I mean we’re both still young and the career he has could be a strain but he said us having a baby was a true way of showing the world we’re serious and the fact that it’ll be a combination of him and I made it even more special “Aren’t you supposed to be meetingand?”asked coming into the living room “Am I?” I asked him “I thought you we’re going bride and bridesmaid dress shopping” said “Oh yeah I better be off then bye” I said kissing him and getting into my car I metandoutside the famous bridal shop “Hey girl”said hugging me “Congratulations by-the-way”smiled “Thanks” I replied “I’m going to be an auntie it’s all so exciting”said as I opened the door “And me”said jumping up and down “Yeah I know I can’t believe I’m going to be a mummy” I smiled “Hello ladies how may I help” a young tall lady said walking up to us “Well I’m getting married in 4 months to a wonderful man but I need to find a perfect dress but then I’ll be seven months pregnant too” I said “Wait you’re’s fiancée” the lady replied smiling “Yes that’s right” I smiled back “Lucky you well you can try on any dress you want we have the same selection in maternity wedding dresses too so no need to worry” the lady said directing me to some fine looking dresses “We don’t have the maternity stuff in the shop but we order it in special not everyone is the same size you see” the lady informed, and I we nodded “I’ll leave you to it” she said walking away. “Oh-my-god that dress is gorgeous” I said walking over to it and picking it up “Wow that is gorgeous and so you”said as she looked at the dress that was made Italian Satin with a strip of gold embroidery around the top in the shape that looked like autumn leaves it was tight at the top and flowed out at the bottom “Try it on and we’ll look for a bridesmaid dresses”said “Ok” I smiled “Pink or Lilac right”called and I nodded I changed into the dress and gasped as I saw my reflection in the mirror “Haley,” I called opening the changing room door “Hey” they smiled holding a dress in their hands “Oh-my-god you look wow”said shocked as didI giggled “You’ve so got to get that one”smiled “What about you’re bridesmaid dresses” I said pointing at them “Oh”said holding it up for me to see it was a strapless dress with a side slit with a chiffon overlay wrapped around the side slit and was in lilac made out of Matte satin “That is gorgeous try it on” I said eager to see them in it they went into a changing room and changed into it “You two look amazing I’m going to have two really gorgeous bridesmaids” I said looking at them “Wow” the lady who had spoken with us earlier said as she walked over to us “I’d love these dresses please” I said smiling “Certainly once you’ve changed out of them I’ll price them up and let you take the bridesmaid dresses and I’ll write down your order for the same in maternity” the lady smiled “Thanks” I said going to change back… “Have fun?”asked as I walked through the door “Yes I found the perfect dress” I replied kissing him “Good you’re going to look perfect”said smiling. “Pictures people” the photographer said after the hustle and bustle of confetti and congratulations had died down “Ok I want just the bride and groom first” the photographer said and I got into place in front of the camera “You look like an angel today babe”whispered in my ear as he stood behind me and put his arms around me his hands resting on my baby bump he rested his chin on my shoulder “Perfect” the photographer said as the flash went off “Bridesmaids and the bride” the photographer saidand stood beside me and my niecestood in-front of my she was the flower girl bless her she was only four years old but she behaved brilliantly today “Excellent Best man and groom along with ushers” the photographer called was’s best man andandwe’re ushers “Looks like Blue again” I said making them laugh a bit as the flash went “Bride, bridesmaids join them” he said I stood with,the other side ofthenwithandwith. "Ok get ready to catch it” I said turning around and throwing the bouquet. and I didn’t go abroad on our honeymoon we couldn’t with me being 7 and a half months pregnant but we enjoyed every minute of the few days we spent at Rookery Manor… Less then two days later “Is that?” a voice said down the phone “Yes that would be me” I replied “Could you please come down the hospital please it’s your husband he’s been involved in a car accident” the voice replied “Wh…what no you're wrong” I said putting the phone down Then I saw it on the news a lorry had collided with a Blue Porsche the driver of the lorry had been drinking and died instantly the other driver was identified ashe was rushed to St.Mary’s Hospital with multiple injuries “Noooo” I screamed falling to my knees and crying the doorbell rang and I heardshouting through the letter box I couldn’t move as I heard the door being kicked in “”said helping me up and holding me in his arms as I cried “Come on we better get to the hospital” he said helping me out to his car “We’re hear to see Mr.”said at reception “It’s not a pretty sight he’s just come out of theatre” a nurse said as she passed by “Can we see him” I cried the nurse nodded and showed me to his room “He has a ruptured spleen and a punctured lung we’re not sure if he’ll live” I heard a doctor say coming out of a room which was’s I looked at “I’ll wait here” he said and let me go in “" I said taking his hand “You can’t leave me, you can’t leave your little boy can you” I said placing his hand on my stomach’s eyes drowsily opened “I’ll always be with you and I’m sorry for this but I know I’ve got to go I’m sorry I won’t be here for our son I really wish I could be I’ll love him even if I’m not here” he said and tears formed in his eyes and a tear slipped down his cheek “Baby don’t talk like that I love you” I said as he’s eyes shut again and one final long beep sounded doctors and nurses rushed in and ushered me out but I heard it “Time of death 2.43pm” “he didn’t make it” I said collapsing in his arms as we held each other for support crying forand I’m sure the day of his funeral ten thousand angels cried the song that played as we walked out of the church spoke so truly every word of it was everything I felt What did I do to deserve this I didn't even get one last kiss from you Oh baby God took your love from me You needed an angel so it seems I need to feel your hands all over me I need to feel you kissing me I need to feel you holding me I need to feel your touch Coz I miss your love so much And I can't keep on living this way I need you here with me Why did he take you away from me It's hard for me to tell you I love you As I'm standing over your grave And I know I'll never hear your voice again Why did you leave me Why couldn't you just stay Because my world is nothing without you Now I don't know what to do with myself I would've given you anything Just to make you happy Just to hear you say that you love me one last time I'd go to hell and back over and over again Just to prove to you how much I need you here There is nothing that I wouldn't do I'd cry for you I'd lie for you And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven I would die for you, yes I will I would rather give up my life Than to see tears in your eyes I can't stand to see you cry Coz it's hard for me to tell you I love you As I'm standing over your grave And I know I'll never hear your voice again Why did you leave me Why couldn't you just stay babe Because my world is nothing without you Now I don't know what to do with myself I just don’t know what to do with myself I can’t stop looking at those pictures on my shelf Knowing it was just one week ago, stood there and took that picture There just one thing that I want to know Why would God want to hurt me so bad Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you Baby I’m missing you Baby I’m missing you I love you oohh God damn it I love you Why did he did he take you away from me Coz I love you so... I miss you so much baby I just can’t go on baby Oohh....... Missing You – First Lady That was three months ago I stood over’s grave with our new born son in my arms who I’d namedafter his fatherwould live on through him but it hurt so much to miss him.I'd go to hell and back over and over again Just to prove to you how much I need you here There is nothing that I wouldn't do I'd cry for you I'd lie for you And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven I would die for you, yes I will I would rather give up my life Than to see tears in your eyes I can't stand to see you cry Lee cried in my arms I rocked him gently as a gentle but warm breeze swept through the gave yard I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and heard’s gentle words “I love you both too much to let you do that”Why would God want to hurt me so bad Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you Baby I’m missing you Baby I’m missing you I love you oohh God damn it I love you Why did he did he take you away from me Coz I love you so... I miss you so much baby I just can’t go on baby I wished it was actually him and not his ghost that held me I’d forever have his spirit with me even if I didn’t have his body. The End.